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School tommorrow, another 6 hours of feeling bored. It's horrible to think i have over a year left of school, then i suppose i'll have to do sixth form, so i dont 'waste my intelligence'



I hate to think that i'll never escape reality, i've been breathing for 15 years, going to school most weekdays, then having weekend, going to school again, i feel like the repitition is driving me crazy.



I wanna be little again, nothing mattered then, although i dont remember much of my childhood, i dont understand what is bothering me so much ATM, i wish i did. I know logically, i'm a nice person, with many qualities, my mind just doesnt seem to believe that, i probobly need counciling or hypnopheripy, but how do i get that? My parents dont know how i feel, i'm not sure anyone does.



I feel worthless, i dont know what i could contribute to this world. I feel ugly. It's strange i have moments of liking myself and moments of not. Im having a moment of not.



Here's hoping i feel better soon. Someone will read this and think i'm a complete idiot, but never mind.

HEEEEEEEEELllllllllllOOOOOO



I am bored and my lips are all chapped and dry, lol. x~x~x