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She dreams every night.a tear drop that she shead from her brown hues.knowing a feature son lays ahead of her.will never be born.but nothing but a meer memory to her.the saddness of being able to feel and hear his laughter.her heart aches and sores.she dreams to be able to see him.blond hair.blue hues.tiny freckels.pink rosey cheeks.the hyehm of his voice echos through out her ears.



Only made the pain worse.seeing him playing she runs around with him in a wide open feild.hide and seek they play.tickel him she is happy and whole.not wanting to ever awaken.she feels his soul within hers.when awake.she sense his present around lingering.watching and protecting.knowing he will never be she is heart broken.a life she will never have as she hides the heartache and pain.knowing she comes in second to last place.she feels his pain.the pain of wanting to be born.he's and angel sent from above as he kept watch over...his father was dead...he died in a battle that was tragic.separating each ones souls entering a new whole world.



Her hues closes she remembers his father face before they spilt.feeling trapped and broken.as they lived departed lives they move forward from each other as it hurts he loves a other as she was with another already.



Watching what they've done,there heart still yearns for

As thunder clouds began to roll in of darkness sourronding the caslte,thunder and lighting would light up the night sky like crazy,as the waves from a far grew bigger.mother nature pissed off as hell a scream so loud that matched the crashing of thunder the wind blows at morph speed of 102.blood spots seen as she was tied to a tree branch after her disapesring act.her head bobbing like a bobo head on a car dash as her arms were nail to the tree branch.

And Angel,

He has fallen from the highest grace,

He left faith when he needed them the most,

Out of spite of what had happend,

He couldn't forgive the Gods for his punishment,



Anger got the best of him as he locked his heart and drowned his sorrows.leaving him be angered at the world.forgetting his duty to the God he gave up hope and lost love for her.never knowing what's it like to see her.touch her hold her.he forgets her as she feels and notice his spirits was gone.leaving her vanuerable and unprotected.she crystal from with inside.leaving no trace she didn't know what happend.And Angel that has fallen from the highest grace.his anger got the best of him.



Hurting her,he found another as she must make the scarifeice to give him up...the love they had was tedious and close.the bound between woman and man should.



A task that was given has failed as the Gods were cruel.they were separated in a past life.finding each other again has put them in depths of heartache and loss.

the dancing fire surrounds her.the flames lit up as she stands in the middle.her arms spralde out as her hues were taken over by a great dark demon that lived within her soul.crept up along the fire walls.bending down she sat.her hues a soild black as the ivory night sky.voices sprang echo from within each others surroundings.a hyhem.sang in the dance of and old african american sang.the voice calms her as she starts to dance.every step she took the flames grew higher.the demon who possed her grew strong as she felt more alive.she span around in circels listening to the voices of the crackeling fire.her soul being over powered by the possed demon.her heart locked on with passion as the heat rises more.taking each step she made.her soul grew.grew into the high hopes of dreams locked on target.her life hechtic as it was she dances to keep her steady life a float.

My son: my son who I see in spirit but not yet born.a son with blond hair and baby blue eyes.his skin is pale white like his father.his smile I see who is like his father.I can see him clearly when I'm dreaming.or when I close my eyes I. Can hear him saying mommy.he runs towards me as I held my arms out to him.his laughter and giggels are so sweet and kind.his happyness never a frown.whenever a frown he always smiles.never sad as he lives his day.seeing him yet never knowing a little boy will never be horned.is it my son I see?where in a feild of white roses he spins as I watch him.I smile with a tear.my heart sores as I watch my son only in dreams.knowing he will never be as I only see him in my dreams.is this the future I see?is this the boy I'm suppose to have?or is this what I've been wanting a son to have.seeing him and feeling him is all I can do.but hearing him sag mommy as I close my eyes sadness comes across my face knowing it'll never be.wanting to hold him I wait till I am able to dream again.but yet a man who stand watch who likes his father.waving hello to the man he does not speak as my son only laughs and runs to me.I guess we will see when its true.but whenever or how long it will take I can only dream and feel.with this it'll only sadden me more.but seeing and feeling knowing he is waiting to be born

Spirit is lost,

Heart broken,

Tears ahead no tears,

R u happy now?

Tis broken,

Never replace,

Will never see ur face,

Never speak again,

Tears wont fall but dying on the inside,

Crying from the inside,

Screaming with pain

Drainging from sleep,

Eating without worry,

How am I suppose to move on with those words you said to me,

My heart bleeds with heartache,

How am I suppose to live with thoughts,

Thoughts of the broken sorrows,

Living everyday in pain,

Smiling through fake smiles ad fake laughs,

Unhappy and worried,

Worried hell never be,

Its all gone,

Its all done,

How could this be?

How could u be selfish,

No tears sheads,

How will this life move forward as you move on,

Tears comes at night when all is asleep,

Clinging to a pillow as the pillows drentch in tears,

This has never bother u once before,

My souls crushed,crushed forever,

Living life without u breaks my heart