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have 3 days off from shedd do to slow season. but i will make it up some how i hope .

i would never even want to be one . i have my ever after and to choose vampire would mean to put an end to what all i believe in . this body of mine is week so why would i want it. when i can have something all powerfull and am glad that i dont even have to worrie about controling it becasue its a gift and one i would never turn from . i have a eternal friend one much more powerful then a vampire and he has concord death . Death has no power or place in me. only a steping out from time and space . for once the end of this body happens then time and space will melt away and have very little meaning to me. Once i leave this world i will need no other energy but that, witch comes from my dear friend and brother. thats right you heard me say it i can call Him the" Great I Am ". my brother. for it was he who once in time called us all that and we put Him on a tree and called Him a lier. We only believe what we can see well i am starting to see things that no human has ever seen . The fire that burns within me is that of pure delight . and i welcome it to show me the way.

today went shoping with mom and for my nephews b-day mom bought him two shirts and some socks. mom got me a jacket and some food but i forgot the pezza and bread and swanwitch meet in her car so have to get another day.

the only thing i can not agree with is that we dont know the reson why we are here . i believe we do know its just we lie to ourself every day of our lives . because we love the lies and we love to lie to ourself the truth of the matter is when we leave from here and take on another form the true form of our very soul . we know all and knowing all is a very scary thing and our minds cant take the truth for now because the truth does mean death to all the lies . and if all lies die then whats left the whole truth . what this means is to open the reson for why we are here we start by not believeing the lies that we have been tought all our life . things are not as we see them for there are things we cant see not because we dont but because we choose not to see them even if it is only at a level that only our mind knows . and in the very sec we pass we know . and then what does it matter not as much or does it . the truth is we all live forever in one form or another but what from we take on after this life is all up to us but we choose to believe the lie that we have no choose that everything is as it was from the very begining of time. if that were true we could go back in time but we cant . the only way to do this is to leave time it self and the only way to do that is to leave your body . this body you see can only be in one time at a time . is there two of you no not at all then if you were to go back there would be and that is just something that cant be for it would change the very fabric of time itself. but going forward in time is a bit more easy we do it all our lifes but only at the time to witch our mind can understand and not a sec more. else our very mind would become unstable and it might cause death or even kill us. for we have proven that a worm hole or black hole does leave time and space but nothing living not even a star can go though it and live . so that is the big one how can one go though a worm hole but not be in the worm hole answer we skip it how that is the even bigger one .