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it seems when i finally found some1 i wanna b with either i have to go or they have to i can never just b with them i just had to leave the gurl i love with my life bk in TN and it seems like she gave up she doesnt think im gonna come bk for her and she dont think were ever gonna see each other again i hate it if shes gonna give up then its gonna b harder for us to see each other again ur suppose to fight for the 1 u love how can i b the only 1 fightn if she gives up with in 30 min of me leaven idk what im gonna do i feel like im just 1 person in the world of 4.6 billion ppl probly more by now i cant do everything on my own im still just a teenager i cnt stand nothing in this world theres no justice in this world all there is is hurt and pain few ppl r lucky enough to b happy but the richest person on earth is not happy bc he probly thinks the gurl is in it for his money then theres a person like me barely have a penny to my name and yet the government dont care about us they think the link card/food stamps should b for ppl who have money like why the hell would the rich ppl need food stamps there freaking rich they want all the poor to die off so there is only ppl with money it aint alot of ppls fault were poor bc who the hell put us in debt hmmm our government dont get me wrong i love this country i just think it should be runned by the citizens of this country



But the main thing is im 1 person alone again bc the gurl i love gave up on me already

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SomethingxWicked
04:55 Aug 01 2011

Baby I havent given up on you! Your the only thing I have left, I refuse to let you go. Its just Im scared something will happen so you cant/wont want to come back to me...Its terrifying me....Your my only family now. Everyone eles will turn on me, your the only one I can trust. Ill try my hardest to help you get back as soon as possible. I love you with everything I have baby, I will never give up unless you tell me to...God I hope that never happens...And I will fight for you baby. I have so far why would I give up now? I love you baby, I wanna be with you always. Im so lucky to have you. Im yours always my love >--

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Have u ever ben like trapped in a car for a really long time like 10 12 mayb 22 hours if ya have then uk how this hoodrat feels lol bc im stuck in this god dang car for 10 to 12 hours the 22 was to florida and thats straight threw no stops unless u speed but i cnt drive yet dont got my perment or my drivers licence it sucks but id rather ride a bike or walk were ever i go it dont bother me i just hate beig stuck in a car



I went into jdc juvinal day care center well thats wat we called it but i was in there for 20 days for a good reason but heck i thought it was funny but being in there that long lets just say i wanted to climb the walls when we went outside this is the time i wish i had wings hell id fly where i wanted to that would b the shit try to not go to jail jdc or prision bc u miss out on alot

Some ppl have one cool parent and 1 strict parent that doesn't let u do nothing then u r always pissed off bc the cool parent says u can do sumting then the 1 thats strict yells at them then yells at u and thats how alot of how fights and parents brake up



Then theres that rare time where u get 2 cool parents and they love u and care about u but let u do wat u want and thats when kids take it to far and do watever they want and end up on probation or gettn introuble with the law and doin watever drugs they can get there hands on if u see dust remover and alil kid has it take it away bc if there really young it will fuck with them if u huff it i wont lie ive done dust remover and i like but i also like weed but when ur parents dont care if u do drugs then u will do watever drug u want



Then theres those times when a kid have to strict parents and they r strict cause they love u and want u to succeed in life and those kids r the ones who either still do wat they want or they r the preps in skool and get straight A+s



Then Theres when u have a single parent like ur mom who has 3 kids and works all night sleeps all day ya thats my mom ido watever i want do watever i want and do watever drug i want but the ones i dont do i stay away from ppl who do them so i dont have to have ppl keep asking me to do them plus i am tryn to get my G.E.D and tryn to find a job sayen fuck skool but i lived with my dad in wisconsin and thats when i was currupted when i was 10 years old my dad stole my money that i earned from my 1st job also my dad is a lier so i cnt stand talken to him he also does the fake crying act like he didnt do nuting and he says he killed more ppl in the marines then i could count and guess wat the war desert storm no1 died in so hes lied about that to so he can suck his own dick the boy is perverted he would have sex with gurls when i had friends over.



Well enough about my parents then theres parents that completely abuse and rape there kids so i feel sorry for those kids i wish i could give them all new parents im sorry ppl time for me to stop writen lol yall probly think i suck at writen

MY ex Devyn is a complete annoying bitch i hate her more then anything in the god forsaken world. She gave me the worse 3 months of my life it was a complete waist of my time and here is how it started



I just moved bk to Illinois from Wisconsin and i went to Central Jr high in East Peoria Illinois when i got there i looked like a complete drugy to every1 or so i was told all i did in my classes was sleep and my ex was in every single one of them but she wasn't my x at the time but in the last hour she would always sit nxt to me in study hall which was in the computer room so i sat all the way in the bk row at the last computer away from every1 else bc i didnt know no1 and for some reason she would always sit nxt to me the 3rd day of me being there she tryed to talk to me so i was like what the hell and i talked to her she seemed like a nice gurl so every day till i was there for 2 weeks we talked then she asked if she would wanna hang out at my house i was like sure idc find out she rides my bus but her mom usally pics her up but she took our bus to my house and i went out bk to smk a cig on my bk porch and she smks i was shocked bc for 1 this gurl looked like a total prep and i fucking hate preps so then were smkn a cig.



About a hour later my mom comes home and i tell her this is my friend devyn and my mom told me from the start that she looked like a gurl who would hurt me i didnt beilve her of course i was like mom shes just a friend and no my mom didnt say that infront of her then we were watchn tv in my room and she kissed me and i was like wtf and she says i really wanna date u and im like ok what the heck ill try in it but THATS WERE I MESSED UP BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



So we were daten the nxt time we went to skool aka the next fucking day o and guess wat she didnt mind to tell me that she left this kid named lucus baker and let me tell u this kid was annoying as fuck he shorter then me and littler then me and he trys to get all up in my face im like 6 foot now but when i was in eight grade i was 5'8 and he was like 4'11 ya short rite and then he tryed to get his older sis and his sis best friend to gang up on me hello i dont hit gurls so they didnt end up jumping me but then after like 1 month of us daten we had sex and she turned up to like it way to much so then shes goin to stone country and kissen guys rubing up on them and shit and then im gettn pissed off bc when i tryed todo it to gurls im not aloud so then i go pissed off and started talked alot of shit to her when i was done she tryed to get her friends that were in a so called gang to threaten me and say there gonna beat me up i just fucking laughed i didnt care i aint scared unless its risken me goin to prision so then when i finally had enough i broke up with her and never went out with her again i hate that bitch i left a big part out bc it hurts me to talk about so im not sayen but all i SAY NOW IS I GOT A GURL I LOVE WITH MY FUCKING LIFE AND WHO LOVES ME WITH HERS and her name is skylar/SomethingxWicked but now im getten forced to leave her to go bk to illinois were we both lived and went to ep highskool but she moved down here now i have to go bk i HATE LIFE

life brings u down life is hell sumtimes but when u have those days that everything is worth liven for u finally see that life aint that bad but theres always sumting that wants to ruinen those days like cops or ur exs gurlfriends run into u with there new boyfriend sayen they were better then i could have ever been and then wat happens from there controls ur mood wat ido is i laugh and walk away but sum ppl ik will get pissed or upset bc they loved the person so much that it even hurts to see them or hear there voice but when udo u also want that person bk no matter how bad they hurt u. ive gotten hurt so bad i went to the hospital wanten to kill urself but listen to this it aint worth loosen ur family or the ones u love or ur friends theres always some1 else u can go to.



But also in life u can get into trouble with the law now this is the most fun but also the most serious but if u put it in my view i love the rush the adrenaline rushen threw my veins like running from the cops or not given a fuck like drink smk weed do watever drug u want but dont get addicted addiction is wat puts u in jail and makes u lose ur family and friends and ur gurl. like i can say ive done alot of drugs but the shit i dont do is crack meth hariwin or however u spell that lol special K witch is horse tranquilizer ya some messed up shit also i never done anything that will turn my body into a zombie my sis dad looks like the walkn dead from all the drugs so use them with caution but have fun with them now bk to the cops like if u r by urself and u have ben drinking andu get pulled over go in the passenger seat and say idk where he went he was here asecond ago. ur all ready goin to jail so why not have fun with it uk lol if ur on probation like i am 4 five years or less and u dont wanna get introuble for usen drugs do acid but make sure they cant give u a spinal tap in ur state its illegal in the state of Illinois so ur fine but also i think shrums would work and dependen on the pill they stay in ur system for 2 days idk this is my life for ya idc wat happens but i can only do so much anymore



but when u r in school theres drama in there so if u wanna stay away from it dont have no friends............ nah thats no fun try to hng out with ppl u like and can trust see i can only trust certain ppl but no1 knows me on this site so i can finally talk about wat i want uk great thing about this journal stuff. Wat ido is keep ppl in groups Friends i can trust Friends who i can trust alil bit and Friends i dont tell shit and PPL i hate or wont even talk to thats just me and plus Conslers i barely trust any of them either i cant trust adults nomore really but its ight i hope u all have fun in ur life dont let no1 bring u down but also do good in skool and if u read this and say wow wat a hood rat then ya im a hood rat but im damn smart and i love to party idc how i spell and type on my phn or on a computer so HOOD RAT i am ppls lol have a nice day

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jenn420girly
15:22 Jul 31 2011

This applies to the beginning about the ex gf thing I'm telling you now its cause they wanna check up on you. Means your still on her mind. LOL Idk if that's good or had but trust me that's what it means.

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i love u baby with all my heart and soul id die for u id kill for u i love with my heart idk wat ido without u love i couldnt think of a world without u i hate any1 who trys to keep of away im so glad i met u