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Wiccan Chant and Prayer for strength
19:55 Nov 29 2009
Times Read: 545

Protection Chant



Thrice around the circle is bound

Sink all evil into the ground!



Say 3 times and end with "So Mote It Be!"





Prayer For Strength and Protection



God and Goddess of the skies,

Please respond to my cries.

Lift me up in your strong arms,

Away from those who seek to harm.

Shield me from the awful rage,

That shall face me day to day.

Help me be strong in what I do,

And help my heart remain true.

Give me the strength to face each day,

And the hardships before me lain.

Let those whom I love, love me in return,

And everyday let me learn.

I bid you both my spirit keep,

While I'm awake and asleep.

So mote it be!

River Below - Billy Tallent
18:12 Nov 29 2009
Times Read: 548

These lyrics descibe how I feel and how I am living at the moment.



Rejected...since day one

My name is...bastard son

I've been damned...so many times I've lost count

Blue collar...working man

Devises...master plan

Bi-polar...with a mental side arm



I'm sick and I'm twisted

I'm broken you can't fix it

Don't make me, cause I'll do it

Red button and we'll all go



Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...

They'll think I'm insane, but you'll all know my name!

Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...

I'll take all the blame, the front page and the fame!



Contraption...made up of

Nuts and bolts...creates the

New monster...to burn your family tree down!

Tick-tocking...times up now

Split second...the world frowns

Lonely heart...never loved nobody!



I'm sick and I'm twisted

I'm broken an' you can't fix it

Don't make me, cause I'll do it

Red button and we'll all go



Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...

They'll think I'm insane but you'll all know my name!

Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...

I'll take all the blame, the front page and the fame!



I'll take all the blame

The front page and the fame

INTO THE RIVER BELOW

INTO THE RIVER BELOW

INTO THE RIVER BELOW

INTO THE RIVER BELOW



Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...

They'll think I'm insane but you'll all know my name!

Into the river below...I'm running from the inferno...

I'll take all the blame, the front page and the fame!



Yeah I'll take all the blame

The front page and the fame

But you'll all know my name

And they'll think I'm insane

But you'll all know my name

But they'll think I'm insane

Jigsaw Lyrics: Lady Soverigne
22:03 Nov 27 2009
Times Read: 556




My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Can you figure it out, figure it out?

My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Are you listenin' now, listenin' now?



So I'm smoking like a chimney

I feel fucked up, I got too much drink in me

It's a shame that you can't be around



I got you on mind, I got shit on my mind

I got plenty of time to just sit and rewind

And just call up your line and sip on my wine

'Cause this is bugging me out and I wish you were mine



I went too far, stole your car

Messed about but heard me out

Didn't mean to scream and shout

But won't you forgive me now?



My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Can you figure it out, figure it out?

My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Are you listenin' now, listenin' now?



So I'm kinda pissed off

I miss the way that we use to get off

And the way that you held my hand

When the fruit was dropped



That's all gone, now I'm feelin' kinda lost

I got you on mind, I got shit on my mind

I got plenty of time to just sit and rewind

And just call up your line and sip on my wine

'Cause this is bugging me out and I wish you were mine



I went too far, stole your car

Messed about but heard me out

Didn't mean to scream and shout

But won't you forgive me now?



My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Can you figure it out, figure it out?

My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Are you listenin' now, listenin' now?



My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Can you figure it out, figure it out?

My heart's like a jigsaw puzzle, pick it up and fix it for me

Are you listenin' now, listenin' now?

An entry to all the ladies that have ever been burned by a homewrecker
05:53 Nov 26 2009
Times Read: 561

This particular entry goes out to all of my fellow women who have ever had a homewrecker come into their lives.



First lets start with the main facts: a homewrecker seems to usualy be a younger girl who comes into our lives one way or another and somehow persuade our men to either fool arround on us or leave us.



I personally ladies have had this happen to me now twice within the last three years and these little girls don't seem to know whats good for them. They have come into my life and lied to me and taken things that are not theirs, even when they have no chance of actually being with the other person they seek out and destroy my happiness



Now recently a young woman and she knows who she is, came into my life and befriended me, however I feel like the old saying keep your friends close but your enemies closer. Well thats exactly what she has made an enemy.

She may think she is tough and that she can defeat me but she has another thing coming if she thinks I am just gonna roll over and let her take this particular man away from me and our soon to be son.



Thats right girls I am 7 months pregnant with no dubt what is going to be a very handsome little boy, if this girl thinks she is gonna take his father away from him she better think twice. The man in question is about twice her age and they both seem to think that their internet romance is going to work. You know what thats fine let them think that, I have given up on that type of relationship with him, however he and I are best friends and more than that sometimes and this she will never be able to destroy.



Another thing coming is that even if they do anage to actually meet some day I will tell her right now that she will never know my son. She will not be a part of his life and this I will guarantee. My sonwill never know of the cheap little tramp that tried to take his daddy away from him.



Ladies this girl has issues beyond issues and if she thinks for onesecod that my son will ever see her as another mommy she is surely mistaken.



I am not jelous of what they have, I myself have been looking arround for the possiblity of the maybe new man in my life, but I am not ready for that just yet.



This is especially to that particular girl and she knows who she is, I can pretty much guarantee you that if you ever try to make him choose you over me and his child you will be very disapointed in the results. I dare you go ahead and try.



So ladies, if you ever come across these sorry little creatures called homewreckers be sure to stomp them out before they have a chance to try and ruin your life.

Clearing My Head
04:27 Nov 26 2009
Times Read: 563

Just cleaning out my mind once again. Not very much is oing on in my life xcept for one really important thing. I am expecting my second child in about 11weeks now. I have so many hopes and fears for this baby but no matter what I know his father and I will try the best we can o raise him to be an outstanding human being. We have so much love for him already and he is not even here yet. Time will tell who i going to be more like, me or him, but I would be proud if he turns out to be half of what his father is. Then the time will come for me to help him understand that yes I love his father but we are not together in the normal sense of the meaning of the word. I have so many constant thoughts wondering what is coming in the future. What does the world have planned for me and my little family. There are alot of people out there who wish for my unhappiness and do whatever they can to play with other peoples lives because theresis either to boring or to messed up for them to deal with, and yes you people know who you are. Yet they do not realise that I am the kind of person who does not give up easily or without a fight and that is one thing I do well and thats fight for what I want. If I want something bad enough I will eventually have it. For now though I sit back and I bide mytime and I bite my toung knowing that things will take a turn forthe worse and like I always am, I will be the one there to pick up the pieces.

Statement of Fact
23:36 Nov 23 2009
Times Read: 571

The stress is slowly and surely killing me. One minute you are my friend, and my lover and more and the next you hate me with everything you have. It seems to continue in this pattern and i don't know if I can take it anymore. We never used to fight and we wanted the same things from life. What the hell happened? You know it seems strange to me that the new woman in your life would want to be friends with the ex girlfriend/bestfriend, could it be just to keep an eye on me to make sure that you and i are not that close anymore, concidering I am giving life soon to a child we created I think there may be some jelousy. You say I chased her away, but she has a mind of her own and she could have decided to stay with you. I speak the truth that neither of you seem to be able to see and I get blamed for everything but the stars in the sky. How could you ever think that I as your ex could ever be friends with the new woman in your life while you two are so in love with each other. I am sorry but if she cared for you that much then she would not have left you. And you say I run away when things get hard! I don't see it working for obvious reasons and I think you are starting to see the obvious yourself, but again I will stick by you in whatever you decide because that my dear is the kind of person I am.

Walk Away From Me
05:19 Nov 23 2009
Times Read: 576

I try and I try to make things work, what do I get for all the hassel? Nothing. I am the kind of person who will give up on my life in order to make someone I love happy, but when they are fighting me tooth and nail I really don't know what to do. I am willing to sacrifice our friendship so that you can be happy with someone else, I think if I am in the picture even as your friend that it will only hinder your now and future relationships.

You tell me what I am suposed to do. You freak out on me because I am too involved and then when I think I should back off and let it be, you turn arround a say fine go then I will be alone.

What I want ot know is what the hell do you want from me? She wont be with you if you are friends with me and I should not be expected to be friends with the new woman in your life especially while I am pregnant with your son. So you tell me what I should do. My idea is on the table and I can't think of another way for you two to be happy, by all means if there is something I have not thought of then let me know, but for now I say I have my children and I am strong so please don't take away all I have left. If you have to cut ties with me in order to ever be happy, be it that I do not want this but am willing to do whatever it takes for your happiness and peace of mind, then so be it I will walk away.

My Hearts Desire
02:17 Nov 19 2009
Times Read: 583

My Hearts Desire



My mind racing in confusion,

so scares to speak a word,

my mouth starts to move,

but a word was unheard,

my heart racing so fast,

love comes to mind,

tears in my heart,

that couldn't begin to speak the pain,

but every time I see you,

I remember that sweet kiss you put upon my face,

a love that never begins to fade away,

cause my heart calls out your name,

repeating the pain I caused you everyday,

but my desire is to love you to death do us part,

but that same question still remains in my heart,

even though you are gone I cant let you go,

I have so many things I want you to know,

I'm not trying to hide myself in tears,

but I only had a few years,

I'm sorry I didn't show you my love,

but I'm not ready to travel or give up,

I need you by my side,

so you again can be mine,

I want you to grow old along with me,

the best is yet to be,

so bless the memories within your heart,

so please don't forget about them and tear them apart,

I'm sorry I hurt you ,I know now I was wrong,

but remember, we all stumble,

everyone of us do wrong,

so will you give me your hand,

and help me through this too,

I know your still hurt and I'm sorry for that too,

maybe one day you'll realize its true,

its coming

coming from my heart to you.

To Ren with all my love and apologies Love Dar

My Constant Pain
03:35 Nov 18 2009
Times Read: 590

My Pain My regret



I feel it slipping..

..please.....

..i dont want to bleed from my heart anymore...

..painful heart...they bleed me as i were roses to them...



...and they silt my throat with its thorns..

where are you?....my bleeding rose...

the white roses of this world are beautiful

red..

the colour of pain..

love..

passion..

will these roses never know true beauty from this colour?

my blood stains and turns the white roses red

for you I would drain myself so every rose would have as much beauty as you

they will be but a bleeding rose

I am but their creator

watch

as I show you the beauty of a bleeding rose

from my painful heart...

bleeding rose...

18:22 Nov 17 2009
Times Read: 592

I am not asking for you to forgive me yet. I am asking that you talk to me and work on things toward forgiveness. There is such a bigger picture here to look at other than us. We together have created life and now we must be able to work together to sustain that life. What I am asking is that you head your own advice that you gave to two friends. Work it out. Don't be a coward. These are your words. I know I was wrong to go through what was not mine, but you wer wrong to not tell me things. I know no matter what you will love the life that has been created, and I want you to be there for everything, every minute of his life. He needs you and will always need you. All I ask is to please take a look into your heart which I know is huge, take a look over the past two years, all of the memories we have made and tell me what I can do to get my friend back. I am constantly missing you and I am constantly sorry for all that has been done, constantly crying and racking my brain to find out what I can do to make this up to you. Please let me know what I can do. i am begging you to let me back into your life. I promisse that you can trust me, I will be completly honest with you but you need to be honest with me to and we need to work together. No matter what I will always love you and there will be a constant reminder of what we shared.

What can I say
21:51 Nov 16 2009
Times Read: 596

You say you didn't lie you just didn't tell me for my own good. Bullshit. If that is how you see me, so weak that I can't handle the truth from you then you really don't know me. You make promisses you can't keep and then you run away when things get rough. To say I loved you with all of my heart and soul would be an understatement. I don't know how to come back from something like this but your knife has been stuck in my heart for a long time now and I want to know if you would like it back or would you like to push it in a little deeper.

You and I will forever have a piece of us that walks this lonley world and I hope for his sake you are good to him.

Forgiveness was offered to you and you rejected it by hidding from me.

So I ask what am I now suposed to do?

Loosing you I lost myself as well. I am done with the pain and the agaony that comes with relationships. I have stoped looking for that someone because after all of the years and relationships I have decided that true love does not exist and therefor my search is over.

My constant thoughts
23:36 Nov 13 2009
Times Read: 600

I just want to know when the voice in my head is gonna stop telling me to be careful arround you. I want it to stop saying you are all wrong and that you are just gonna break my heart again. This is what I want, it does not mean that I can stop it or that it is not right.

I don't know anymore ways to tell you that I love you without hurting myself.

I would give you the world if I could and much more, sadly all I have to offer is myself and all that I am. I know I am not perfect and I have done a lot of stupid shit in my life, but am I really gonna have to spend the rest of it alone? Do you really hate me that much. You want what you can't see and what you can't touch and what you can't have, yet you lie and say that nothing is wrong and that I am never going to loose you.

Thinking, thinking, thinking
21:52 Nov 11 2009
Times Read: 604

Still silent screams run through my mind, I can't seem to shake the feeling of fear and dread that lingers in my mind. What can I do but suffer through the emotions and the pain. I listen for the words that I hope you will tell me again, do you remember the words spoken in the moment of passion we shared? Can you help me hrough the time and the rain of the days to come? Being with you and creating life with you is the most beautiful part of my existance, never wanting this to end. Waiting for the moment of true bliss which I know will come again. The looks the gaze, the strong feeling and bond that can not be broken will forever exist and forever grow stronger. Remember that I will always love you.

My head is making too much noise !
04:27 Nov 09 2009
Times Read: 612

I am so confused about how I should feel. I have so many things that go through my mind that I can't keep anything straight.

What did I do wrong, what can I do to fix it, was I not there enough, was I not good enough.

Dancing arround in my head are a million and one things and I think I am on the brink of insanity.

Did I do something in a past life to deserve pain in this one over and over again?

If I am sitting here screaming is there really anyone out there to hear me?

So many times I have been betrayed or let down or both. It makes me wonder what is the point. Am I that easy of a target? Do I really wear my heart on my sleeve too often?

I can't seem to controll any aspect of my life right now and all of the choices I make seem to lead either nowhere or they lead to the wrong place.

I wish I could spend my pittiful existance in a dream and then I know I never have to feel anything again.

Lucky Ones Bif Naked
00:50 Nov 07 2009
Times Read: 626

"Lucky"



It was a monday, when my lover told me,

"never pay the reaper with love only."

What could i say to you, except, "i love you."

And "i'd give my life for yours."



I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.



The first time we made love, i... i wasn't sober.

(and you told me you loved me over and over!)

How could i ever love another, when i miss you every day...



Remember the time we made love in the roses?

(and you took my picture in all sorts of poses!)

How could i ever get over you, when i'd give my life for yours.



I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.



My dear, It's time to say i thank god for you.

I thank god for you in each and every single way.

And, i know... i know.. i know.. i know...



It's time to let you know. time to let you know.

Time to let you know. time to sit here and say...



I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones.

I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.

We are the lucky ones, dear...

Screaming at the top of my lungs
05:02 Nov 06 2009
Times Read: 633

How could you betray me?

You tell me that I mean the world to you and I am the only one you can talk to yet you hide from me, you lie to me and treat me like I am some kind of idiot. You think that if you don't tell me that it won't hurt me as much right? Wrong oh so wrong. Not telling me and hiding things from me make it hurt even more.

Funny how my life seems to follow a very strict pattern, it lets me glimps happiness for a little bit right before it rips out of my hands before my very eyes.

You say you are not looking for anyone else and that you are here for me and that you still love me, but how much of that is true? Is it more that you are afraid of what may happen if you tell me the truth. The truth is you are not looking for anyone because you have found someone and you are afraid to tell me.

Well guess what, in this time and age people have many ways of communicating with each other and we do talk, we find things out that we may not have wanted to know but we then know them anyway, then we wait for you to be honest and for the pain to finally stop.

I give up
00:15 Nov 02 2009
Times Read: 642

I am sorry,

I know most people see me as a strong individual with a good head on her shoulders but the thing is that really I am not all that strong.

I am so tired of being lied to and let down by the people that I care most about.

I am not a selfish person by any means but for once I would like to be happy.

I don't know if it is possible to get post partum depression before your child is even born but I am not happy at all.

Lately I feel so alone even when I have people arround me. It takes all I have every day to stop myself from crying like an idiot.

I know it is more than likely my pregnancy hormones that are driving me to insanity right now, but I have been through alot in the last couple of years and I just don't know how much more I can take.

I know everyone goes through things in life and a lot of people have a rough time and I more than likely sound like I am just a whiner, but really I am a strong woman in my mind and in my body but my heart has been broken too often and to hard I think to ever repair the damage that has been done.

Why can't I have any honesty in my life? I can only give soo much of myself and not get anything in return.

The only two people I can depend on in my life to give me the unconditional affection are my daughter and soon to be son, and they are the only reason I am still here.

Later on in life I am not looking forward to the part where they decide they hate me as well, but I know it will happen, I just hope I am ready.