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Well its been about a week since I have recieved a letter from my man. I am hoping that tonight it will come cross your fingers for me! Since they have moved him to a single cell he is suppose to have more time on his hands now with only 3 1/2 hours out so I figured I would get more letters. Well I guess all I can do is sit and wait! Thou my mind is wondering what has happened see he has claustropbia so he may be medicated which means it will be hard to write! So I am sitting here waiting on it to arrive!





Thanks to all that take the time to read my journal.



HAVE A GREAT DAY/ NIGHT!!!!!!!!!

Well I recieved another letter I guess they put him back into a regular one man cell for his last few days. They say its to make him think about what jail is really about with out all the fun and games that he was able to do but he did work for that privledge. When he wrote he said he was kinda glad they did it that way he knows what to think about if he goes to slip up what he would be losing. But I still can't wait to hear from him again.



THANKS TO ALL THAT HAVE RED THRU THIS!!



HAVE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT!!!

I just wanted to put a short thing in here about Thanksgiving. First we are having family from out of state visit they came in yesterday. I would like to also tell everyone that celebrates HAPPY THANKSGIVING. HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!







THANKS AGAIN TO ALL THAT READ MY JOURNAL MAY YOU HAVE A HAPPY DAY/NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I recieved a package today! In it was a homemade frame it was really nice seeing all he had to work with was toothpaste and playing cards. It actually looks like something you would buy in a store. He also sent me some more poems I will be adding them to my collection.





Thanks to all who have read my journal!



HAVE A GREAT DAY AND NIGHT!!!!

Well I just thought I would write to say I have added some more of his poems. and I also added an entry in my stories about the dream situation. If anyone is interested.



I got to write in the VAMP BOX for the first time today!



Thanks again for reading!



HAVE A GREAT DAY AND NIGHT!!!!!

This is a THANK YOU for the graphic work done in my profile without her help I would still have a boring plain look.

THANKS AGAIN Sweetheart you helped me a lot in more than just this site. I finally have a piece of me back again my missing link. (you)

Well I get to add some good thoughts today. I recieved 2 more letters. One which contained some more poems which have already been added to my journal. These poems really got to me tonight for the first time in his life he admitted the truth to our children. I know how hard that was for him but that just means he is getting better. I found out he has only 1 step left to go til he finishes his 12 steps. Then off to rehab to finish the rest. I am so proud of him in one of the letters he was telling me about this guy in jail with him I guess he over heard a conversation between my bf and another guy and my bf started to cry over the pictures I had sent to him and the guy had called him a sissy. See my bf had (noticed I said had) because also for the first time he let it go with out violence. He just looked at the guy and told him that he wasn't he was just in LOVE. And went back to his bunk. His ego is now down to size for many years he let shit like that bother him and with the help he is getting he now knows there is more to life than just worring about what other people think. And to think I had been trying for years to tell him the same thing it only took losing his freedom and family to realize it.



ONCE AGAIN THANKS TO THOSE WHO ARE READING THIS HAVE A GOOD DAY AND NIGHT

Last night was a night to remember!! See for the first time yesterday I posted a thread. Why I have no clue. That is until it was all over then I had realized why it had been done. The faiths were on my side. Destiny was running its course!! I had posted a ? that probably has been asked over and over but I posted for my own reasons. See I wanted to know the myths and the truth of vampires, in hopes that someone would tell me their story. Someone did and I send out GREAT THANKS to Willowshadowfox for sharing that part of her lifestyle with me. See that thread had caused a lot of conflict and to her I owe her an apology I'm sorry once again for the trouble. But I am not sorry for posting that thread see I had seen her on many of times and had never said hello. Why bacause I didn't follow my own advice I did exactly what I shouldn't have I judged a book by its cover and almost lost out on an experience of a life time. I would have lost out on a FRIEND!!!!!!! And I am glad to have met her!!





WILLOWSHADOWFOX



THIS IS A THANK YOU AGAIN FOR ALL THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME.

Well I finally added those poems I have been talking about. There are 2 in there that were written for a cell mate's father that had died while he was in jail. All the poems that have been added to my journal have been written by me and my soul mate (MARK) to let you in on some information Mark never in his life ever wrote any poetry until he got off the drugs so these poems mean a lot to me it just goes to show he can put the knowledge in his brain to good use. He has always been an intelligent man but always used his head for the wrong reason. Now that he is getting on the right path I am so proud of him.





Well once again thank you for taking the time to read my journal

Well today has been a headache of a day I have had a migrane all day and it seems to be only getting worse. I found out today that these types of headaches run in the family.



I had received that call last thursday and it was good news release into rehab yeah. Also found out he is going to be a inspirational speaker for a scared straight program for the kids at school. I am so proud, it is about time he did some good with all the knowledge he posses. I love him very much and its not all the time you find your soul mate. I guess things are getting better but as I said in the past patients is not my strong point.



I still have to add all the poems I have recieved still haven't had time and/or opportunity to do so.



Well to all of you that take the time to read these entries thanks again for listening to me vent!



MAY YOUR DAYS AND NIGHTS BE GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today there has been a lot on my mind. I have alot of personal conflict going on in my life at this point in time. But I thank the forces around me that my children seem to be on track still. I have more poems to add to my collection just haven't had the time to do it yet! I am hoping within this month I will be able to express some good thoughts. I want to thank you if you have red thru all of this and appreciate the fact that you took the time to check out my journal!!!!

I would like to send this thank you to a person here on VR that has been so sweet and such a good listener. There are times Just talking to her can make my day better. She has just got her new status and it was well deserved Congradulation Jamie I felt this Thank You was in order and hope that all that read this will know just how sweet you are. You deserve the upmost respect. Thank you once again.

Well I got news today. I'll be recieving a phone call long awaited. I just hope everything is well and its good news that I'll be getting. My life is topsy turvy at this present time. Not knowing who to turn to or who to trust. I have had so many disappointments that there really isn't much left for me to experience in this life time. It has got to get better from here on out. I have definitely learned the hard way we make life what we want it to be and what we put in we get back ten fold. The one thing is for so long I put all my effort into someone else and now its my turn to get. So far its looking good just a slow process and I'm not a patient person that is one of my faults. Everyday I try to work on it. Well thank you for listening to whoever is out there may your days be better than mine.

Well a new month has started and I still feel like I am going nowhere. There is an emptyness inside that I just can't fill no matter what I do. I'm hopeing that this month will bring on a change well needed.