Paranoid
Delusion and confusion, it's got to be all in my head,
The feelings I feel and the places that I dread.
Like the wheels on a bus, my mind goes round and round.
As if I belong to a circus, I feel like a clown.
People always say that it's got to be dope.
My family and friends have all given up hope.
There are times when I felt this way, young, before my teens.
When I knew that things were not always as they seem.
In the back of my mind I saw massive collisions.
People were getting killed and sent to prison in my visions.
They all think I am crazy when I tell them it will come true.
I try to keep my mouth shut, but what am I supposed to do.
Stand there and watch as loved ones stumble into a trap?
Or make them stand there and listen and understand what they call "CRAP"?
At least if warned, they can make the decision on their own.
Maybe they won't go down that dark alley all alone.
It's more than subtle feelings, Its more like premonitions.
Always coming true unless they change their decisions.
All the docters and medications never made these go away.
Not even a street pharmacist can make it slow down or delay.
I've come to the conclusion that maybe its a blessing and not a curse.
To warn the people that I love before they are brutally hurt.
Paranoid, maybe so, but you would be too! OK!
If you knew something would happen but you did'nt know what time or what day.
The only thing you know is that you feel it will happen soon.
And it would be in the park as soon as darkness ignites the moon.
Now ask yourself , would you be there any day at any time?
If you saw that same blood curling vision in your mind.
Call me what you want, go ahead and say I'm paranoid.
But it's the park in the dark that I will still avoid.
Written by Cookieeverhart 2009
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