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its not when i look back in all the memories, and good times we had that makes me sad, its when you consider those memories as nothing to, when they ment everything to me.

Time passes as I watch you walk away,

The tears start to express what i cannot say,

You have turned your back to me forever,

I cannot bear to live again, never.

Emptiness and darkness

envelope me from everywhere,

Loneliness and regret consume me,

I'm unable to share,

I'm alive and I'm still breathing,

And yet, my heart seems to have

stopped beating.

Your betrayal to our love I will never forget,

I start to wish if we had never met,

The affection and care

u showed me all gone,

What choice do i have,

but to sit back and mourn?

I'm sick and tired of being alone,

My dreams are all battered and torn,

My trust, my faith seems

so meaningless now,

I'm unable to take this pain anymore.

Yet my heart tells me to forgive,

To let go of the past, to let the love live,

But a broken heart cannot think any good,

It's probably reacting just the way it should.

My thoughts tell you'll come back to me,

You'll beg for my love,

beg for a chance to see,

How you can make up for all u have done,

How you can change

all those lies to nothing, just fun.

And now, as I turn away from you,

I wish that I haden't been so true,

My love has been vanquished,

my life destroyed,

It hurts to know how

I've been played with and toyed.

I carry my broken heart with me,

It's mending, I'll never get to see,

Looking back at you,

I will try to refrain,

You might have bewitched me,

I'm not falling for it ever again.

Wishing you would look at me the way you look at her,

is only my dream,

one that will never come true.

Hoping you will remember me is my only prayer every night.

Wishing we could go back to the grade when you would remember...

Because I remember,

My heart beating fast every time I saw you.

Wishing we would soon be the only two people left hoping you could find it in you to want me the way I have ALWAYS wanted you.

Wishing you were sitting here next to me and could give me a shoulder to cry on,

as I wipe away my tears,

and like you usually would.

Wishing is one thing but KNOWING I will never have you as another memory

HURTS!

Baby i guess it was never meant to be,

i miss what we used to be,

but baby can't you see that i'm dying,

i've spent all of my lonely nights crying,

making myself believe it's not true,

and end up waking in the morning without you,

my heart seems to shatter every time i hear your voice,

reminding me of what we had, and your stupid choice,

i wish i had never made that stupid decision,

the one that changed my life forever,

i wish i could still make you see,

how much you meant to me,

it's too late for me to say i love you,

you've already moved on,

i was just an innocent girl looking for love,

you were just a boy looking for a sign,

to go back to what you had before,

and i was what made you realize,

that you needed her more.

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BambiVamp
17:13 Apr 10 2010

This is beautiful, and straight from the heart.

xx

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GoddessAkasha
19:59 Apr 10 2010

wow beautiful :)

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brileybeauford666
22:27 Apr 14 2010

You're wrong, your words are all right.

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blooodyvampire0987
00:43 Oct 31 2010

haha thx :D

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My time is slowly running out

My end is now drawing near

My last breath is approaching

And i'm filled with nothing but fear

The portraits from my dark past

Are impossible to erase

And the deepest of them all

Is your picture perfect face

Soon whats left of me shall be gone

I'll be removed from this place

You know i'll just fade away

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BambiVamp
17:14 Apr 10 2010

this is lovely. Kinda makes me think about when i lost my mom & dad xxx

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GoddessAkasha
19:59 Apr 10 2010

I feel that way alot ....

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brileybeauford666
22:28 Apr 14 2010

This one touches me for reasons I can't convey....

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im trying not to love you

im trying not to care

im trying not to live my life

wishing you were there

im trying not to wonder

where you are or what

you do. im sorry i cant

help myself



i fell in love

with you

Funny when things never change

Even when they say they will

But while your off asking her

My life is standing still



You tell me that you love me

When i go to leave

You tell me i'm your only one

And i let myself believe



I know that you are using me

But you'll never let me go

I know that you don't love me

I know i'm just for show



I don't know if i can stand

To see you love another girl

You know you broke my heart

You know that your my world



But while your standing by my side

I'll believe your lies forever

Cause everything seems so perfect

When we are together

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emosfell34
02:23 Apr 12 2010

how true must this be for many couples... i even had such a situation... :'/

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brileybeauford666
22:29 Apr 14 2010

sad....

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I look out the window and what do i see?

Except for a better version of me?

He did the right where i did the wrong

So, i'm the one that wrote this song

I'm here soaking up regret in the air

You died thinking i never did care

I wish i would've made the right choices

Now it's to late, but i hear the voices

Saying all i should've said

I never knew you would end up dead

If i could have one last moment with you

I would die to let you know i love you too

The three seconds it would have took to make that call

To show how much i cared after all

So if you were here what would you ask of me

I just want to know what you would want me to be

If you were here would you be proud?

But now you're lost in the grim reapers shroud

You were the one that taught me right

And you were stole away in the middle of the night

Now i lay in bed

With thoughts of you in my head

Why didnt i say that four letter word?

If only you hadn't died before you heard

I was so wrong and now i see

You only wanted the best for me

So as i lay here seeing you now

I only wish i could tell you somehow

That even though the call you awaited never came

I did and do love you all the same

And now i only wish i could have seen the light

As i look out the window on this fatefull night

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GoddessAkasha
20:00 Apr 10 2010

beautiful you are an extraordinary writer

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brileybeauford666
22:31 Apr 14 2010

I really love this one......

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