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he looks as if he's harmless

but the truth is, he's a pest

he tore my heart to pieces

and left me for death.



the pain feels like he took a nail

and dug it through my chest

it's like he thinks i'm a vampire,

and he's a hunter for hire.



ironically his name is hunter

i guess this is what i deserve

i was selfish

wanting him to be what he's not.



my eyes burn when i see him

my stomach twists in knots

my head starts a pounding

and i start to get hot



i love him so much

but he must hat my guts

he flirts and plays

when will it be the day?

they say we're like vampires,

and that we own the night.

they say we're not like roses

because we should just up and die.

they say we ARE freaks,

but i don't care what they believe.

because i believe we are what we are,

neither as good or as evil as others.

paint us and what we are doesn't change how we truely feel.

only how free we are to follow those feelings,

so we're no different from the rest of you.

because in our own little way,

we're all freaks.

when i see you

you haven't a clue

my heart turns blue

when i even think of you



i wish you'd take me back;

there's nothing i can do , in fact

i miss you so

but you just don't know



how you make me so happy

but make my heart feel sour

well, apparently you don't understand me

it's like you're such a coward



to release your feelings

you have for me

if you have any

and for us to be happy



when we're together

it's like you're happy to see me

but that's the bad thing

its only that way when it's just you and me



you're different

so different

that it hurts

it very much hurts



different when you're around just me

different when there's others surrounding

different as in changed

so different that i causes me pain



different from your own personality

when its not just me

you hurt me so badly

when you change everything to fake reality

somethings go wrong

somethings go down

all i have to remember

is he's around



he helps me out

and keeps me happy

somethings lurk about

and sometimes get crappy



o know to stay happpy

when everythings spiraling down.

from all the smiling and laughing

it makes my head turn round and around



there has always been a spark when he touched me.

so i know, once again, we will be.

i tell him that i love him

he never does believe me

i tell him that i need him

he hasn't a clue to the meaning.



it's like he doesn't want to believe me

because he's a stubborn one

he hears my words but not there meanings

m y heart is torn to pieces.



i don't understand why

these meanings i give are pure

he doesn't know i wish to die

because my heart will never be secure.



i might as well indure

the meanings of the world.

does he love me?

will he love me?

is it just lust?

i don't know who to trust.



why must i bew treated this way?

every single day

my heart falls to pieces

why can't he see this?



i must truel love him

to be writing t his sonnet

someday i'll give it to him

and he'll know the meaning of it



for all it must seem

i love you but you don't me.

i never want stiches

but my heart has them anyways

because of all thes witches

and because of all these rainy days.



but lately all my dreams have come true

i've become rid of all the saints

and i've made it through,

all of hells gates.



now that i'm freed from hell

and i'm with the one that doesn't make me sad

all is well

even though he sometimes makes me mad



we work things out

and evertyings okay

although someway i'll get sad, no doubt

but no more stiches starting today.

dear sweet larry

we miss you so

dear loving larry

why did you have to go



we all love you

and always will

after you died we all didn'tk now what to do

we all need your loving feel



you're loved so dear

my dear sweet larry

so i shall have no fear

because i know you'll always love me



you went on a horrible day.

on april first

i can't believe you had to go that way.

that's got to be the worst day.

my black sunset is my way to escape

my bloody sunrise is my horrible day



when my darkened night awaits me

so does my brilliant day

sometimes i just can't stand to see

what happens to people like me.



they say when lemos come along

to make lemonade

but there isn't a way for me

because of what people say.



for when the black sunset ends

the bloody sunrise comes to show

that in the day i have one true friend

and that god has somewhat of mercy for my soul



dedicated to a friend

who has helped me through thick and thin.

why do they hurt us

why must they kill

our hearts they tear

but they seem to not care



shit happens

and things go wrong

theyare wrong and they know it

my wrist plus a knife equals another slit.



why do they enjoy this

why can't we just live in peacful bliss

why do they tell us they love us

it's like they get an oppurtunity and they must.



they've killed my heart so

so now they must know

when we think, it's of you

and that we hate you



the ones that ahve hurt us so

that is what you need to know

so don't come crawling back

because we'll eat your humanity up like a snack.

when i first saw you my heart stopped.

buried under the sands of time.

swallowed by the seas of thought.

from now on how could i ever forget

your face - so beautiful

your smile - so cute

your eyes - so hypnotizing

so many thoughts racing through my head feeling hit by 1,000 pounds of led

i force a hello in a low voice

you stare and then smile

i had known you and you knew me

but it was like we had never met before

we say goodbye after hours of fun

i look at my phone, messages, only one,

for you . . .

I LOVE YOU TOO. . .

oh, woman of my dreams!

where are thee in reality?

people ask and i cannot deem.

forever, you are my abnormality.



you hauunt my sleep,

when i wake a feeling of woe,

thou make me weep,

why torture my soul?



why isn't sleep eternal?

i feel intense lonliness in the wake.

a feeling internal,

i cannot take.



i hold my breath,

and await death.









this sonnet was written by one of my closest friends Aaron Gottfried.