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To those of you that have read my profile and wondered as one had commented to me at the depth of myself that i had revealed to strangers....as I told him why not to strangers? Some times it is easiest to reveal oneself to "perfect" (and I use that word loosely) strangers they are not going to judge you, they may wonder and one or two may actually begin a conversation with you to share similar feelings and thoughts.



Back to me again though. I am not an "emo" lol I am just a bit too old for that. I am a woman that has lived in a black hole of abuse for many years and allowed it to sink myself into a pit of self pity and self hatred far too long.



i have used many things to forget and to shove the pain into small boxes in my mind. Recently i had realized that I was only hurting myself and letting my past abusers keep control of me by doing so.



I am now in the process of reaching out of my hole and scrabbling with both hands to pull myself out and regain control of my soul.



This profile was my way of starting the journey to self acceptance and self worth.



I am sure I will be putting more here some may be back sliding into self pity but hopefully more will be to putting the pieces back together again in a more constructive way.



Thanks to those of you that made the effort to say a few words of encouragement or to just say you know what I mean and how I feel.



You will always be welcome if you do stop to say hi after reading anything I have written and I will try to always have time to say hi and share whatever words you have to offer.



Well enough for now i will be adding more from time to time.

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Danpeal451
04:40 Jun 13 2010

Good luck

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