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So, I have finally given in. I drank the blood of my king, Ankal (My boyfriend Josh) & now I finally believe in what is happening to me. My thirst grows, but no amount of water clenches the thirst. The only time I get relief is when I feed on the blood of my Sire. He tastes so pure & sweet I have trouble stopping myself from demanding more. I am worried about the amount of hunters here in town though. Last night, 3 of our brethren were slaughtered. Fuck!ng hunters. Not ALL of us are evil monsters. Ankal & I, as well as the other 2 members of our coven that we meet with regularily, only feed off each other. Of course, we are always on the lookout for donors, but because of the hunters, we have to be careful. I know the Goddess Nyx will help protect me. Today the heat is so bad outside that I feel weak & sweaty, but an hour ago, when it got to the point where I felt like I was going to pass out, I whispered "My Goddess Nyx, please grant me some relief" & a bit of a breeze started blowing faintly, just enough that I felt better....Goddess Nyx provides to & for her children, if we only believe & ask that she grant us a blessing. Anyhow, I am going home now. Blessed be & may the great Goddess Nyx protect you, my fellow Vampires. ~Ally~

So, a couple days ago, my ex-fiance, Joshawa (AlgishKinsha on here) messeged me online asking if we could "talk"...He said that he missed me, still cares about me, still loves me & that he was sorry for how much he hurt me. He also asked if we could get back together....Since I still love him, I kinda want to be with him again, but my faith & trust in him is broken because of what happened, so I don't know...Right now, we are kinda sorta together, but nothing official...I'm just SOO confused....ACK!

Well, Joshawa broke my heart. He kept telling me that I needed to open up to him more, & when I tried he dumps me. I was a fool. A fool to dream that I would be his wife & that he would love me for me. He used me & then, when done, he breaks my heart. I don't ever want to fall in love again. It hurts way too much.