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another untitled one
20:24 Feb 04 2007
Times Read: 518

Would it be wrong would it be right

If I took my life tonight

It is likely that I might

Sitting in my darkened room

Unwanted feelings begin to loom

I know tonight may be my doom

Music blaring way up loud

I never fit into the crowd

I weave my own burial shroud

I giggle and laugh it’s finally here

No one in the house is near

The pain is stronger than the fear

No one hears my tortured cries

The fire dims in my grey eyes

For sure tonight is my demise

I was the girl that most would shun

I sigh as I grab a small hand gun

Tonight my world will come undone

I’d lay in bed for hours

Giving misery the power

In the calming dark I cower

I’ve had a horrible past

I know that I won’t last

I hope that my death won’t be fast

I guess that it’s my time to go

I’ve been through much more than you know

Now my pain is going to show

I cant’ forget those things they said

I put the pistol to my head

Just one shot and I am dead

I know that you won’t miss me

I’m just another memory

And that’s what I’ll always be.

untitled
20:23 Feb 04 2007
Times Read: 519

Deep inside

My secrets hide

Beyond the pain

I go insane

I want to die

I start to cry

It’s too late

This is my fate

I take a knife

And end my life

This One's For The Pain
05:51 Feb 03 2007
Times Read: 521






This one is for everyone

who's had a hard time in this life,

who cannot seem to find their way

without using the knife.



This one's for the little girl

who didn't want to play your game.

She hated that you touched her.

Now all she has is shame.



This one’s for the little boy

they thought who was insane,

all because he killed himself

to get rid of all the pain.



This one's for the boy

whose father gets so mad.

All he can do is hope today

won't be quite as bad.



This one's for the girl

who's father left her for a gun.

She was the one that found him

and her whole life came undone.



This one is for anyone

who's been the fat kid in the class,

who has hated their reflection

when they look into the glass.



This one's for the boy

who's parents separated.

Their hate for each other blinds them to

the child they created.



This one’s for the girl

who doesn’t feel real.

She always locks away her pain,

the pain that just won’t heal.



This one’s for the boy

who doesn’t have a mother.

She went away and left him

with his father and his brother.



This one's for the girl

who had her "first time" forced on her.

He pulled a gun and she laid down,

her innocence taken in a blur.



This one’s for the girl

who cuts her wrists each day.

Sometimes she thinks that if

she died it would all be okay.



This one's for the boy

who still wishes for the past,

for the girl that he first loved.

He thought that it would last.



This one's for the girl

who thought pills would ease her pain.

With each one that she swallowed,

peace, she would obtain.



This one's for the girl

her mother's words are cruel.

She says she's fat, she makes her cry.

Her diet is now the rule.



This one's for the woman

who tries hard to conceive,

but after one more miscarriage,

all she can do is grieve.



This one's for the girl

who's mother gets around.

At night she listens through the walls

to the awful sound.



This one’s for the girl

with the fake stuck-on smile,

who is shaking inside

but laughs all the while.



This one's for the boy

who doesn't go to class.

He's sixteen and a dropout.

There's no way he could pass.



This one’s for anyone

at the end of the day,

who is lost in their minds.

No, they won’t be okay.



This one's for the girl

who couldn't seem to eat.

She went for days without food.

With herself, she did compete.



This one's for the girl

who gave it all to the wrong guy

he took her body and her heart

but then he said goodbye



This one is for anyone

who's had trouble getting by

who cannot seem to pay the bills

when money's in short supply.



This one's for the boy

who faces the regret

someday he'll see he lost the girl

he never will forget.



This one is for anyone

who's ever felt alone.

They cry at night when no one hears.

Their pain is never shown.



This one is for everyone

who's had troubles in this life.

Just know that there are others

who feel and share your strife.

Rain and Pain
05:10 Feb 03 2007
Times Read: 522

Here I sit outside in the rain

Crying and drenched in all of my pain

Remembering the horrors of my past

I didn't think that I would last

I love walking in the rain

Because no one can see my pain

They can't tell that I am crying

And within, my soul is dying

All disgrace is washed away

Pain still lingers, here to stay

I've decided what to do

I'll savor these last moments few

Then Tell them to bring me rain

And tell them to bring me pain.