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It hurst so much, when you get stood up.

Your heart feels like it wants to split into two.

An yet, tears wont come to your eyes.

It's an exciting feeling yet you feel let down.

Your mad, upset, and even hurt

For something so small, it feels so bad.

You wont want to talk to the person

just to hear them lie.

It might make you feel a little better

but you really know whats going on.

Theres no need to lie to yourself

It wont help but it does feel good

for a few seconds

You try to tell yourself

"It's alright. No big deal."

Yet it is a huge sign of disrespect.

That person looks real bad right about now.

Don't let it pull you down.

It's not the first time,

and it wont be the last.

I think I have finaly entered the real hell. Now all that devil, fire, heated earths cors stuff but the real hell. Yelling, doors slaming, orders flying all over the place. Seeing it? Curssing, snickering, dirty looks, talking behind someone back, getting the drift? You should by now! You sohuld by now!

For all you dreamers and hiders and all the others, it's time to listen up! We are so not aware to the way we teart others around us.

Earth is not earth, Heven is not Heven, and Hell is not Hell. Space is not space and the unknow is not unknow anymore. Don't you understand what I'm trying to say?! We are living in hell! Everyday we walk around like nothings wrong but it is. It needs to all change. I want it to all change. It's going to all change....I'm going to make it change!

Crash

The tears start to flow

"Whats wrong? Leave me Alone!"

Teddy comes into play

Rocking back and forth

With me as the tears still keep coming

Dripping down my now red hot cheaks

My chest rises rapidly as my heart beat speeds up

Boom! No make it stop!

My head akes, my face heats up

The tears flow incontroably

The dark figure in front of me starts to pace.

"Are you ok?" "LEAVE ME ALONE!"

I bellow almost like I'm trying to spit anger from the pit of my soul.

The shadow backs away in fear.

Looking at me with concern in their eyes.

Fear, concern and worry, all that casued by a little death.

No how dare you say that! Its not true! I know its not. Theres something I've got to say. I want to tell you who I really am deep down inside. How dare you label me! First you compare me and now this?! NO! Lies all lies, shes coming back I love her. Execpt me for what I want to be! ME! But who is she? Have I fallen in love with a fake? What to do, what to do? How could you! How dare you! No! Lies! I don't want to hear it. They are all lies...Right? Or maybe, maybe I messed up again. AGAIN!? Danger Danger! Wait, give me time to think. what have I done? How could she? No! Why. Why me? Why my life? Get on, move on, it's not real, no trouble here. Keep moving. Wait, I'm confused! Who was the one really putting on the front? Telling the lies? Not being theirself?....Its was me, it was me all along.

ME!

My whole body tingles

It feels like there are little spores running through my blood

My vision gets blurry

The room starts to spin

Life is over

My number is up

Blood runs down my forhead

My legs get weak

I fall to the ground

I lost control of myself

Its all over, the pain has stopped

Little pink eraser

Correct all my mistakes

All the slips and errors

This little child makes



I know that you can wipe

The pencil from the page,

But what about the hurt

I have caused within my rage?



Even when its pencil

That you must erase

The faded words live on

On the paper, still a trace



If I tried undoing

Evil word that I had said

Would some faint remains

Still be etched into my head?



I know that I'm not perfect

Pink eraser please be kind

For on this page of life

The paper is not lined

By an old friend of mine, Alana Neil



For the boy I love so well

I sit in the park where I dwell

He took my heart away from me

Now he wants to set me free

I see a girl on his lap

He says things to her he never said to me

I ran home to cry on my bed

Not a word to mother was said

Father came home late that night

He looked at me from left to right

He saw the me hanging froma rope

On my dress a note was found;

Dig my grave, Dig it deep

Dig it from my head to my feet

On the top place a dove

And remember this, I died for love

Could and would mean nothing

Can and will mean all

When someone says what you don't like,

Stand up straight and tall



Say what you need to and worry later.

Sticking up for someone happens now

You may never have another chance,

And then you'll wonder how...



How and what you could have said

To protect your very best friend

If you don't speak out when your needed

Your conscience will hurt until the end

*I wrote this from my b/fs point of veiw.*



Everyone I love is weak

I must stay strong

For I am the pillers to thier fondation

Mother crumbles at the knees

When things don't go her way

Father runs and hides from the world

In his closet he will stay

For he is fake and does not know truth

I have to stay strong

For it is weak people I love

My lover has so much stress

I must be strong for her

For it is she that needs me the most

Tears she will not cry

Which makes her want to die

Strong I have to stay

For little sister will always fuss

I'm so afraid she will bust

She will get lost and wont find her way

Why do I love weak people?

Why must I stay strong?

When it is I that is the weakest of them all

You don't know

Whats its like to be me

You don't see

What I have to see

Your don't feel how I feel

Or do what I do

You don't even care

So until you can fill my shoes

Don't pretend to know

What it's like to be me

Tick Tock, got to beat that clock.

Got to do it, Got to do it, tick tock

Tick Tock, Tick Tock

Will some one shut that damn thing up?

It grows louder. TICK TOCK!

Make is stop!

Got to beat that damn clock.

Be better then it.

Prove it wrong.

I am me.

Who am I?

TICK TOCK! TICK TOCK!

No fight it, me, me...me, I...

Am me, I am me!

DO you hear me!?

I AM ME!

My own person!

ME!

Times running short.

Nows my time.

My turn.

They are yelling my name.

I"m in the spot light.

Me? Yes!

Little old me.

My turn to shine.

I'm not messing it up, this time.

I'm taking it and running wild with it.

I will beat that god damn clock!