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if this is love why does it hurt so bad?

if this is love why have i lost the only love i ever had?

if this is love why does it have to be this way?

if this is love why do i sleep alone at night

if this is love why is it him your holding tight?

if this is love why is it tearing up my heart?

if this is love then your love was never true



if this is love then why do i lie here and cry

if this is love then i have to say goodbye

all these memories i cannot hide

please i need someone in whom i can confide

my loves, my hates,my dreams my hopes

i need someone to help me cope



no one understands what i have been through this pain i hide is really true. they don't see what i'm really like inside the scared little boy seems easy to hide.



scared of dying, scared of being alone which is why i'm writing this peom so someone can see that i'm not all right. i wake up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night when it is too dark to see the scared little boy inside of me

i loved her all i could but it only made me sore

i spent all my time wtih her but it only hurt me more

i'll never understand and i'll always question why but what i really want to do is lay down and die

today i found a new place to dwell a place filled with loneliness and hell it's dark and cold where i am...i search at night trying to hold your hand...but i awake to find yore gone far away and i realize its been yet another day waking up has been an everyday chore i don't want to live like this anymore. everyone i ever loved is gone away still i wake up each and everyday and praying each night i wont awake aking the devil my soul to take

these are just some of the thughts running through tmy mind i hope they 'll pass all in due time.