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Margret Thaler Singer
22:42 Mar 25 2008
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If you mention that name around a cult leader they will cringe.

She has been a strong factor in the exposer of Cult activity.

Her direct no apology approach,and steady use of facts to distinguish cults by.She has taking the arguements I have had about the people that seem to be against cults yet seem to function like they are undecided or retained about accusations .Then I find out that that is in part to cult influences on publishers and even media.

A suggested read for people with questions about what exactly is a cult.

When I think about it...
20:38 Mar 24 2008
Times Read: 1,102

When it comes down to it good or bad they are our friends,I have had moments where I thought my friends would never have me back and it seemed they where cautious when I did come back but then it came to me the time they got into something out side the circle I was the same way and I had a reason to be like that I mean I have seen it from both sides now which is why I would never change the excursion from "the Path"for a easier go at things.But Damn it I will have my emotional outburst.I will expect to be told that I am milking said break down,and I will eventually laugh with friends over the same break down.

Breaking this Mental Blah
00:43 Mar 21 2008
Times Read: 1,105

As the draft of distinction settles around me nudging my toward resuming my routine expectations for the priviliage to exist in society as a productive member.would it be so much to expect a standard reintroduction after an extended sabatical?I slug my path once again as these knees tremble intermitedly followed by nausea,both I am sure are notional.In a wave of nonphenomenal activity I will find my "motivation" to return to the "Grind"....until then well I have my pen and paper.

I Can Be A Crutch
04:28 Mar 19 2008
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I will walk with a person until they are healed enough to walk on their own.I will not stock more tissue then a person can use past a comfortable grieving period.



If your pain is precious to you you should carry it else where.I will only help you catagorize it...and then move on to getting over it.



If you cannot find the humor in your troubles and only create more complex situations I will laugh at you eventually for your folly is most entertaining..



If you want to fill your arms with jagged pieces of your broken life I will help you pick out a few token pieces and show you how to make them into a key chain.If you ask me to slow down because you carry the burdens of your life I will only help carry what is valueable and only if it is not soaked wet from your tears.



I find Drama to be agreeable in moderation,When I go to a theater I do not expect the actors to pass me a script I do not take a role.



If you seek help out of a hole,I will send you the rope and wait to pull you out I will not climb in with you for company.

If I was pressed to express my Pet Peeves ....
03:35 Mar 19 2008
Times Read: 1,112

If someone must be an asshole then at least be a consistant asshole.



People that lose an argument,yet persist to tell people they were right.



people that air dirty laundry when they are losing an argument.



people that get caught doing wrong and then narc out others in there "defense".



People so hung up on their new partner they associate every thing to the way their partner explained it to them,then argue it like they researched it.



people that say "Oh he's a nice guy,but he is just drunk right now."



Any body that uses their position of authority to smite someone for matters that do not involve work.

How I met a Dominatrix
02:02 Mar 18 2008
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I was making and selling custom made souvenir Pan Handling signs to make spare money.

She asked if i could make one that said" I am not worthy"I did it in taste with her air of presence in mind she intoxicated me.then she told me she would return she went across the street to Anna Copernicus's (sic)a n alternative shop/head shop in Berkley Anubis Warpus is part of the same chain.When she returned I showed her the finished product and she invited me to coffee.we went to the Mediterranean and she told me why I was on the streets (I say told me because she knew and said so that I was there by my own course.)I told here I quite three jobs, and a reserve obligation after losing the ability to enjoy the spoils of my wealth.She had me over her place to do some general landscaping that same day and I stayed the night in the same place I stayed for the seven months I was there in a enclosed porch/room.Her residents (in the Berkley Hills)A three split level house. The first week I was there I attended her tea garden and poted gardens. It was after a week that she showed me her hobby rooms. She had an exam room, a dungeon convertible rubber room,a principles office convertible to a class room and every month she would hold a swing party in the back room of the right wing of the three level house her master room being located in the rear of the center structure,with an immaculate green outside her doors .I learned through her Valet she never had and never would have sex with her clients thus the parties.She was a strict Dominatrix.Her great uncle bought screen plays during the depression so she had no financial burdens,she was everything I expected a Dominatrix to be.

I noticed the manner about her and those rare glimpses I saw into her world.She had her car,yet seldom drove it.The cars she drove i learned where loners from car dealers that where her clients.Her Valet her sister-in-law who was never more then fifteen feet from her was rescued from a pimp in The Tenderloin after her husband (Mistress Jacqueline's brother)

died of MS she was addicted to his pain meds and switched to heroin shortly after his death.She swore her life to her Sister -in-law.



For the parties I would be dropped at a hotel in town with a list of supplies among which where Xtc pills,marijuana,and occasionally LSD or mushrooms.My duties at her residents where to clean and condition leather,maintain Latex apparel,as well as various other customs and accessories.I found the time I spent in her exam room to be the most interesting (I am am a medical certified custodian).



One client she shared with me about was a Cuban Man in his sixties,an affiliated man very wealthy(I learned that her clients payed in 401 k's to be regulars)he would cut the "putting green"outside her bed room door with small craft scissors .every once in a while she would come out in a teachers outfit and stand over him...this I was told had to do with the fact that in Cuba it was not uncommon for pupils to be punished in this manner and it was also custom for the student to fantasize about looking up the teachers dress.

A client that did her party dishes....

a client that washed her cars...



It was Mistress J.That taught me the difference between a fetish queen and a Dominatrix,as a present she set me up with a submissive...I still feel I was less then satisfactory to her...I have never been a dominate personality...fetish yes dom. no.



After six months I got wander lust back in my blood, when I told her i was moving on I was shocked by her reply.

"You are the first Lackey I have had that I did not have to chase off."I asked her if I was to use a different name and shade some info...if i could write about her in the future.I was told I could,I write with shade about this Remarkable person.Last I heard she is involved in the Power Exchange,as well as the Other World Kingdom...I have a hunch she could have "minions"on this site...or is that just wishful thinking.

I was intrested in Gothic Fashion before I knew what goth was
22:56 Mar 16 2008
Times Read: 1,140

Penthouse Mag. was my first peek at gothic fashion,also the first time I noticed the fashion in a skin mag. I became hook on what was I believe refered to as victorian era fashion.I began to look all over for the type of people(ladies) that dressed like that,I found in my community collage Punks,and MetalHead girls and though it did not have the appeal to me as VEF had I figured that being in the scene would eventually produce an option to meet a lady so fashionable.



My first real contact came when I met a Mistress in Berkley,Ca While on a nomadic sabatical.She walked up to me dressed(I say dressed as in she had a valet to dress her)

in contempary retro fashion gothic attire,her make-up was fit to a line and shade she outclassed even the collage building behind her.I worked for her for 7 months conditioning gear and her various offices, and I learned about the S&M lifestyle as well,but I learned very little about goth and goth related lifestyles,I wanted to by this point assure myself some study so that I could understand more then just the fashion of what I had just learned was goth,

yet with the lack of venue in the Bat area at the time and the

distraction I had from being a "metal Head among metal heads it is not a good idea to mention such curious interest...I set my quest on a back burner....until I found Vampire Rave.