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All I want to do is fall in love and be happy

is that so wrong?

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Angelus
14:08 Oct 06 2010

No. Not wrong. just.. difficult.

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Im in love with a dream that will never come true





blaaaaah

I used to be able to handle being around them

but now

things are changing

just the thought of them

makes my blood boil

How am I supposed to live with this

I will shoot myself

Everyday I flee to my room

but its not enough

I need out

now

I dont if its just me...it probably is

but I've been feeling like

Everything is so

Blah blah blah

and i cant

do anything to make it

go away

I'm stuck in all of this

blah blah blah

ness

It isn't a nice feeling

Alll I do is sit and

its like

Blah blah blah

Shoot me in the face

I am liking the song

Asking Alexandria - I Was Once Possibly Maybe Perhaps A King



hmmm hmmm hmmm

Worst feeling ever is

getting in a fight with

your closest friend over

the something incredibly stupid

and not being able to get past it ):

I have no idea why but like every other minute I feel like bursting out in a very intense happy dance like there is so much happiness inside of me just wanting to burst out but like where did it come from?? o.o

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XxHeavensxDarkxAngelxX
00:30 Mar 15 2010

Its cause of me hunny :)

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I hate having to fake being happy. Its starting to get old :/ I'm not always faking but when I am it hurts..oh well



Why can't I just be sad?

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XxHeavensxDarkxAngelxX
05:24 Mar 14 2010

Who says you can't be sad?

Everyone has the right to be sad

And its people like me, whose job to make you TRULY happy when you are sad :)



If you need to cry, doon't be afraid to let it out

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I try to make you all happy.

I really do.

I say yes to everything.

To everyone.

I do want you want.

Why aren't you happy?

I'm doing what you what.

I'm not with the one I truely love.

I'm with you.

It what you wanted.

Be fucking happy.

If I cant be you atleast should be.

Fuck you,

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Angelus
01:50 Mar 12 2010

I like this.

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Today I was sitting at the dinner table.

Everyday my bum of a brother who has no furture makes a rude comment to me.

Tonight I decided to take a stand.

He yelled.

He cursed.

I sat.

He told me to go and said I couldn't eat.

I left.

My father and mother did nothing.

I feel empty.

But atleast I didn't let him walk all over me, right?

I think that I care too much.

I want him to love me.

I try hard.

I try not to say something he won't like.

Why do I care?

I should say whatever I want.

Then I'll know that he really likes me.

If he doesn't like what I say..

Then...

well then I don't know.

I care too much to ever try.

Everyone wishes people wouldn't lie.

But everyone does lie.

You want everyone to tell the truth.

But you don't.

But that's okay.

It's human nature.

Humans are..

Liars.

Every

single

one.



But that's okay...

Ever since that night I haven't been the same.

My closest friend always tells me I'm out of it.

I don't like when people get too close to me anymore.

I dont care about accomplishing things anymore.

I just want to move on.

Go into the future and forget.

Act like it never happened.

Maybe then I'll be better.

I won't have to be scared anymore.

But then again..

Maybe nothing will change...

Maybe the fear will just grow..

I have decided at this moment that I am addicted to coffee

Sometimes I wish I could fly.

So that I can fly away from my home and get away from everything.

Just for a little while. Have some peace and quiet.

Fly to a deserted beach.

Listen to the waves crash against the rocks.

Sometime I wish I could find a place where no one goes and just think.

Listen to the birds sing.

Listen tot he rustle of the leafs as the wind blows.

Listen to the little steps of the animals all around.

It seems like everytime I find a quiet place someone ruins it.

Doesn't that suck?

It makes me just want to go moo sadly.

Oh well.

Shit happens

In two weeks I will be going to one of Amica's shows!! (: (a local band that is really good!!) I miss the screaming of the vocalist. Hopefully their lead guitarist will be there so I can hear their new song properly (: I'm very excited (!!