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alone with my thoughts and they haunt me

making no sence reminding me of ever horrid detail

alone with my thoughts and they wont be ignored this time

too deep for that too late for that

reliefe is no where but was it ever there in the first place

alone with my thoughts and i cant hide from them

cant run from there

theyre always there

my inner reminder of every horrid detail

no solution no way to get ride of them

but i still cant face them

and most of all not all together at once

but they dont separate

they dont come one at a time

more like an oceon trying to sqeeze itself and make itself rush forward together all at once

alone with my thoughts and i have no idea what to do with them

or even how to deal with them

alone with my thoughts and im afraid

not yet ready to face them

to great a horror to remember

alone with my thoughts and

remembering every horrid detail

cant face it and cant ignore it

ignorance dosent work any more

time to think things over again

to start all over from square one

have more fun this time

enjoy life for once or at least make the best effort to do so

no more taking bull shit from the rest

time to redo everithing

change for the better

make things right for myself for once

ive thought of the rest now time to think for myself

may not be all of me but at least another part of me thats finally found or lost which ever maybe

thinking things over again and hopefully i get them right this time

isnt life supposed to be enjoyed???

maybe it is

who knows now a days

but ill make an effort to try

hopefully i can keep my own word this time

need to stop breaking my own promises for what others need of me

time to do things for myself instead of what they need it to be

dont want to be a matine or a thing

need to stop the abuse

time to rethink things over and start all over

no more

time to change all of me........