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Not really anything to say today...I am so excited about tonight and the weekend... : )

Yesterday was a mess….actually it started off nicely but by two in the afternoon had turned decidedly dismal, after I got a call from my oldest son who informed me of “dad’s” latest scheme to annoy with me yet again. While it didn’t work on me…it did upset my son due to the fact that he was again told in graphic detail about supposed shortcomings as a “normal” person.



My bond with the topic of vampires relates back to the feelings I can have. I have been a lifelong student of nature and believe that most of the population is so out of touch with what is real that any glimpse of it is abhorrent to them. The animal kingdom, of which the human being is a representative member, is constantly in flux, but is at the same time part of a great immutable cycle. Predatory behavior in all the animals is beautiful and graceful when studied objectively. Whether it is the operation of chemical neurotoxins, or through suffocation by mandible pressure, it allows a full view of the what we are. It is not right, it is not wrong, it just is.



A quote that always helps:



"Crossing at a ford" means, for example, crossing the sea at a strait, or crossing over a hundred miles of broad sea at a crossing place. I believe this "crossing at a ford" occurs often in person's lifetime. It means setting sail even though your friends stay in harbor, knowing the route, knowing the soundness of your ship and the favor of the day. When all the conditions are meet, and there is perhaps a favorable wind, or a tailwind, then set sail. If the wind changes within a few miles of your destination, you must row across the remaining distance without sail.

If you attain this spirit, it applies to everyday life. You must always think of crossing at a ford.

In strategy also it is important to "cross at a ford". Discern the enemy's capability and, knowing your own strong points, "cross the ford" at the advantageous place, as a good captain crosses a sea route. If you succeed in crossing at the best place, you may take your ease. To cross at a ford means to attack the enemy's weak point, and to put yourself in an advantageous position. This is how to win large-scale strategy. The spirit of crossing at a ford is necessary in both large- and small-scale strategy.

You must research this well.

Here goes....where do I begin….I am happy to be at VR I feel very protected here surrounded by many who have experienced pain, have found the path, and who know themselves and are not hiding from it….



Introspective assessment is a place I often begin OR end my day. It is kind of random and if you are reading this….well you may be bored or irritated by the tangents I take. I am 41…ugggh!!! its hard to believe that in a way, and I stand 5’ 10” at 118 lbs (this morning), dark brown shoulder length hair and light brown eyes (I love my eyes)….if fact I love myself and those who believe in themselves…although I will often sacrifice my emotions to help others find what it is they are. This sacrifice nearly cost me everything due to my investment into a man who ultimately betrayed me like I could never have imagined possible….this on the heels of a childhood wracked with turmoil. I have suffered mental and physical tests that have brought me to where I am now…hard to believe that they could have done that : ), but this is our existence…we are blessed.



My beliefs are simple…I allow the heavens to wash over me and carry me to my next experience. This has allowed me to find my gift for soaking in a person’s energy, if it is harmonious, and to support a person’s energy, again if it is harmonious. I often see (feel, sense…????) things in people I do not feel comfortable with, or which causes me concern for those that surround them….however they quickly depart my proximity as they become unsettled around me….. my ex swears I can physically harm him with my mere presence…he does not realize that I am merely a mirror of his energy.



Living within the harmony of the universe has given me fantastic experiences…sexually, I find unending pleasure with both males and females who can synch themselves with the moment. How did I get on this subject… it must have been my thinking of last weekend. I went to a wonderful art exhibit with a friend of mine, Karen. We had dinner and began talking about the subjects we often do, spirituality, feelings, our kids, and yes even our jobs. That night we settled in and shared conversation and energy that left both of us at complete peace by Sunday morning. I am still warm from the bond we deepened.



What do I dislike (read "fucking hate")…. rude and uncaring (not concerned with connecting with others) people. I work in a great art based store (have been there for seven years...I love art) and STILL run into these people….their ability to take away from serenity annoys me to no end.



I will not read what I have just wrote, I am kind of apprehensive about it….but I feel like it is a beginning…..