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getting screwed
07:49 Jun 30 2009
Times Read: 542

well i found out last week that the college i was going to is a scam everest college is a fucking joke i mean i spent the past 3 months there busting my ass to pass just to find out that all my shit are worth less and i am pissed about it and believe me i am sueing them to get all my money back and then make them pay me for my time i spent there i mean fuck what can i do i sat there for 12 weeks and i have nothing to show for it and i have to start all over again i mean it is just wrong they did not tell me that i can not transfer my credits and that no one wil hire me and all that shit so i am pisssed

hard right over the easy wrong
09:21 Jun 23 2009
Times Read: 558

well over the past few weeks i have been getting fed up with texas all the people the heat and just every thing well i was thinking of dropping out of school and running with my tail tucked between my legs back home to oregon well then i was out walking and do a paper for school and i was talking to this old homeless man about him and he talk about the choices he had made and how after he came home after the war he did not stick with any thing and he ran every time something got hard and how he gave up every time something did not go his way and he seen that every one gave up on him and how he ended up on the streets with nothing not even love and how he has wanted to change that but he felt that he could not change and it made me think of what i was doing and it showed me that i was running away from what i needed to do and i seen my self in his eyes and it scared me bad and i thought that if i ran then why would i not just keep running and end up like him home less with no family or no one to help and then i remembered what a old pastor told me when i was wrong god helps them who help them selves and i see that if i ran that i was the biggest loser in the world and that i as a person was not doing what was right... and i know that the whole 9 years in the army and two tours in iraq they always talk abou the hard right and the easy worng and i know that to pack up and run was the easy wrong and that is wrong in every way and i had it in my head saying that it was the hard right and staying here in texas is the hard right becasue in my home town i have family that i ca fall back on and here i have no one and i am forced to walk tall and i know that failing is not a choice and i know tha it is either live or die and i know that i will not give up and die so the hard right is to stay here in texas and not run back home and any way i have been out of klamath falls for going on 12 years now and why should i go back any time soon i mean for the longest time my family did not want me and now that my sister needs a free home for her and the kids she is going to be my sister but a few years ago when i needed her she was not there for me you know what fuck her she slept in her bed now she can make it and all the other fuckers up there they chose to stay there in that town that is goign down hill faster then a lead sinker in water so what would i have to gain by going home nothing but another easy wrong for me to put in the big book of easy wrongs i have done in my life and i know that the one i did that i can not and will not take back is leaving my mother when she needed me the most but yet that was for my own life and health but still it was the lesser of two evils so i am just done with running and done with giving up on my self if no one thinks i can do it fuck them it is my life and i live it how i chose and if they do not like it then fuck them and they can just bitch away

a must read
01:48 Jun 20 2009
Times Read: 574






California girl gets dying wish to see movie 'Up'

June 19, 2009, 2:04 PM EST



HUNTINGTON BEACH, Calif. (AP) -- Colby Curtin got her final wish.



The 10-year-old girl desperately wanted to see the new Disney-Pixar movie, "Up." But the cancer-stricken girl was too sick to go to a theater.



Thanks to a family friend who got in touch with the movie studio Pixar, an employee of the Emeryville-based company arrived at Colby's home with a DVD copy of the movie, The Orange County Register reported Friday. The girl died later that night.



Colby's mother, Lisa, said she had asked her daughter if she could hang on until the movie arrived.



"I'm ready (to die), but I'm going to wait for the movie," she said her daughter replied.



"Up" is the animated tale of a grumpy old man who, after his wife's death, tries to fulfill their joint dream of visiting South America by tying thousands of balloons to his house and floating away.



"When I watched it, I had really no idea about the content of the theme of the movie," Colby's mother told the Register. "I just know that word 'Up' and all of the balloons and I swear to you, for me it meant that (Colby) was going to go up. Up to heaven."



Colby, who was diagnosed with vascular cancer in 2005, saw previews for the film in April.



"It was from then on, she said, 'I have to see that movie. It is so cool,'" family friend Carole Lynch said.



But the girl's health began to deteriorate. On June 4, Curtin asked a hospice company to bring a wheelchair so that her daughter could go to a movie theater but the chair was not delivered over the weekend, Curtin said.



By June 9, Colby was too sick to go anywhere.



Another family friend, Terrell Orum, called both Pixar and Disney, which owns the animation studio. The message was received by Pixar officials, who agreed to send someone to Colby's house the next day with a copy of "Up" for a private screening, Orum said.



The employee arrived with the DVD, stuffed animals of characters and other movie memorabilia.



Colby was unable to open her eyes to see the movie so her mother described the scenes. When her mother asked if she enjoyed it, the girl nodded, Curtin said.



The Pixar employee left after the movie, taking the DVD, which has not been released. Lynch, who was with the family during the screening, said the employee's "eyes were just welled up."



A call to Pixar seeking comment was not immediately returned Friday.



Colby, with her parents nearby, died later that night.



Her mother said one of the memorabilia left by the Pixar employee was an "adventure book" based on a scrapbook that, in the movie, is kept by the wife of the main character.



"I'll have to fill those adventures in for her," Lisa Curtin said of her daughter.



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true evil
03:44 Jun 17 2009
Times Read: 585

how can we has a race define true evil...is it a person or and force or just a way to look at the bad things that has happen to people i mean how can you know a person is evil or that something is good is there a guide that gives the guide lines to what is good and godly and what is evil or is that just what the bible says what is good and what is evil and how can you believe the bible because there is so meany different bibles out here and each one says something different so how do you see what is good and what is evil and how do we know that the god that we as a race follows is the right god...for all we know it could be the evil that we follow so in your mind what do you believe tell me.

music and life
18:11 Jun 15 2009
Times Read: 596

well in my life i have had a lot of ups and downs but today i guess that some times a song just fits and just to show i have songs that fit my life

Fed up
05:08 Jun 13 2009
Times Read: 608

well some times i wonder why i stay here day after day when all i do is just well take it and is some one says something nice to me then there is a fight but is i get cussed at or ran down it is ok or if i say some thing wrong or any thing i feel thati can not do any thing right in the place

getting out
22:24 Jun 10 2009
Times Read: 632

well over the past few days my moods have been doing a down hill slide and i know why... to give some back ground i am a small town boy from a town of 500 ppl yes i know not even a spot on a map but yet i called it home and now i a in the city of dallas texas and i can not stand it at all i know that the big city is where every thing is now but yet i can not stand it just because of the fact that it is like people stacked on top of people and there is no room or anything it is all city and i know that is where the jobs are but yet i hate it.... and still how can people live like that i mean it is like all i see is city and more city and i know that out in the country i can breath and see the sky not smoke or lights or stuff like that and i miss it and i need it i mean i have been here for almost a year now and yet i can not understand why any one would want to live here

heart on a shelf
18:57 Jun 09 2009
Times Read: 658

well i have been talking to a old friend/ ex girlfriend from back in the day and to day she is happy and married and has kids and all that good stuff and right now all i have is me and my self and i know it hurts but i also know that all the good woman are taken and i know that what woman want like fancy cars and good job and all that i do not have well i can get the good job but fancy cars and all that stuff no i do not want and i guess i am just a back wards hillbilly that is living in the past still but what i want in a woman is simple and easy and i know that for what it is worth i will never find it so i feel the best thing for me is to keep my heart on a shelf and in a box so i can not get it broke again ok

pain kille is my friend
07:01 Jun 09 2009
Times Read: 672

well after a while of trying to get my old access to my old account and hitting walls i am feeling the effects of my pain killers now and i am high and feeling good but not tired at all...got to love ptsd the gift that keeps giving

just not happy
06:12 Jun 09 2009
Times Read: 678

well i guess i am older but yet none the less i found this site the first time when i was in Iraq on my 2nd tour and was on it every day for a while well i was healing up from wounds i had gotten over there but after a while i went back to my dutys and then had lost my e-mail and all that and now that i have gotten time on my hands again well other then job hunting and school i just been in the slow lane of the infomation superhighway and i know that right now i am not happy but not unhappy either just in that limbo right now and i know that once something changes i will feel better well other then my body pains and all that good stuff and i know that i am a good guy and i have a kind heart but some time i think that i am too kind and too sweet for my own good. well tonight i spoke my mind and then no one listened to me and i know that what i said was right but yet every one else says that it was wrong and what is right and wrong good or bad well i guess i can not tell any more and to tell the truth when i was looking though my sniper scope it was just so much easier to see what was right and what was wrong but now that i am out of the army i am finding it harder and harder to see it so i guess i will just keep going and if i end up alone then that is what is ment for me