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Or 12:01 to be exact. Another day another dollar. Not in my pocket of course, bills to pay, someone else's bank account to line. So why do I bother you ask? Because 'tis the way of the world. If you wanna play, you gotta pay.



Work, school, work, school, welcome to my world. And homework, at my age!? Somedays I think I must be insane, but then you get letters like the one I got today. Proof that someone is paying attention to all of your hard work. I've been invited to join the National Honor Society at my college. HOORAY FOR ME!!!! I'm so proud. I've worked so hard and I'm not done yet. It will all pay off in the end, and really, it's only temporary insanity...

Am I sad because it's raining or is it raining because I'm sad?



I have no use for rain storms that do not involve thunder and lightning. There is no excitement to them. Tonight I need some excitement, something to bring me above this mood. A moment out of the doldrums this rain has produced.



Maybe it's not the rain, maybe it's just life catching up to me. I never seem to have a moments peace anymore. I'm feeling overwhelmed by work and school. Maybe I've taken on to much this time. Then again my perfectionism isn't helping. But really I think it's the rain. It makes me sad, it makes me ponder the dreary and depressing.



Rain, rain, go away. Come again some other day....



Fm

How the hell do I walk away? How do I allow myself to get on the damn plane home? I cried silently into his chest last night. With every sounding of the alarm this morning I wanted to scream, Please, please just give us a little more time.



Time and space are not on our side, then again maybe they are. The timing was right, we're finally ready. The distance, damn the distance, the distance is pure hell, but the distance forces communication. The distance forces us to face who and what we truly are. The distance demands the truth. The distance is killing me. I want to fall asleep in his arms every night, I want to wake to his kisses every morn. Is this to much to ask? Please Lady, please, I need this man...



Fm

So it's 1 am once again and here I am awake, alert, and finally sitting next to the man I love. It's only for a short time as we have lives to return to after Tues. So here is the difficult question, is going home going to make this harder or does the visit make it easier?