I'm just going to keep these here for now.
I’m bored and tired.
If you were with me now, beside me…. I would be arguing with you for no apparent reason. So be happy you’re not with me…. For now.
I’m watching the History channel. Very intriguing. It’s talking about Rome and it’s emperors and etc…
My dog, Tiger, looks like crap. He’s exhausted after a long day of doing nothing and he wants to sleep. I think he’s waiting for me to tell him it’s “Night-night.”
Just so you know, I’m writing this in Word. Then I’m going to paste it onto VR. I’m very drowsy, but I don’t want to sleep. Ever happen to you?
Let us listen to me talk about God.
I believe in God and I love him. He’s always there for me no matter where I’m at or what time it is.
I know what some of you are thinking, “Why and the hell does she believe in God? He’s a fake. No such thing! She must be a loser.” Well, you’re right about one thing; I am a loser. But that’s a different story.
Me: I was brought up to believe in God all my life. I used to go to church every single Sunday, but now I don’t.
You: Why did you stop?
Me: Well, I grew tired of getting up every Sunday morning and going to church alone.
You: Alone?
Me: Yes, alone. I went to church from Kindergarten till sixth grade and I NEVER did make any friends at church! We were different kinds of people.
You: What do you mean different?
Me: The people at church were… too snobby and caring and wanted to be the best. You know, “those” kind of people and I was the shy little girl who never spoke a word to anyone.
You: You never spoke?
Me: I did sing along with others and asked for gum, but that’s about it.
You: How strong do you believe in God?
Me: My belief in God actually changes with my mood! I’m sorry to say that, but it’s true. If I’m in a good mood, I love God with all my heart and I praise him. But if I’m in a bad mood, then I tend to curse him. Thank goodness he forgives! LOL
I believe he exists. I believe he loves everyone. I believe he’ll forgive anyone.
Some of you may think I’m foolish, and that’s true! But I chose to believe in him.
It’s MY choice to love God.
How can I describe myself? I don’t want to lie to you…
In six words, I am:
1.) Anti-Social
2.) Timid
3.) Observant
4.) Wise
5.) Honest
6.) Foolish
*Anti-Social ~How am I anti-social? Well, I think it’s because I don’t like being around too many people at once. Sometimes I want to be completely alone. I admit that there are times when I desire a friend to be at my side, but that’s only when I’m feeling very lonely. Besides, I get annoyed of others when they’re around me for too long.
*Timid ~I tend to be very shy in person or on the telephone! Sometimes the people around me can’t understand me when I speak. So I have to repeat myself at least once a day, everyday. It’s always been like this, so this could be why I try to avoid speaking in public. Of course… being timid does have its good sides. I notice that to some boys, my shyness is attractive. When I discovered this, I was somewhat flattered.
*Observant & Wise ~This could very well be a result from being timid. Since I do not talk as much as others, I tend to listen more. Of course, this makes me more wise on various things. Algebra, History, Science, etc… I’m still not a genius on these. But emotions, facial expressions, dreams, etc… I’m somewhat more insightful and I understand the people around me. I notice things more quickly then others and it kind of gets on my mothers nerves.
*Honest ~I never want to lie to anyone close to me. If I know the truth will hurt them and I know I can lie a little, I will. But only so they don’t feel so awful. Other then that, I’m honest with my friends completely. If I catch my friends in a lie, I don’t ever truly forgive them. Depending on how ghastly the lie was, I’ll always remember it.
*Foolish ~I’m a very foolish person. I tell more then needed to someone, because I don’t want to be ignored. This usually gets me into trouble with my parents. But I don’t tell secrets unless you betray me first! I tend to forgive the one person who hurts me. This is the most foolish thing I can think of. Anyway, sometimes I rather take the long way instead of the short way, because it’s easier. I’m foolish because I used to harm myself.
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