My Life Path Number 1: The leader
Your are ambitious, is highly motivated and strong. Although you may sometimes appear a little pushy, it is only because of your eerie ability to see directly to the heart of a situation and understand what needs to be done - and how to get the people around you to do it.
As well as strong leadership skills, you are blessed with creative inspiration and put your ideas into practise with a combination of mental and physical strength; getting the ball rolling is second nature to you. No matter which line of work you are in, you are probably known for being an innovator, although you probably prefer short projects as your enthusiam for details and long, drawn-out tasks is limited.
You love to get your own way, and may feel a bit cheated if this doesn't always happen. After all, your way is almost always the best way! Life Path Number 1 means you will need to recognize your innate need to always be the winner, and perhaps learn how to be a gracious loser occasionally - it's not personal after all, it's just life.
With this Life Path Number, you probably won't need to be a runner up very often though. People like you; you are charismatic and you will find the people around you are drawn to your energy and ideas. Be careful that you don't end up giving away so much of this energy that you don't have any left for yourself. As noticeable and talented as you are, you may end up being a flame that is smothered by too many moths.
The lesson to be learned for those with a Life Path Number 1 is to learn to occasionally be a follower. This is not your natural position, but sometimes it is necessary in order to learn the skills you need to be what you truly are: a born leader with an amazing ability to think quickly and almost always make the right decisions.
That kind of love, that kind of togetherness... The one time I was close I was left scared, alone, and ill. Needless to say my abandonment is what ended up causing me to become alone until there is another that could love me the same. Everyone around me already found this happiness and has moved forward in their lives, enjoying what they don't know is a limited luxery. Then come to find out they are moving on again to another stage I couldn't even imagine. What it will feel like when my day comes! Oh how I dream of this. No one knows, no one understands because unlike myself they are able to find a mate with the same vision and dreams as them. I somehow keep ending up chasing my tail and praying for it to all end. Yet at the end of the day I am still confused. Why? Because I am trying to force myself to want what you want.... to wait on my dreams.. to wait on my hopes.. to wait on the one thing I will undoubtablly succeed at? Or is it that I am generally confused like the rest of the people in the world. Why couldn't this be easier? Why is my heart so big and swealed with guilt for something that I have only thought of and never acted on? What is wrong with me to make this all so wrong for you, and him? The ones that want that life with me are the ones I'd have to leave my family to be with.. and the one that makes everything feel so perfect doesn't want anything to do with it... why buy the cow when you get the milk for free? How do you revoke a free milk punch card without loosing a life-long customer? I guess this is why things where the way they where a hundred or two hundred years ago. Less mess, less confusion, and the world explaned in a single word - unknown.
I feel excited to be doing my first home project by myself, but irretated at the same time. I'm not the only one that lives here. Phhh the day rolls on and I know I am the one who will have to find the stamina to carry on and the drive to make sure it is all finish correctly.
And why do I have to keep so many people so close to my heart. I don't remember ever wanting to be this way or deciding who I will always love. Maybe it's the old 'want what you cant have' but you' think after 10 yrs of knowing someone as well as we know eachother, things would pass..... Still I hold so many so close to my heart and when I see them again... its almost as if I'm a teenager again with my emotions running wild. But I care about you ALL too much, I worry about people I haven't seen or talked to in years and why is that? Am I too much of a good person? Do I want to change that? I think not.. I'd rather be a good person that gets screwed over a lot and loves everyone equally instead of a bitch that no one wants to know.
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