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03:44 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 957
So far away, yet so close
Knowing all of me wanting you most
Conversations gone dry
We barely say hi
Opening my mind, and you did too
One night, just up out of the blue
You sharing your feelings
To me you were so appealing
The next time we met
You were worried of how things would set
Would I turn my back on you
No, I do not judge the things you do
Yerning for all that I could get
Wanting to taste you the day we met
Your mind always kept me intrigued
Making me all the more wanting to feed
Now it seems we have no time to talk
But never forget in my dreams you walk
To my heart I will keep you close
The man that saw who I was the most
With love and care I write this
Just to let you know it is you I miss
03:27 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 958
Feeling that cold metal cross my skin
Not worrying that what i do is a sin
The wetness of anger and hurt flow free
Careful so that i may not cut too deep.
Trying so hard to stay numb and not feel
Keeping all in my bottle under a seal
Now time shall come when it will over fill
Paying attention that i do not kill
Questions asked, answers I can not give
Fighting again wanting to live
Feeling so heavy from all of this stuff
When will others see that I have had enough
Maybe one day the cold metal goes too deep
Then in spirit I stand and watch them weep
Feeling all that I do, my anger and hurt
As they throw another shovel of dirt
Another day goes by people asking why
The spirit of another one had to die
Questions asked, answer I can not give
If I had the answers maybe I would have lived
03:20 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 959
Sitting here wondering about whats next
Holding my head hoping the voices would leave
Telling me to do this and to do that
In my heart I feel the voices deceave
"Hey you" the voice says, listen to me
Your body so weary and your heart is so cold
Listen to the voice hear what I say
You are growing weaker almost as if your old
Crumbling to my knees and weeping
Numbness I feel so the voice has said
Calling out and reaching for the light
Hearing the voice saying that I am dead
Looking around seeing myself on the floor
The voice said look real hard, may that image remain
Holding onto a red peice of cloth so I see
The voice telling me to look closer, the cloth is blood stain
Feeling so cold and skin turning blue
The voice said "you think I'm here to deceave"
Weeping, not knowing what to think
The voice says, "I am the one you do not beleave"
Just open your heart if only for a moment
Take my hand the voice said, pulling with all his might
Leaving my lifeless body lying there so cold
Hearing the voice say, " I am the man of the night"
Still feeling as if I'm being deceaved
The voice saying come here take a look and see
Doing what the voice tells me to do
Moving closer seeing myself bleed
Oh dear God please send me an angel
Before the voice has noticed, please grab my hands
Pulling me back for that evil light
Keeping me safe just like one of your lambs
Praying for forgiveness, what I have done is evil
Hearing the voice saying you think you have won
Feeling my body become whole again
The voice said, "I will be back, I know that you are not done!"
02:53 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 962
My guardian angel above
Came to me like a dove
Putting her hand on my shoulder
Guiding me as I grow older
As a young woman, I had no cares
Doing silly things all was dares
Now a middle aged woman, I start to see
All of the dangers and harm I would cause to me
An old woman that has grown so wise
Standing outside staring at the skys
Once again feeling my angel's hand
Taking me to that special land
02:44 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 965
When I cry
The tears burn in my eye
When I cry
Lets you know when I am sad
Or maybe even when I am mad
When I cry
It hurts my heart so
Just because people know
When I cry
I just want to be alone
Not speaking, let me be on my own
When I cry
Down my face the tear will roll
Seeing everything black, black as coal
When I cry
Why do my tears sting so bad
Does it not matter if I am angry or sad
When I cry
Why is there so much pain
Does it matter if other sit and blame
When I cry
Why do I choose to isolate
Does it matter that there is so much hate
When I cry
Why do my tears come so fast
It all should matter thats why I ask
When I cry
The tears burn in my eye!!!
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LadyDarkRayne
04:46 Jun 04 2008
You write so beautifully !