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The nights were cold before you came along

I would crawl into bed, cold and scared

And then you entered my soul

Became a part of my essence

Now you hold me every night in your arms

Where I am safe and warm

Where my fears fade away and I feel your love

I feel your heart beat and wait for sleep to overcome you

For once you are asleep, and I hear your breathing

I am content, and sleep enters my body as well

I love you baby, I do.

There is change in the air tonight

A density that weighs on my shoulders

A weight that I cannot bear any longer

I crave a resolution to this pain

One that does not leave me tattered and broken

An eternal peace that is long overdue

My soul prepares for your response

Words that may cut like shattered glass

Or words that could breathe me life

Your silence speaks a million words

Answers my questions with absolution

And my heart is in a thousand pieces

Fuck you too. Asshole.

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emothicfreak24
19:49 Mar 31 2009

i like this one.... i can relate to it.

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The emotional scars have run too deep tonight

My body is slowly dying

I lay here as my blood pours out around me

I think of you, of the things that have happened

How you drove me to this point

All your hurtful words, your actions, and the pain

My breathing is fading fast

I close my eyes for a moment, attempting to see your face

You once had love for me but that has run cold

Much like my blood that hits the floor runs cold

Goodbye cruel world, I will not miss thee

Goodbye self-involved mankind

Remember, this is your fault my love.

My mind screams out to you

calling you by name everyday

My body aches for you, remembers how you taste

My eyes close and memories flood in

hotel rooms, cars, our apartment

All constant reminders of what was

My eyes open and there are tears

For once what was shall never be again

The demons inside you caused you to change

While I just keep dreaming that you come back

I miss you baby.

Love is supposed to be a beautiful thing

Filled with emotions and doves and bliss

But I do not have a love like this.

Its dark and dreary and cold

When I cry, when I shiver, when I scream

You are not there to wipe the tears, make me

warm, or calm the cries.

You are here in the same apartment I am

But my pleas go unheard and tainted

The razor has become my love and companion

The cuts and the blood are my solace and sanity

For the only way the pain in my heart subsides

Is to inflict it on other parts of my anatomy

As the water truns over the wounds, washing

away the blood

it is a purification of my soul and the hurt is gone

Only to have you replace it with more filth.

I shall never be clean.

I will forever be unpure.

The tears enter my eyes

As I sit and think of you

Memories flood in and out like the waves

A time when you held me close

And times when you were far away

I dangle the chain that you gave me in my hand

The necklace I refuse to take off

I listen to the voicemails of times past

And pour tears out for each one of them

Letting you go could only do me harm

Having you let me go would only bring disaster

And so I have no way out, for I am trapped

Trapped in a love that consumes my soul

Engulfed by being in love, with no alternate route

The fire that started to burn when we first got together burns there still

My body aches for you just as it always has

Your touch, your eyes, your smell

All bring fire to my eyes

Ryan my love, my sirament, my savior

Where are you? Come back to me.

I try every liquid imaginable tonight



Try to quench the feeling of needing to drink



The water does not quench it like it used to



Something in me has awakened and I like it



But I feel weak, too weak to have the lights on



Too weak to breath or do anything but sit here



The thirst is taking over and theres a smile on my face



I feel blood coarsing through my neighbors veins



Can't feed, can't be that cruel



So here alone in the dark I sit



Smelling and feeling the blood in this complex



Allowing myself to suffer for it beats the alternative



For if I feed tonight I will not be able to stop



The animal in me craves the carnage



I can feel others of my kind tonight.



Something has definately changed.



Another ascension, another level complete



Im so thirsty, almost more then I can bare.

My body shivers and I am so cold



The blanket around me brings no warmth



For my soul is as cold as the outside



I search deep for something inside of me



Where did I go, where can she be?



She's lost in the heartache that hes created



That he keeps creating by actions and words



Hes cold to the core, he seems not to care



Can I bring her back, have her survive like this?



One more incident and I fear she is lost



When she is gone, what shall remain?



Blackness, an empty shell, a body without a soul?



Need to find her, catch her, remind her to breath



I call her name, try to catch her



But she runs and hides because the pain is too much for her to bare



Help me save her please?

The air that fills your lungs and allows you to speak



Some days I just wish that air would cease to be



For I know that the words you are to say



Will only bring hurt to my heart and pierce my soul



Do you not have sympathy on others?



You claim you are different from other guys



But the more you talk the less I see that



The more I believe you are just like the last



Id love to scream out my agony at you



To bleed from ever pore just to beg you



No more please, I love you.



Please baby, show some mercy

My soul is like a cavern; many caves and holes to venture through.



Some days it shine like the sun and otherss its as dark as the starry night.



Its weeps for the changes that have occurred, it laughs at the future.



And it yearns to be free from the monstrocities around it.



I want to be free, be alive and fly through the air like the Eagle.



To embrace the wind in my face and to soar through the sky.



If only to enter the city to feed and see the people.



To see the people who flock around like lemmings.



And to rejoice in their ignorace.



Oh if only to be free for just a moment.

My soul is like a blank canvas today



Trying to decide what color to use



Red looks the most appealing but the orange calls my name



What do these colors represent?



People, emotions, words, or just colors?



Whatever they resemble I do not care.



I just want the white to recede.



Tired of being trapped in this hospital today.



So I splatter the orange like a child would.



A day well spent.