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i feel so confused and hurt and feels like no one wants me anymore or cares if i live or die i feel im better off dead feels everything i do is wrong and i cant do right at allwith anyone i found myself going back to not sleeping well again and being up till like 3 or am like now its 2:50am im surrounded by my thought and feelings like my ex nikki she messed my round so bad mentally and emotionally and i been trying to fing answers in my head and friends but the things with nikki i want to talk to her and get answers but wont talk or text or anything when i need them to put my mind to rest and stop some of this pain but feels like getting worse and im going to be alone forever and hurt i feel like cutting my wrists and ending it all its not like anyone would really care or be botherd well thats how it feels now and the past keeps hurting my future no matter what i try i just want to give up all i want is to love and be loved i mean everywhere i go everyone has someone but me work mates friends people on streets i feel im the only one alone and doomed to be forever no matter how much i try and when i do im always hurt or told im a great guy loving caring and sweet and i not done wrong yet i still get left and hurt i just want to love and be loved back and care thats all i ask but its not going to happen :o(