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I am going to write one, after watching the movie, because it seems like a good idea, because you never know when you are going to die, unless you are terminal & I think it would be a good idea to have list of things I want to accomplish, however big or small before I kick the bucket ^_^



Alia's Bucket List

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* Read all of Stephen King's books, and material

* Become a mother

* Get married

* Learn to stop hating my brother for molesting me

* Forgive Amanda Mancuso for destroying my faith

* Visit Cairo, Egypt

* Go scuba diving

* Star in a movie

* Have more than $1000 in my bank account

* Visit Paris, France

* Visit Amsterdam, Holland

* Try 'Shrooms, just to know what a trip is like

* Learn to love my body, despite myself

* Quit smoking

* Get a breast reduction

* Meet my idol, Johnny Depp

I've got the song Love is strange running through my head....Lot of people, take it for a game. Once you get it, you never want to quit. After you've had it, you're in an aweful fix.... It's so true.

Well, no surprises here, but last night, I had another Grande Mal seizure...My tongue stings cuz I bit it up REALLY badly, I pissed the bed, cuz Joshawa had made me sit down because I didn't look ok & then I ended up having it....I hope that SOMEONE finds a cure for Epilepsy, cuz I'm getting sick to DEATH of biting & chewing up my tongue, the migrains I get after one, the body aches & pains that make me feel as if I am 50 years old, & pissing all over whatever I am sitting on/wearing......

Well, today is my 22nd birthday....Gramma is taking myself, Joshawa (fiance), daddy, Joshy (brother) & Auntie Karen out for dinner. I picked Swiss Chalet cuz I love the food selection there....I could have easily picked something else, like McDonald's, but I know both Auntie Karen & Gramma hate the food there, so I picked a place that everyone could find something to eat at...

On another note, Joshawa made me breakfast in bed....Eggs over easy (my fav!), bacon, toast & hash browns...God, he is such a good cook!

Let me just say that having Bipolar P!SSES me off...I HATE these mood swings.....

I'm tired of being paranoid. I am tired of seeing all these worthless, self-deprecating hoes hit on you, and flirt with you, & then you get defensive and rude when I voice my concerns. I don't feel love anymore. It is driving me insane, & I don't want to feel anymore.....