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It's like nature's finest wine

A natural drink that's so divine

The very essence of one's life

Taken from you with a knife

Staining my mouth a crimson red

I'm not sorry that you're dead

Drinking up your dark red blood

Pouring from you in a flood

As I feed you shudder and gasp

As your life slips through your grasp

Drinking up your very life

Which was ended by my knife

I sip your blood like a red wine

At last my love your blood is mine

Dig my grave

Dig it deep

Lay me down

So I may sleep

My death itself

Is hardly more

Than the painful

Life before

So now

I'm gone

Just

Carry on

Don't mourn

Just Rejoice

When you hear the

sound of my voice

Please don't cry

Because I died

I couldn't hold

The pain inside

I'm truly sorry

That I let go

I've been through more

Than you know

I used to remember the

Darkness of my past

Reliving these memories

I wish I didn't have

I'm sorry that I left you

All alone that day

I guess this is goodbye

I have no more to say

So dig my grave

Dig it deep

Lay me down

So I may sleep

In the dark comfort of

my room, I sit all alone.

It’s so amazing how

antisocial I have grown.

Refusing to socialize,

I sit in my room,

alone and insane and

encased in my doom.

I cut my wrists

and as I cry,

sadness fills

my dying eyes.

Beside me lays a diary

with a broken clasp.

I shudder as my life

slips through my grasp.

The creased, smudged pages

tell the story of a girl,

whose tragic life is re-lived

as the paper unfurls.

The demons inside of me

burst through my red cuts.

I used to tear myself open

and sew myself shut.

All of the long years

and all of the pain

locked away inside

nothing to gain,

memories of broken

hearts and filthy lies,

depression, anger

and shattered lives.

I cry in darkness.

I wait to die.

Erase the deep wounds.

Erase my life.

I guess it’s time

for me to quit

because I just don’t

give a shit.

The silver razor slips

from my fingers.

The pain fades away,

the blood still lingers.

My eyes fade to a

dead misty grey.

My breathing slows

as my life slips away.

The floor is colored

a deep crimson red.

No one cares that

I am dead.

Wash my blood off

of the wall.

Please just know this

was not your fault...

Dad, you left us when I was three

You never did much for mom and me

You broke my mother’s heart

And tore our family apart

When you lay your head down

How do you sleep at night?

Do you even wonder

If we’re all right?

It’s really a shame

But you’re to blame

For everything going wrong

Has it really been that long

Fifteen years full of so much pain?

Like I said you’re to blame.

The days I spent so cold so hungry

were full of hate I was so angry.

I used to wait for the postman to bring me a letter

I’d wait for you to call and make me feel better

I gave up those hopes and dreams

No one heard my tortured screams

I’d dream of another you one who would never ever leave me alone to pick up the pieces

My daddy to be there that’s what I needed

It’s too damn bad things didn’t turn out that well

Just know you can only blame yourself

Every line of this means the same

Remember Dad, you’re to blame..

I trust no one.

I wait to die.

Bleeding and screaming,

I start to cry.

My burning ashes

Blacken the day.

A world of hatred,

Take me away.

I dream in darkness.

I sleep to die.

Erase the silence.

Erase my life.

My burning ashes

Blacken the day.

A world of nothing,

Blow me away.

My burning ashes

Fade to grey.

Come and take

My life away.

I've spent all these years

fighting back tears.

My heart falls apart

day by day.

My dying soul

withers away

like a sun

starved flower.

Deep in the dark

I cower.

Sometimes I break down

writing of my sorrow.

Will I live to

see tomorrow?

Look into my

dead grey eyes.

See the pain and

fear inside?

Of course you can't.

You don't care

about this

living nightmare.

Of course you don't.

You can't see

the things that are

tormenting me.

You say I'm crazy.

It's all in my mind,

but maybe someday

you will find

those voices ringing

in my ears

taunting me

about my fears.

They weave gorgeous

dreams into my head,

pretty dreams in

which I'm dead.

They beckon me.

Shall I give in?

Upon my end

shall I begin

forsaking all

I've fallen for?

I rise to

meet the end.

So look into my

glassy eyes.

You have witnessed

my demise....

I just want to ve somebody else.

I'm so tired of having battles with myself.

I really hate me.

I'm my own worst enemy.

I've been a bad, bad girl for so long.

I don't know how to change. What went wrong?

I'm always in a fight

Because I can't do nothing right.

There's a war against the mirror I fight each day.

I know it should't be this way.

I just want a day in the life of someone else.

It's bad when you piss off yourself.

I'm just so sick with shame,

Tired of people's childish games.

I just want to be somebody else.

I'm so tired of losing battles with myself....

I hide in shadows

and I wait to die.

Lost in darkness,

I just want to cry.

Sometimes shadows

Never open.

Nothing matters

When you're broken.

I'm all alone

Consumed by my fears

And soon to be

Blinded by tears.

Shadows run

Across the floor.

I stare sadly

At the door.

The shadows whisper

About my dark past,

Bringing back those memories

I wish I didn't have.

I clasp my hands

Over my ears.

"It was all your fault!"

they laugh and sneer.

The shadows bring

Me so much pain,

But I love them

All the same.

It's kind of strange,

I will admit

But I guess I just

Don't give a shit.

The shadows and I

Live off one another.

We love but hate

But need eachother.

It's messed up. They

Hurt me so!

Soon my teardrops

Freely flow.

I can't live without

Them, but I want to try.

We all know that without

Them, it's likely that I'll die.

They couldn't

Take the blame.

I'm so sick

With shame.

The shadows come

And haunt my dreams.

I'm in more pain

Than it seems.

Give me a long

Kiss goodnight

And every thing

Will be all right.

Suicide lullabies

They sweetly sing.

Tell me that I

Won't feel a thing...

I feel as if nobody has ever cared

And right now I'm getting so scared

Utterly terrified of myself

I reach for the pistol on my shelf

I stroke the silver barrel and suddenly I realize

the only way to stop the pain is through suicide

I load up my pistol and write a little letter

For the first time in a long time I'm going to feel better

Then came a spark and a loud bang

I shook and shuddered as it rang

A small hole in my head

Confirmed I was dead

Wash my blood off of the wall

Tell my mom this was not her fault

I was too depressed to go on

I'm so sorry I am gone

Here I sit alone in a daze

while the Devil builds my cage.

Forbidden to live. Forbidden to die.

As the blood seeps out, I start to cry.

The razor is my only friend.

It’s too bad this is the end.

Lucifer’s demons laugh and sneer.

I’m drowning in my childish fear.

All I can think of is the pain.

It’s enough to make me insane.

Every thing I’ve done is wrong.

I’ve known this for far too long.

It sucks to be someone like me,

But there is no one who can see

or understand me after all I’ve seen.

I say so much that I don’t mean.

So here I sit alone in a daze

while the Devil locks my cage....



Marissa Lynn

Why have I thought of suicide?

Why am I not afraid to die?

Why do these questions run through my head, when I wish that I were dead?

No one can save me so don’t even try...

I’m all alone, living a lie...

There's a girl,15 years old.

She's all alone. The house is cold.

She looks

so sad.

She hates

her dad.

She wants to die.

She starts to cry.

She cuts her wrists and as she cries,

sadness fills her dead grey eyes.

There she sits down on the floor,

just staring at her bedroom door.

I reach for her shoulders, my fingers touch glass.

I stand there, dumbfounded, I realize at last.

I know that it's true but don't want to believe

that sad girl in the mirror is actually me...

a boy liked a girl but wanted to make her jealous.









Then one day











things went terribly wrong.









The next few weeks









were like a very sad









song.











He made her jealous











on purpose he tried.











When the girl asked, "Do you love her?"











on purpose he lied.









He played with jealousy









like it was a game.











Little did he know











Things would never be the same.











His plan was working











but he had no clue.









How wrong things would go,









the damage he would do.











One night she broke down,









feeling very









alone.











Just her and the blade,









no one else home.













She dialed his number,









he answered, "Hello"









She told him she loved him









and hung up the phone.













He raced to her











house









just a minute too late.









Found her lying in blood,







her heart











had no rate.









Beside her was a note,











in it her confession.











Her love for this boy,









her only obsession.













As he read the note,









he knelt down and cried.







Grabbed her knife,









that night they both died.











She was found in his arms,









both of them dead.











Under her











note











his handwriting said:















"I loved her











so, she never knew.











All this time









I loved her











too."

I want you to know

what you've put me through.

I don't know how to say

this or what I can do.

All you try to do is

get back at my mother

even if it is through

me and my brother.

Do you remember the time

you called me a slut?

I do, and I must say, Dad

that's pretty fucked up.

Do you remember the time

you talked trash about Steve?

Because I remember.

I wished I could leave.

Do you remember the time

you yelled at me and my brother

all because of something

said by my mother?

Couldn't you see that

you broke my heart

and along with it

tore our family apart?

You were never

there for me.

I hate you.

I don't want to be

like you ever. Look

into my dead grey eyes.

See the pain and

fear inside?

It was your fault

and it's a shame

but remember Dad,

you're to blame.

This is breaking mr down,

writing this to you

but really, there is

nothing I can do.

I just want you to

know what you've done

to my new FAMILY,

me and your son.

All alone I'm doomed to be

A fragile soul lost in eternity

I feel alone when I go to sleep

And every time tears roll down my cheeks

I'm all alone My soul pays the cost

If I fall and all is lost

All alone is where I belong

I know that this must be wrong

People aren't meant to live this way

But I don't know what to say

I feel alone among those who "care"

Being alone doesn't make me scared

But I wish alone I will not stay

Because it shouldn't end this way

love and war

blood and gore

filthy lies

shattered lives

bleeding slashes

open gashes

full of shame

stupid games

broken hearts

torn apart

childish fears

crying tears

it's too late

dreadful state

fate is sealed

death is dealed

too much pain

ceasing rain

no more truth

messed up youth

silver knife

painful life

one last breath

bring me death

Fallen angel

stay with me

Hold me here

for eternity

Every night

in twilight bright

in the day's last

fading light

the smell of blood

fresh on your breath

the pure sweet scent

of one's own death

my protecter

the very last

your love forever

will hold fast

I look into your eyes

and see innocence.

You gaze into mine

and see a hunger.

I watch your veins pulsing

underneath your skin.

I lick my lips like a rabid

animal ready to rip into its prey.

My body trembles in excitement.

This is so wrong, yet feels so right.

Your heart in my hands,

I feel it picking up its pace.

You stare at me in horror

as blood trickles out

between my fingers.

"What have you done?" you

murmer as Death comes to claim you.

I glance at you but it's

not the same face you've

seen all these years.

There is an almost animal-like

appearance when my eyes go

red as my blood lust consumes me. A

silent scream passes your lips

as I lap up the blood dripping from my hands. "Why?" you ask.

I hiss and you voice dies away.

When I'm done feeding,

the trance slips away.

I look upon you sadly as

in your eyes I fade to black.

What have I done?