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No one knows what it's like

To be the monster

To be the dead man

Behind blue eyes



And no one knows what it's like

To be scorned

To be feared

and telling only lies



But my dreams, they are as empty

As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is degenerate

and never free



No one knows what it's like

To feel these eons

Like I do

And I blame you



No one bites back as hard

Just to live

None of my pain and woes

Can show through



But my dreams, they are as empty

As my conscience seems to be

I have doubts, setting fears

My love is degenerate

and never free



No one knows what its like

To be darkness

To be harnessed

Behind blue eyes





No one knows how to say

That they're guilty

And worry when

I'm not telling lies



But my dreams, they are as empty

As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is degenerate

and never free



No one knows what it's like

To be the bad man

To be the sad man

Behind blue eyes.

please note, that this one is very painful for me, its the one that i sent my ex before we got together, its what let her see inside of me and keep me for 2 1/2 years.









The Dragon's silver scales gleaming in the moon

knowing that his love is lost at noon

seeing his mistake for what it is

every gleaming claw cleaned

The markings on his body and mind mysticly seemed

warnings and omens of pain as this

silky black sangre given to her

the Angel he claims but cannot capture

Her touch healing

her stare conjures feeling

On the morn' it could be too late

if he loses her he must consign to Fate

the Cat still tears and slices his body

the memory of her has grown quite shoddy

The Dragon perched thoughtful and wary

his thoughts running and flowing airily

"If i do not act, I could lose her"

the beautiful angel from a jungle of flesh

the dross emotions for others are lost

she envelops his mind and visions of life

within his soul causing such strife

His demons within being blown away

"I must make her mine, this very day"

From atop his perch he takes flight

under cover of stars and blood moon light

towards the sun he must fly

though on his arm is the sigil of killers in the sky

proudly he lands and changes his form

to something she finds an acceptable norm

the monstrous teeth and razor black claws

have given way to quite human paws

the Angel is not a divine girl

but in his sight this tale does unfurl

Seeing his Angel within his arm

to her shall come no harm

darkly brooding over past mistakes

he accepts his feelings for her with high stakes

The Dragon has changed to the mortal within

for his love he shall give up any sin

he smiles for once now happy and glad

from an anger that soon drove him mad

holding his Angel fragile and sweet

he keeps close to her his heart as it beats

this tome of love

this tome of life

i have given myself a shove

and have cast back my knife

I am the Dragon and this is true

and this I write to my Angel I'm sure

renouncing my crown as King of the Dark

I take up my pen, at the muse's hark

Farewell and fond tidings i give you now

I shall ressurect the Dragon someday, somehow

Perched on the Ebony Tower

The Silver Dragon fearsomely glowers

He left his victim beaten and joyful

the blade in his back has been pulled

to the neck of the Cat he doth hold

His death head's stare no longer cold

The fire from his heart will always burn

the wings on his back for flight do yearn

the Prince in the Ebony Tower bids him stay

amongst the dead and the living

the Dragon's blood to children life giving

the Hunter's scorn has passed on

the Deciever has planted ideas of victory

Watchful the Dragon sits

The kingdom at war none aligned with

Alone in the sands an isolated Martyr

The day came when the Dragon left his perch

Back for the Cat he did search

Finding her yet lying again

attempting to flee the pain within

the Dragon watches and waits by the seas

his ghostly aura enlightens the trees

running from the sight of her lie

The Dragon's laugh and heavy sigh

Taking flight until Amageddon is nigh

Soaring atop clouds

watching humanity's growing burial mounds

Time passes from antiquity

into a promise of tranquility

monsters and martyrs killing men

This sinful world

the devil's den

Heroes and Killers

losing his feeling

becoming numb to rest peacfully

on this life a statue of me

This is the world as my eyes can see

the clock has struck it's 13th hour

unholy men in shadows cower

White light errupts from the ebony tower

The sun becomes black and moon of dark blood

The cries of infidel martyrs rise

the new prince as the new prince arrives

a chorus of terror and lust comes from his lips

the smooth tongue of silver in his mouth quiver

slings and arrows of his detractors carry no heads

impudent ignorant stupified wretches

the black clad monarch keeps in stride

the beasts within no longer hide

with his fists he doth not fight

for his word shall rule with terrible might

from his mind comes the release of tyrrany

"In my hand a sword for those who oppose me"

a hellstorm of insult is rained on the Infidels

Of his punishments bourne of the 7 hells

sinners and traitors are left in their gore

this is the battle forever more

His heart pure and frozen

of his will trusted few are chosen

this is the requiem spoken for our dead King

My eulogy of the father and leader of me

This I say in rememberance of him

we all of blood are Kin

the state of living death bestowed upon him now in grace

may we all once again see his face

Amen to the God above and save us all from ourselves

the blood i take

silence, awake

forbidden from the day



alone at night

a loathsome sight

feeding on the blood of men



my heart is gone

some dont last long

i am a monster



only darkness can i touch

God save me, it hurts so much

passing through time



Time is only a blur

my existance is absurd

i am a walking corpse



Blood is money

money is power

i hate them all



all my kind

i would under my heel grind

and this would bring a smile



hating my tortured restless death

preying on those who still draw breath

Monsters we are, least monsters we become

in the dream

they surround me

they confound me

all the broken dolls

missing eyes, lost souls

crying for me to take control

clinging to the force of life

they are locked in endless night

empty headed, empty hearted

distanced from their heart

fearing the pain and light

sequestered in alienation

self-imposed exile

ignorance of self-worth

stupidity of depression

scarred arms and words of undoing

Bleed them, feed them

beat them, hug them

no difference to the shattered mind

Broken Dolls can't be fixed

set them aflame and burn them down

no sympathy, just contempt

BURN THE BROKEN DOLLS

I see you there

saying i don't care

the taste of pain

the scent of blood

life oozes away it all fades



make a cut

watch it bleed

for what

attention or to be freed



the black curtains fall

revealing you life on the wall

the ecstasy of death

black orgasmic pulse



my scars are stars

endless like night

sitting through the fight

no compassion from the darkness

no reprieve from me to you

cursed in life to feel dead

cursed in death to nothing



you should try suicide,

just lay down and die

im not gonna cry

go and try

just die

die.....

Am I A bad person?

Truly i can't tell,

if im going to hell.

What's the difference to you

did you ever love me

did you ever care

what did i do to make you turn away

and if i died today

no one would mourn

a faceless soul torn

would you hold my hand

would you kiss me

or would you ignore me and move on

you and me

friend or enemy

love or hate

how do i rate?

am i worth it

or am i not

i am lost

The fog of the spirits

The smell of the earth freshly turned

All this in the necropolis

The bodies safe and away from the eyes

For you fear this land

Oh do not lie

You fear to die

All of us do….we fear the end of our time

The end of our era

The death of our minds

The end of your life

But I see the end of strife



The reaper’s coming (run)

He’s gaining on you (run faster)

Now he’s got you (try to fight)

He has let go (you have had a taste)



The insanity of your new obsession

You wish to taste fruits forbidden

You wish to feel the chase of the Reaper

Once again you want to repeat her

The fever you reach and the limits you test

Unending self torture without rest

You listen and work with cadavers

You work in a place alone without windows

You are a keeper of death, that witch you fear

Even as you perform the danse macabre

You feel the chill of Death’s hand on your neck

His hot breath and the peace he will give you

When your time is up

The world around you is just a disguise

The darkness hides the Devil’s eyes

Pointed and glowing red

You see in yourself the Man in Red

He is in your mind controlling your thoughts

You try to fight but you’re strength is at a loss

You have let your faith leave and never regret

The fires of the Pit shall burn you

The idea you have that God is not there

You only fear him and rebel against him

You fear the loss of control yet you are the one who needs to come home



Shattered Faith

Lost to hate

You rebel

I’ll see you in hell



You see the world with empty eyes

Your soul is rotted and covered with flies

You even now feel the grave

But you try suicide to sever the pain

But all you would do is die in vain

If you would sacrifice your deceptions

Ignore the the Devil’s conceptions

And just have faith

The world that waits for you beyond would be worth the wait

wake up angel

sleep deep demon

i want you

to feel, to be numb

i need your light

you need my life

sacrifice my soul for you

i give myself to death

you made me

you loved me

you are my sleeping angel



Wake up angel

let me fly

Wake Up Angel

let me live



You are my angel

divine lover

you are my love

my earthbound angel



As i lay and bleed

I see your face

the light consumes me

i feel you near me

like you were never gone

i hope it lasts forever

perfect im my eyes

although you never say it

you thought i was lying

i lost you once

darkness consumed me

i was forasken by you

alone i felt you again



Wake up angel

let me live

Wake Up Lover

let me fly



The only one

set my soul free

as my ship sails away

across Styx into Nod

i am again left

you forsake me

my weakness an abomination

the expended ammunition

the sounds of life overwhelm me

the light leaves me and i wake with you beside me

Clarity in agony

Pleasure and pain extreme and indivisible

All I want to be is invisible

Cutting and scarring

Take away though with pain

Better than a drug in the vein





All I can do is bleed

And spill my seed

Hating what I am

Take away reality





Drug nights

And thug life

Livin on the streets

Drama all over

Murders, rapes, and crack sales

Over pack jails

Same as graveyards

Too many dead bodies

Empty souls dying to rise up



All I can do is bleed

And spill my seed

Hating where I am

Take away reality



Cut open my body

Autopsy me so I can feel something

Death is just the next step in my self destructive path

I’ve been through hell you do the math

Everyone around me walks soulless

Dead eyes looking for release

Seeing God’s fury

Trying to show love with power

But all they do is blaspheme and cower





SAVE ME GOD!!!!

sitting here with my guitar

knowing i can never go far

from the memories we share

only to an angel do you compare

dark in my sorrow

remembering the life not without you

living for the taste of your kiss

and now your gone and never know this

i love and only you i miss

picking the strings absently

devout to the love i still feel

having no absolution from the pain

my soul controls my brain

sending notes of love to my fingers

emotion writing songs of my solution

being with you is my addiction

you are sweet beautiful affliction

Sharing the feeling through simple movement

loving from so far away now

sitting alone in my sadness

hoping for you my only madness

sitting here forever alone now

wishing to kiss you again how?

what am i thinking

how am i speaking

i just have to say it, i cant contain it,

i am forsaken

please take my heart and un-break it,

love is simply what you make it

I see what you cannot

I hear what you ignore

When I speak the words you hide

you call me mad

I call you stupid

For what I choose to see is in front of us all

you choose not to see it because you fear it

The words that come may sound broken and a shattered speech

but you never listen to what it is I teach

you see the world through rose tinted lenses

What I see is on chaos dependant

When darkness and light intertwine

my authority you undermine

I try to help all I can

but you lock me up in this padded cell

all I can to is to teach and to tell

I am mad and under my own spell

The violators in white coats call me a paranoid schizophrenic

I call me a person not afraid of death and pain

ridicule and scorn are mine to bear

it is my penance my chains to wear

with this you see me locked away

so that I cannot hurt your family today

you say I am violent

no I am free in my mind

for all the sanity I left behind

my ties to this world are severed in doubt

my faith in humanity has lost its clout

they ruin the world perfectly given

but yet they've given to thanks unto heaven

God does not speak through me

I speak only of what I know

I only ask that your respect and understand that I am different

for if we were all like you this would be heaven

equality and justice for all who know

since this is the end I now will go

away from this neon prison known as L.A.

Into the skies away from the pain

and may the diamonds fall like rain





(R.I.P. James Douglas Morrison)

Seeing children cold and starving

I don’t really care

It’s not their fault

The same old story of crackhead parents

Brings a smirk to my face

Funny stereotype

Skinny as hell

Suckin and fuckin just to get a hit

I guess theres somethin wrong with it



I don’t care

Laughing at your pain

I don’t care

Smiling at misery

I don’t care

Its doesn’t involve me



Society never helps

Rich get richer

Poor die workin

Money makin from not doin shit

Just to make ends meet workin 2 jobs

One in a diner another as a stripper

After that hoein on the corner

One day the devil himself arrives

Showin a fat wad of cash

Drivin to his place

Down a shady road

After she lets him inside

He laughs as she struggles for breath



I don’t care

Squeezing out the life

I don’t care

Glorifying myself through your death

Nameless hooker leaving orphans

Blameless smiling Satan

It’s getting easier to laugh at them all





Who cares they don’t matter

Hellfire blaze

Lifeless bodies in chains

The scent of rotting damned

Cursed by the voivod known as Dracula

He feasts as the sun dies to night

Leaving Luna to rise and claim the dead

The carrion crows

Rotting flesh now bestows

The resolve of the Lord now to be

Slaughter them all

Make the rivers run red

And the air carry the scent of the dead



Now as Luna dies and Ra does rise

The ghastly massacre shows

The dragon count drinking sanguine crops

From invaders who died helplessly

The ground is splattered with feces and sangre

The count laughs with anger

Upon the satanic beast

Riding the cerberous and devouring foes

Who were foolish in the least

The raiders were damned

As the stalked through the land

And now there is no mercy

Dracula fights for days and nights

Lavishing in the bloodfeast

Drinking his fill

From every kill his soul is now his will

“All be damned if I cannot bestow vengeance for my slaughtered father.

Who should dare to declare me a servant of darkness?”

Satan stood watching his raging apprentice erode

and sold his soul for eternal vigor

to punish the Turks

to make his dead father proud

screaming out loud to Luna

howling at the moon

“Why should I be cursed for doing what was right and defending the Church?”

God anwsered down from the heavens aloft

“Dragon Knight you swore and oath to protect my children from the dangers of infidel killers, all you did was claim my sanction to commit atrocity. In my name you spilled the blood of my children and enemy alike. Akin to the devil you shall forever be remembered as Imapler.”

The clouds closed and the rage within him took hold

Inhumanly struggled to fight the rays of the sun

The light shall be forever his bane

Watching his sins weigh in on his soul

He now spouted blasphemy

Screaming and cursing God for his punishment

Renouncing his ties to Heaven

He scourged the earth from his rebirth

NOCTURNAL SUPREMACY

I am what you fear

I cherish what you forsake

I see beyond your lies

I send you to your judgement

I call you stupid

For what I choose to be the spirit of malice



you fear it

you feel it

you RUN AWAY



The words come myriad

like something that will make you bad

you shun the lessons of the world

run away you little girl

A lovely flood of chaotic tragedy

the blood of the wicked fuels me



fear the world

deny yourself

buried in hate

exhumed in faith



leave me (rotting)

save me (hating)

kill me (shivering)

heal me (pleasuring)



Madness has come

like a beacon in the fog

my mind is the burial bog

defeatist

narssicist

rascist



Murder drives me

the blood within you calls

i need your life

to cleanse your soul

the pain

the man

the shame

the same



always within until i arrive

evil breeds and uses its new puppet

take away the devildoll

make him pay the crimson toll



summoning the viziers

calling the nobles

raising the warriors

preparing are martyrs

dying for self-ritcheous kings

kings who keep as gods

from the heavens the one true broods

sending the Angel of Mercy

the Angel of Madness

the Angel of Death

I am nothing and I am all

Life and Death

arrogant and humble

Once I knew a muse

Her eyes passioned

For words to fuse

Finding the Dragon Bard

In a backyard

Reciting to her

From his heart

Trying in vain to win hers

Once I saw her I thought

I have to lose naught

And let her presence flow

Through my soul and out my mouth

To bring her the tale of a man’s oblivion

Long and forgotten the tale binds them

Different but the same

I think the stars are to blame

Destined for fame

Or working in vain

The fleeting moment of unity

To see what the work will be

The Muse and Me

One until the tale dies

And there are no more lies

Dragon Bard and the Muse

A tale of two souls

An epic of unknown size

Or cursed to nothing

It will be a great ride

The light of your heart

shrouded in the dark

letting all you are

sink into a void

Buried in a wishing well

Trying to escape your mental hell

Using all you can

replacing your pain with physical love

using the plant to overcome

you sit in a smoky closet

Hiding from the others

They love you regardless

Yet you push them away

Your emotions in shambles

Your mind is in shackles

You try to help the one you love

You degrade yourself and not take the chance

You let that snake get into your pants

After all you have been through

only one has been there for you

You friend, compadre, and lifelong counterpart

The one you tell everything

Yet you see the same snake in their life

The Serpent that crawls and devours

With them you spent countless hours

Talking and wanting the love they wont give

For now you feel the reason to live

When you realize that the pain is gone

You can be not be hindered for long

as you see the light of the world

others have dimmed so others can shine

you see the darkness quickly entwine

and the life that you want you always had

even now that you are irreparably mad

The snake you have loved was with your friend

now your love is truly at an end

out from the smoke and darkness within the closet

you find peace as the world slips away

sitting alone what can I say

you shall live to fight another day

Tragedy



COLD the floor as I lay bleeding

The monster atop me brutally feeding

Hiding within the guise of pleasure

An empty heart beyond measure

The pain and scars

Endless as stars



I bring the fury of Hell

SURPRISE

I drag you down in it

BURN

The body you raped

DIE

This is Tragedy’s revenge



My dear friend

Died by your hand

She never lost breath or blood

Her soul retreated until your death

Traumatic lust rage and violence

Seeing her now suffering in silence

I pull my gun and fire at you

Family says your death is tragic

Applied to you some death majik



I bring the fury (its coming)

Executioner, judge and jury

Harbinger of Reckoning

Drinking the blood

Bury you in mud



Tragedy she’s my lover

To me there is no other

Misery is my best friend

I am the beginning you’re your end

Ashes of a Burnt Love



The Cat watches and waits

while her love's heart disintegrates

the look on his face that of fear

and from his eye comes a blood-tear

Her gleaming claws glisten with his life

ever knowing his strife

She walks away to the city of Sin

forgetting the trouble she's in

The Dragon rises and closes the wound

leaving his heart in a tomb

breathing fire and smoke and ash

the rage he's in will forever last

"She will not destroy again" he screams with forked tongue

the fiery honesty burns from his lung

The Dragon takes flight and arrives in Sodom

searching frantically thrashing top to bottom

the black scales spark as the Cat strikes again

Shrieking in agony the Cat looks in the Dragon's eyes

"You love me and shall not harm me" the Cat cries as the Dragon takes in a breath

Wordlessly the Dragon carries her off in flight

Flying for an eternity they arrive at the heights of the mountain of truth

"your lies and betrayal shall be called uncouth"

"This is your new home, away from the Others save My return"

The Cat screams and scratches at the blackened steel scales

and implores the Dragon "Do not leave me, for I love you and wish us be together"

"Forget you lies and your tongue have you serpent?" the Dragon asks in a fiery dart of pain as he takes flight

When in the mount to this night

You can hear the Cat struggle and fight

Her heart is her prison and her pain

and the Dragon returned to shower her with a fire rain.