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You take away,

but I still feel the same,

and I feel this way,

cuz your to blame,



the way I feel isn`t fair,

like out in the cold,

with black tears and pretty hair,

my feelings you try and mold,

while i`m standing out there in the cold,



you ask what`s wrong, but I don`t want to share,

I want you to be empty,

Like a flower with no petals to bare,

All alone like the dial tone at the other end of the phone,



Now I know you never cared,

You fed me bullshit, now i`m not going to be fair,

Take one last picture,

Leave you there,

Stuck I the frame near the empty chair...

I put on black lipstick,

I shed a little tear,

A black line ran down my face,

A line to mark my fear...



It was really late at night,

And all the stars were shining bright,

But I was screaming at the sky,

Looking for the answer why...



I was all alone this night,

Made sure I was in noones sight,

The only person I had around,

was me, myself, and the shadow on the ground,...



maybe I was a little insane,

from holding in all this pain,

the only thing I had left,

was the knife held to my chest...



holding onto my pillow tight,

blood running down with my knife,

evidence of how I feel,

what I had done was now hurtfully real...



with thi knife came sweet dreams,

it was alright from what it seems,

one last kiss,

from him who I miss...



why couldn`t he just understand,

that he was only my man,

I loved him so much,

But he was cold to the touch...



If I couldn`t have him,

Then nobody would,

Sorry was the last thing he said,

I bet he`s sorry now laying in my bed...



He wasn`t really all that dead,

The knife had just scratched his throat now red,

I think I love him more now that he doesn`t speak,

His love is now what I keep...



At the end Juliet dies too,

So I take this knife and wonder if blood is really blue,

Shed another tear, the last time I cry,

Our love was so trong we both had to die...!

Faded away with all this pain, stuck in a world so drained, list several ways to die, save them for a day when I can try, scared of being on my own, 2`s a company but 3 feels so alone, i`d say i`m sorry for all these lies, but that wouldn`t be much of a surprise, hold my breathe, close my eyes, sink a few inches below my mind, drown in thoughts intertwined, following the darkness right into the light, take a turn and hope it`s right, fell so far down but couldn`t find the ground, if noones around hitting the bottem wouldn`t make a sound, fallen angel with no wings, in a comma awake and thriving, lost awake in my own dreams, suffocating on my everything, maybe being sane is really sanity, broken hearts with empty thoughts, this endless dream can`t be what it seems...

I don`t mean to,

But that doesn`t matter anyways,

Some days I make it through,

But most I wish I never knew,

How can you say you care,

When you know you won`t be there,

You just watch me fall down,

6ft below the ground,

Who can help me-save me now,

Even god doesn`t know how,

Most of the time it`s not even my fault,

That`s why all I do is sulk,

I get caught up in stupid shit,

So it`s fuck the world lets have a fit,

Time keeps going,

But why should I,

For a last resort,

Should I wish to die...

I lay here empty, in this empty bed, I just lay down my head, close my eyes and let memories free, he fills my head and I give into an empty plea, lust won`t interfere with what I want us to be, not like the lies with their empty promises and broken dreams, so I lay here empty, tears form from behind closed eyes, with all these tears i`ve cryed the number is too high, from feeling so restrained, a fairy tale gone wrong and the bread crumbs all gone, but I believe in him, give me three guess and i`ll tell you why, the impossible gives me the will to try, it`s what keeps me from praying to die, it seems so simple to take the easy way out, out of this world with all of its empty doubts, but I have no doubt that he`s the one I care about, cuz thinking of him, feeling empty has never felt so right...

Are you listening, to my one last empty plea, it comes from all the screaming inside of me, if I had had just one more day, I would have ran fast and far away, just to get away, from all the pain that made me feel okay, poisen is enticing but temptation will kill, a situation with no solution is twisted and ill, I never thought it threw but then again I never do, I had fallen so far down I missed hitting the ground, and when you hit the bottem you won`t make a sound, and noones around to help you now, if you want an answer start with asking yourself how, I had left the rest of my life out to dry, damp with all the tears I had tried not to cry, I had held in so much pain I wanted it to just go away, from all this shit I held in everyday, noone could hear my screams cuz they were deaf to what I had to say, or the way I critisised it that way, they say a smile is the best cure for the pain, but all my smiles had been drained and everyone around had on a wicked frown, looking for an escape but I only found my way going down...

When there`s so much going through my head,

Sometimes I wish I was dead,

The world keeps spinning,

And its just making me dizzy,

Sometimes I wish I could cry,

But i`m too busy screaming inside,

Time keeps ticking,

And I count down the seconds until I die,

Why can`t all this just go away,

Till the day all I do is pray,

For all this to just pass me by,

This is my sin,

And I can`t wait for the end,

Drowning in tears I can`t cry,

I can`t breathe,

And i`m not able to die,

Is it worth it,

Should I even try,

To live in this world knowing my sin is suicide...

What a beautiful name,

It even makes fuck up sound the same,

She`s tempting but I wouldn`t touch,

You can`t handle the burden she brings is too much,

Restrained in chains, you would fight my dear,

But if you were me you would lay silent and cold with fear,

She would make the brightest days seem dark,

Once she`s got you she`ll leave her mark,

One or two, that`ll do,

Three`s risky but it might work for you,

When things aren`t the best,

She`ll put you to the test,

Fail or pass,

Either way you`ll kiss her ass,

Your thoughts are yours but they are loud,

Seems people see through you and hear that sound,

Your mind is screaming,

Your smile fading,

Your eyes closing,

You body dieing,

She watches you begging and crying,

Then she asks “is it even worth trying?”...

Every step I dare take,

gets me closer to something I want to brake,

all this anger,

all this rage,

makes me think I should be locked in a cage,

take the key,

throw it away,

a lot like my life all down the drain,

just washed away with all this pain,

drowning in words I can not say,

wishing tomorrow will be a brighter day,

maybe my fears will shine away,

some days all I do is pray,

for all this to just melt away,

but I know someday things will be okay,

but fuck the world it won`t happen today…!

I can only hold it in for so long,

With thoughts of destruction,

But they don`t reach my bone,

I`ve been waiting for all this to come out,

I wanna fuck up the world scream and shout,

Don`t say my name,

I already blacked out,

Don`t know what I did,

But I really don`t care,

I`m high off adrenaline,

With all this shit I can`t bare,

It builds up inside,

Until it comes out,

You`ll see the part of me,

You don`t wanna see,

The side of me,

Struggling to brake free,

I don`t know if I can keep it under control,

Pray to god he can help my soul,

Before I can`t handle it,

And just let go...

Don`t try and stare,

Cuz i`m not really there,

Lost in a waking dream,

Not wanting to be found makes me a fiend,

Not wanting revenge I have enough sins,

Paying the price for them all,

Always feeling so small,

All alone in this empty world

He left me here to play with all these boys and girls,

Never waiting for tomorrow,

Today brings enough sorrow,

With all it`s torcher,

All it`s pain,

Makes me think i`m going insane,

Rest in pieces,

Don`t think twice,

Death never semt so nice...