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The first in two years.

Awsome lol and now the cold bites deeply into that wich is the earth and makes all well killing off good and evil.

Such a lonely day

And it’s mine

The most loneliest day of my life



Such a lonely day

Should be banned

It’s a day that I can't stand



The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life



Such a lonely day

Shouldn’t exist

It's a day that I’ll never miss



Such a lonely day

And it’s mine

The most loneliest day of my life



And if you go,

I wanna go with you

And if you die,

I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away



The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life



Such a lonely day

And it’s mine

It’s a day that I’m glad I survived



By System Of A Down

I recommend you lisen to the song and read the lyrics.

( For the one I love )

I may or may not be on tonight but if you whant to call me just ask for the number and ill answer.

Take care guys talk with you soon hopefully.

Hope fully i will be back on after i get home if not then appologies.

And ill check everything in the morning.

Hopefully i can speak with you guys over the phone.

It will be much quicker and more personal.

See you guys later.

May your nights be filled with the screams and howls of the creatures of lust and passion.

The people i have met on here are a blessing of which i am most grateful for.

To friends new and old and to the ones i have yet to meet i welcome you with open arms and an ready fangs.

I beleive im lisening to a song that the phantom played in phantom of the opera.

Rather long and although it isint metal it is quit enjoyable.

I suggest lisening to it when you have the chance.

Im suppose to be working on a program but at the moment i dont feel much interest twords the project.

Granted i will get it done and i do pay attention.

But i feel that i would rather at this time be a bad boy then do so,

If at least for the day.

To many thoughts and not enough people or opertunities to try them out.

until later everyone whos reading this just remmeber

There is no such thing as pleasure without pain,

Man what a week,

I break up with my girlfriend the next day shes bragging about haveing a 19 year old boyfriend.

Ive been working out like crazy and ive lost about 20 pounds.

I changed my eating habits and got a job that pays 100 dollars a week.

I get to drop a class and replace it with study hall so that gives me time to write on my stories, and poems.

also i get more time to study spells and potions.

some good things some bad.

But all in all at least things got a little bit above normal.



Ill write more later i have to do my job ( its at home HELL YA!!!!!! i get paid just for chores )

Im relaxing after a work out.

Things are going all right, my views on the world have certainly changed, but is it for the better or the worse...

On an interesting note,

I have total control of my dreams now.

Last night I dreamt of being attacked by someone much stronger looking and older.

Swinging me around by my arms and bashing me through walls.

As I stood he grew angry attacking the world and soon me turned into a deserted battle ground like ground zero of a bombing raid.

Standing I made a cloak appear on my shoulders and smiled rushing him I struck him in the stomach he groaned and tried to react as he did so I slit his throat and held him in the air until all of his blood had drained. (As much as I like violence there is much more to a person than there likes or dislikes, if you actually take the time to get to know me you’ll see what im talking about)

I then flexed my hand and smiled saying "Enough"

I then changed my dream and relaxed for the remaining duration of my sleep in the company of an especially enticing vampress along with a vampire.

(Im bi)

For the past few nights ive been able to do such things and even traveled to a hellish world of demons taking a woman from its depths attempting to save her.

Times up and I was soon after the lights going out in my dream awakened by my brothers yelling.



Ooh one more thing,

Late Saturday night I was outside practicing boxing and martial arts when I laid down to rest Words started forming in my mind.

I spoke these words only to have the sky turn a blood red when the sentences reached a part concerning a prophecy.

It turned to gray and then back to its black/silvery color.

The last verse was

" Bless unto me oh ye god that none know of, the god that has no past, the god known only by those who have been destined for such, bless me with your tears"

After speaking those words a light rain started, stopping when I moved.

(Im not special and maybe it was all just luck, you know right place right time sort of stuff. but something seams different in me I can tell things, im to play an important role in the world but I don’t know what it is, perhaps that to is merely a misunderstood emotion. time shall tell)

Well ill write later Im going to go practice some more take a shower, and meditate.

See ya

Things are as usual boring here, but that does not mean I dont get my fair share of pain and abuse.

I get attached somtimes, I wont lie its not often that i get attached but its more than need be.

For instance upon meeting a girl that diffrent from all the rest my heart beats again and i feel almost as if i love her.

Somtimes walking the halls of my school people take the title vampire to calmly as if they where saying they where going to get a drink.

I feel much older than My actual age.

The times ive felt as if i had gone insane are as numerous as the times ive breathed in and out.

I tore myself up tearing at my flesh and ripping at my eyes, the scars dont show but I did anything i could the only thing i could at the time to ease my emotions.

" With a surge of pain from the blade the emotions shall be eased but for a time"

Its insane i didint know why people cut themselves but,

Its so clear now it almost makes me wonder why more people dont do it.

I guess they found out how to deal with it.

At least now I have something to direct all my anger out on now.

I train my body and embrace darker energies.

The darkness is a sweet bliss of lusts and desires that are seen today as being.......sinful.

HA! placing those things with sin only makes them that much darker and more desired.

People think they can say

" Youill burn in hell and never escape the devil"

and people will go along with it

" OH SAVE ME SAVE ME OH HOLY MAN BLESS ME NOW "

That only serves to entertain me and make me laugh.

Why is it that in the place i live i only see posers?

"Vampires"

Who are disgusted with blood.

"Goth's"

That appal anything violent.

They get caught up in life and say

"He loves Me"

or

"She loves me"

I pity them....I am only glad i was never one of them but in some ways i envy such as them, ignorance is bliss.

Let me tell you they are pure bliss.

Im getting back to class and then going to work out so ill cut it short.

Got any comments id love to hear them.

"One cannot see the entire picture without first seeing all sides "

Light and dark.

different in so many ways yet in some the same.

we've been taught "The light is the way god will set you free and guide you in life"

Is it true?

I dont know what i do know is that the darker side of life is so much more fun.

so much more, enticing,

Enpowering, I love the darker side of life,

the things said to be "Naughty" or "Taboo"

The things people think are to "Sinful" to do

Beleive what you whant but i beleive the darker it gets the more exciting your life.

but do not mistake the darker side of life with stupidity, and on that note ill end this little revalation.

Good hunting, and Wicked dreams.

Training until i cant breath, eating only what is needed,

fighting, clawing, ripping, biting,

Ill do what must be done,

What sickens me, what finally has tired me out i will change,

Brused cut and still bleeding,

sore and never ending pain,

Is this truly the length One would go to, For Revenge on an unjust world?

I know the answer all to well.

Yes.

I will, and i am.

I feel as if im going insane in this small town.

Theres nothing to do here and no one to speak with.

Farmers and gardners and lots of rap its enough to drive me into a bloodlust if im not careful.

When the population of your home town is narrow minded people ( all straight if i where to tell anyone that i was bi id get linched at least things would get interesting after that little comment )

Oh well ill take whatever life throws at me and even dish somethings back.