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A friend of mine gave me the nick name of Kagami. Which means Mirror. Because my friend and I are so much alike and are going through the same things.



And another name I give my self, that I don't really use much, but will start using is.



Rain Moon Rose.



All the other nick names I have I do not share.

Things that I draw. When most people see them they think that my personality is very dark. I know its dark, just not in the way they think it is.



For example the latest one. I drew a picture where there are the gates of heaven, hell, and then our world earth between the two. Even though purgatory is between heaven and hell. I know that my grandfather who committed suicide, is still here. You would think hes in purgatory. But he is still with us. So I think that they just are on some what of a different plane. But they are still here.

So my point is. We are between heaven and hell.



Hell for war, violence, ect.



So when someone saw the picture I drew. The thought I was suicidal. And no I'm not. Just if you think about it, you can understand the meaning.



What do you think?



I'll post the picture another time. So you all can see what I mean.



The topic of it is interesting. You just have to think about it.



You don't have to believe or understand what I say. But just I hope you kind of get the idea.

Family means the world to me. They are the ones that are always there for me. They always have, and always will. Even though we all have our differences. We all love each other no matter what. Well that is unless something really major happened.



And I do know that when the person I know I'm meant to be with walks into my life. They will be welcome into my family. And they are a part of me like how my family is.



No one can replace a family member, its just not the same. No one can replace my mother. She is the one who birthed me, raised me, helped me when I needed her. Shes been there for me always and always will. If anything were to ever happen to her before I'm out on my own.. I would fall apart. She is preparing me for life. And I'm not to the point yet to where I would survive on my own.



I would fall apart completely if I ever lost my sister. Even though we may fight and bitch at each other. We love each other and are always there for one another. She is soon getting to do what she wants to and I'm very proud of her. She is going to make it far in life and into what she wants to do. I couldn't as for a better sister. No one can replace her.



I know there are others out there that would be lost like me if I lost someone who I just couldn't live with out. Its like I would never recover.



But at some point in time I would. It just would take a long time.

I have a friend who tells me there is someone in my school that likes me.



I tell her who ever it is I'm not interested.



But then she doesn't quite understand why. Well I have told her my story already.



She any many other people think its ridiculous that I'm not looking for anyone, or letting any one come into my life at this moment.



But they don't seem to understand, when I say I'm not interested, because I know they are not the one I'm meant to be with. Because God has already told me who I'm meant to be with. And besides that, no guy has caught my attention at all, I don't feel anything towards any other guy. I don't even flirt with other guys.



And you may ask me, why?



Its because I'm waiting for what God has in stored for me. And I'm not going to be in a relationship with anyone else. Because they are not the one.



You may ask, why don't you just give them a chance?



Its because I don't want to break anyone's heart. Because I know who is for me, and when the time comes that him and I meet. It would hurt the person I just gave a chance to, and there is no use in using someone, or being fake to them.



And I'm actually tired of explaining my story. Because people start to think I'm obsessed or that I'm crazy. So I don't talk about it with other people any more. I only share it with those who are worth telling.



Because there are many people in this world that will use you just to get a secret from you. And I'm not going to be used anymore. I have been used enough.



And guys on here and any where continue to hit on me, call me cir ten names and try and flirt with me. And I tell them no, back off, I'm not interested.



And they don't listen. They are so desperate that they have to keep going, and just piss me off even more. And I have had enough with the pervs on here.



And the majority of the pervs on here that are trying to talk to me, are old enough to be my parents. Or are older than me.



Plus I'm not looking for any relationship at the time.



I'm not going to waste my time on someone who I don't love or care for.



Even as mean as that sounds.



Starting soon, any guy that is a perv to me or makes even one mistake or slips. Hes getting blocked, reported, and reported to the law.



Because you guys as so Fiken sick its not funny.



I'm to much of a better person, that you have no chance with. So just leave me alone.





I'm tired of all of this drama.



I don't have time for you pervs and you shit.

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mistynight
02:00 Apr 21 2010

i know what you mean by the pervs that just a fling and that's it' but I'm sure in time the right love of your life will come into your life i was always told don't be like a ostrich with my head stuck in the sand

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Why? It seems that it is either based off how I dress, or something I said in the past.

This girl who is in my class comes up to me, and asks can you read my hand.. I said no.. But right now I remember.. Some how the kids in my class found out I'm psychic. I'm not scared that they know. It just they come up to me and ask me questions.

After he asking about reading her palm, I said idk how to do that yet. So sorry I can't.

Mind you I was in the middle of doing class work..

And then she ask me, do you do voodoo. And I said no.. And then she asks me if I do witchcraft. And I said no..

So she asks me to you know anything about that stuff. And I said yea, but I don't want to talk about it..





I don't regret what I have done in the past.. I still sometimes miss it.. But its not for me..

And plus the first time I tried for a period of time.. Some evil spirits came into my house and tormented my mom.

So I stoped immediatily. Because I will not let anything hurt my mom..

So almost half a year later.. I pick it back up again..

Knowing more about it, so I know how to keep that stuff out.



But the things I was doing were not the bad. Side..

I know that there is a bad side to it.. But I didn't do that. I was just doing the good..

Well I was just begining to learn. But my powers were strong.

I think it was more of my psychic ability...



But I wasn't sure exactly what I was practicing.. It was either Wicca, or Paganism.. I was stuck in the middle...



So I'm never telling that girl, espectially that girl, what I have tried. Because that would get me in huge trouble at school.. And I'm a good student.

So that would be really bad for me.



But I have nothing wrong with the craft.. I just don't really like the bad side of it.





But I don't think I should tell them anything.

They are not meant to know..



What do you think?





Sorry for the bad spelling. A little pissed off about something else.

Hello to my friends, and members of the coven I am in, and the CM...





I'm going to be in and out. School started back again today. And I have projects that start tomorrow. So I have no clue when I will be able to get back on. If I get a chance. It may not be for long.



I may get on later tonight. But idk...



I will in my free time when I'm not on here..

I will be writing poetry.



But even though I'm busy on here. I will even be more busy with stuff in real life.



I will get back to all of you as soon as I can.



Hope you all understand.



Thanks to all.

Have you ever gotten the feeling all of the sudden.. That you wanted to bite someone, and make them bleed?



Not in a sexual way.. But something different..



I don't know that's how I feel right now..



Its strange....

Karma is like a friend to me. The reason I say, is I have learned from Karma. Karma has come back bad on me before. And now Karma comes back to me good. Because I changed the bad things I used to do. And now from the good that I do. It comes back to me good.



And from the other night. A situation with someone controlling my friend, turning them against me. Even though my friend still wanted to be my friend. What they did was bad. The person who was doing the controlling. Was very insulting. And out of the things she said and did.



I can't wait for Karma to come back to her from the bad she did to me.



Because the things she said to me.. If it was someone else who had some problems... She would have caused them to commit suicide. And there are ways that the person could save her name and the conversation, and she would be held responsible for what she did.



And she said that's not true. Because her dad is a cop. So she thinks she's big and bad because her dad is a cop.



I have relatives who are cops, and who deal with worse situations that what they deal with where she lives.



So Karma is going to bite her in the ass.



And who was my friend, will realize that the controller, was wrong. And she will realize that I'm right.



But then the question is... If she try's to come back to me, would I let her back in?



What do you think?

I'm getting sick of the guys on here. I haven't been on in so long, last time before so long that I was on... There was a guy, asking me for personal info, hitting on me, like cybering. I was like throwing up. He is way older than me.



And now that I'm back on.. There are more guys doing that again!!!!



and the are all so much older than me!!!



I tell them to stop, I'm not interested, not looking for a relationship or stuff like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"



I already know who I'm meant to be with.

So all you pervs, sex offenders what ever you are...





LEAVE ME THE **** ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I WILL REPORT YOU TO LAW ENFORCEMENT!!!!!!!!11





I WILL NOT PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT!!!!