The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

Vacation all i ever wanted....
23:47 Aug 22 2006
Times Read: 574

Ahhhhhh im going im leaving..on a jet plane..Im so franticly happy that my head is filling up with songs that work along side me getting the hell out of dodge..I got into a fight with my younger employ again..Yes employ..yes i actually talk this way in public shush..Anyways..i just really really need to be gone..And so i will be leaving 4am thursday morning and will be back on the 3rd of sept..yep im going to be gone that fucking long...I rock

I don't want to sleep anymore my dreams haunt me with uneidted images
00:17 Aug 18 2006
Times Read: 581

Staring down at him you watch as his legs give out and he falls to the floor in convulsions , no you scream in your head… not this not now . Yes this it replies to you as blood spills out of his throat and his shaking grows violent. No again you scream this time allowed as you sink to your knees pulling him into your lap… He starts to choke as the blood comes out in brightly fire engine , wild fire red hair dye filled waves . You liked this color before now you think you will vomit at the sight of it if you ever lay eyes on it again. Still he’s spilling growing pale choking as he tries to speak as you franticly panic screaming for someone to call for help… No service ringing loudly in your ears , your going to loose your life and you haven’t a clue what is wrong . Still harder in the panic and frenzy you find yourself wondering if you could just put it all back in his body would it be okay? Would that save him… If you hold him tight so the shaking stops will the bleeding stop too? Still there are no holes for you to clog and the blood is draining down into your lap covering your hands like paint coating them thickly cracking around the edges as it dries. His eyes are wide unblinking now shocked and gone… But the shaking continues softer now as his body makes its last steps toward oblivion trying still to fight to stay alive. His brain has already shut down but still the arteries pump the last bit of blood up and out of his mouth a faint gurgle sound of what was him choking it all down.. Everything is black now…

DAMN
04:30 Aug 17 2006
Times Read: 586

Why are people so damn fucking selfish all the time.fUCK -.-

Heeeelp
22:15 Aug 16 2006
Times Read: 593

Helllp..four cats...four people..one ferit and a ton of random shit all over the place kill me or clean my house for me

old habits... bad habits.. They all die so bloody hard
04:25 Aug 15 2006
Times Read: 599




Have you ever had scab that you couldn’t help but keep picking at when you know you shouldn’t.. It starts to fade finally and if you would just let it be id heal over and go away but still you find yourself picking away at it. Im way to much like that with relationships , isn’t it a bad thing to imply a bad habit to my interactions with human beings. When something is over instead of just letting it go and fade into t he darkness when its tried to drag itself that way many a times I have trouble just letting it go. I stare at the problem and want to pick at it and bring it back up so its fresh and can be worked through. I want to try to save something that shouldn’t and quite frankly cant be saved. Instead of letting it go I want to drag everyone involved into more pain all over again for a few months of normalcy until everything falls back into disarray and abandonment. A plant that neither side wishes to water so we just let it die notice a week before its to late and barely feed it hoping it will fix the problem. Just let the damn thing die Hailey it died long ago..

Some days are blue others are yellow...
02:31 Aug 15 2006
Times Read: 604




It’s not important that I cry because of you , its not important that my life is spiraling downward…it wasn’t important four years ago…Why should I expect it to be important now? So we sit in silence when I refuse to respond to you , because you have this way about making me cry. It’s a closely guarded secret with me , because I never tell you when the tears start to roll down my cheeks and hit the keys. So its not important as I let the world of space and unforgivable acts between us drive this black hole wider, because I’ve just run out of hope that things can get any better. We’re so great at destroying each other with out even knowing it, if I just found the courage to say goodbye I could stop all this…But its not important to say goodbye because if I say it you’ll notice something your forcing yourself to ignore. Sometimes its better to let things happen , maybe you will finally be able to get over it all with out any emotion left to remind you. Im glad we had the time we did together, we stole years that weren’t ours to hold that’s why its not important when I say goodbye here. Its sadly time to let it all go , so its not important as I reply with no emotion behind my words…Because deep down inside you’ve finally started to let go.

Escape from my own head
18:39 Aug 12 2006
Times Read: 607

Yeah its one of those days where I planed to do a great deal and none of that is going to plan. Why bother I may ask myself , I really don’t think im ever going to learn the answer to that one as I wait thoughtlessly applying eye shadow. What’s the point in make up you might ask? If I might not even be exiting the house .Im rather bored waiting and hoping I will so that’s where it comes into play…Sad I know I find make up to be a fuck im bored killer but yeah this is where I am..Posting pointlessly for yet another reason of boredness…

Mm calling all role players?
04:22 Aug 12 2006
Times Read: 610

Hey does anyone rp? Cause i could really use some new play mates in the writing area?

Wheee
04:04 Aug 11 2006
Times Read: 613

Soooo im a shadow..Im sorry to everyone if im going biting crazy but this i s the moment i have been waiting for...I just want to play and bite everyone because i love you all so much ^.^ Okay yes im crazy some of its also just revenge because of being bitten on a constant basis...mm but yeo yay that is all

im so bloody weird..
03:24 Aug 11 2006
Times Read: 614

I cam i wrote...i was bored..





Off in another world we sit and watch them type off in another world it all floods in..off in another world my vampire lover is lost because i go to another world where i dream and the reality is im not only his..Off in another world i lead another life just as real as the first..Off in another world i visit each passing night..Off in another world everything has ended for my husband is dead..off in this world i wake filled with distress..Off on this same plain of existance my world is upside down..because i can't tell what is wrong other then something is missing..Off lost in the dream world..its hard to say what is real but my vampire lover has ceased to fawn and mearly stares after me as though ive moved on..

Sunday sunday sunday
23:14 Aug 07 2006
Times Read: 619

sooo yeah sunday i got reallly really bored and took some candid shots of the daily life of eggs..Yeah I know it sounds strange go to my profile if your curious and view the daily life of eggs..

Crap
20:33 Aug 03 2006
Times Read: 624






Well well I haven't been writing much of anything yet ..I know I know im a huge disappointment and I do so apologize for all of that and what not but alas ill try harder. Work and fighting with the Mr. have taken up some of my time the rest filled mostly by sleep and me actually leaving the house to attend two parties last weekend…Which I must say is quite the shocking display on my part seeing as I really don’t like drinking, people , or strange places…Either way I more or less enjoyed myself it was all around not such a bad time after all which is a rather good result I suppose .With all of that comes fiendish nightmares of me trying to chase down a murderous and being suffocated by another employ at work…As well as finding the same roses left near the bodies everywhere I go haunting me. Don’t ask I have very strange dreams some days. Anyway that is all for now because I have nothing really all that interesting to add