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is Lame. I have 15 honor yet newbies have more than me and I've been here for years -_- Meh....Like everything else these days...I can't let it get to me. There are more important things in life than what I view as popularity points. LOL

With my newly-wed news, updates on my progress as a person sort-of flew out of my head...I have been cutting/self-harm free for almost an entire year and very rarely find myself having urges to do so & even when I do, they are pretty easy to resist, as I have other coping mechanisms that offer me the same solace....without the nasty after-affect of more scars. I go days and days, and sometimes go weeks with being happy and upbeat (even when I have little energy) and this, for those that know me IRL, is a HUGE accomplishment! I barely ever think of killing myself anymore. I have responsibilities now as both a wife and sometime this month, an auntie, as my baby (no longer!) brother, and his fiancee are expecting a baby girl who they plan to name Bridgette Paisley ^_^ Looking back on my earlier posts, I see how very sick I was...It's "funny" to me that back then, I was seeking professional help, sometimes often and other times not as seriously, and yet I was still very mentally sick. Now, and even before I met my husband, I just have other coping mechanisms that aren't harmful to myself. I also do a lot of self positive talk. I'm still not perfect, there is no such thing, but at least I am doing so much better than I have since I was 13 and the depression hit (and my life spiraled downwards) I've come a long way since then. Now, I have entered a chapter in my life where, hopefully, I can move forward in a postive, and healthy way.

It's different than I thought...People say the first couple of years are the hardest...Sometimes, I agree and other times, I wonder what people were smoking when they said it >.< Also, I miss the actual wedding day..It went by way too fast for my liking, but it was the BEST day of my life, up to this point in time. I married the right guy for me...Now if only we could find a chick to join us!! I still want the best of both worlds...I think that makes me perverted, but meh, I never pretended to be a saint.