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tears long ago pushed back rise

It is time, I must go

I disappear, going home

To the dark, where there

is nothing to comfort me

nothing to tell me it will all be ok

It will not, I know that

I want to marry him

To do so would eat me

To not would destroy him

So I shove everything away

curled up in this ball of pain

I release the tears,screams, and whispers

letting it all out

letting my pain have its due

letting it eat more of my soul

for you must pay pain

blood, sex or tears it will have its due

until it is through with you

Eventually I will come back

tired, limping, but victorious

I pray, goddess I pray almost every day

I beg my grandfathers help

I make vows I can never keep

Just to get to sleep

Why can't he be as before?

Why can't he understand more?

I love him like nothing else

And would be faithful to only him

If only he did not cut so deep

or salt the wounds so often

I skirt trouble, and call it's very name

As I pray to not be tempted

I hate the words so vile

I hate the anger so scary

I am tired of it all

And simply sadly just want his arms

I felt the world shift last night

Something happened

what is was I am not sure

Only the coming days will show

If it was for me

Or the whole world

I never know you see

what is happening

when it happens

I hope to lord and lady

it was a good change

And not another disaster



Sighs now I know