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My mind, thoughts, words endlessly running through my head,

I read poetry and books wishing these were words I have said.

Disappointed in myself, in them, and everyone else

I wish now only to close my mind and lose myself,

lose myself in false realities, made up worlds, people and even me.

Just to close my eyes and go to a place where I can be free.

Leaving behind unkept promises, false hopes, and failing dreams.

Going to places where adventure awaits and nothing is as it seems.

Closing my eyes running away from life,

running away from the world and all its strife.

Willing weakness comes and I do not pretend to fight.

It, I embrace cloaking me like a blanket of the darkest night.

Blind to the world around me,

unwilling to open my eyes not even for a second to see,

to see that my weakness left me an outcast

to a world I never thought would last.

Continueing just for spite,

leaving me behind in the darkest night.

Closed away from the outside.

wrapped in darkness my only place to hide.

I do not want to see the world I left behind.

To much afraid of what I might find.

Willing weakness I do desire.

Courage, strength, and daring leaves me like a burned out fire.

Giving up leaving every thing behind.

I'm gone, lost, left in to nothing, completely out of my mind.