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Man things have gotten bad, My birthday was monday, and for some reason every time my birthday comes around things flat line. Its like the heart beat of my sould just stops for a few weeks and my kama dies. Bad things happen to me or to the people around me. This girl that suposively really liked me stabbed me in the back for my birthday. My question is since I've been stabbed so many times why won't I die? Then the next morning she calls me to tell me that her two week old baby died just a few hours ago. Though I really only knew them for a few days, I felt a connection with the baby. Sunday when the baby was crying I got her to cheer up and become happy. Hours later when she was crying again her mother picked her up and she continued to cry, she looked over and saw me and stopped crying and started smiling again. I just regret for not doing more to save her life. I'm sure I could have done something. Then I've lost several friends, one girl that I really wanted to date. And today lost her friend that I wouldn't mind dating. Life is so depressing you just can't help but sit here and feel like crying all day. Death Looms Over My Head.