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seen my ex and he was checking me out cause i'm holding my neice then when i look up. I see him just staring at me. He is just a mess now after me. this april 15 is our two year break up. Wow it has been two years since he dumped me. wow i am going to feel like shit on that day. no i will do the complete opposite. he thinks i will be morning the day but i will be rejoicing that day so in your face james. i read some sick shit about my crush and if it is true then i doubt i will hook up with him.

well i am trying to keep my stress under control cause i need to learn self-control. I am not sure if charlie had "taken care" of the problem. I think he has another chick on his mind. Well i guess that my respect and love isn't enogh for him. So that will be his lost if he pushes me away. I have been thinking about my ex and part of me still wants to be with that poor bastard. I guess i still see the person he can become. He can do a lot better than his lastest whoe. I feel like he is trying to check me out everytime when i am around him. is that a bad thing when i am thinking about my ex?

well i made a tough choice but i am very proud of myself. that guy i was trying to hook up with was adding extra pressure on with the pressure i had already so i told him that we will take less than four months to get our shit together and if we still wanna be together when that time is up and if we still wanna date than it is on but for now it is questionable.

men are so confusing cause they want to be friends but the first time you say no about something then are totally againest you. I seen that people that has a past together can hardly be friends after the relationship is over. I have been struggling to gain a friendship back with my ex but his bitch is standing in way way. my ex will galnce at me in some weird ways cause he has seen that i have changed for the better and he isn't with me. This new guy that i want ot date has an advantage. i knew him for over a year as friends but now he tells me he thinks he loves me but yet he is pushing me to get a car, job and my own place while trying to graduate highschool without trying to kill someone in the process. I am not superwoman! i am a woman with very special needs and wants that are not being fullfilled. I gave up over a year of my life trying to keep my ex pleased but now it is my turn to be pleased. I am now sitting back and enjoying life. This guy wants me to fight for him but honestly what is there to fight for? I don't see him the same way like i use to. He has changed and so have I. He tells me that i am not ready for a serios relationship but with all the shit i went through with james but he still tells me that i am not ready. i think he is afriad that he meet his match in me. I would of never pictued me and him together but wierder things has happened through out history.

my baby wrote me back from jail. he gets out today but i won't be able to see him till tomorrow cause of this stupid school. i'm feeling a little under the weather. i went up to bed with a minor headache but woke up with a major one. i was about to climb right back into bed but i thought about charlie. If i don't go to school then i don't get to see charlie. I just got butterflies because i read the letter he sent me cause i read what he wrote and let just say he brought the feelings that i thought i would never feel again.

well i just had enough of my school. people at school think they got me in check but if they keepo this shit up then i'm gonna check them. i was in art class and we was doing a project and i needed the tape but this stupid jock tried to make himself look all tough by telling me that he better get it back and when i did give it back to him, he got offended cause i had an attitude look on my face. just because he thinks i'm quiet doesn't mean that i have no attitude. i just about had it with that lameass school. I am going to finish this school year out by not graduating with my ex-bestfriend. i hate her so much. She steals my boyfriend then thinks me and her are still cool. i don't think so

my life couldn't more boring........ well i have no car,job or friends near by. I also have a friend in jail till the 17th or 18th so my life sucks

it is so funny that choice you made a long time ago can come and bite you right in the azz cause mine did. it is amazing what i think about when i can't sleep. I guess i made a lot of stupid choices but not a lot of never haunted me so much as my choice in my love life. i was thinking how i would of been friends with james first then slowly started to date him then maybe we would be together still but maybe he isn't my soulmate but then who is? I still want the best for him in life. is that a bad thing? I feel really confused about my love life cause people had toyed with my emotions way too much. I want to just get sneak peak into my future but i know that isn't right but nobody said wishing can hurt anyone. i guess when it comes to love i am sucker waiting to be played.