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Authentic Buffalo style? Does that means you dress like a Bison? I am confused here. I was unaware there was a Buffalo style...lemme know so I can watch too ;) Never can have too many recipe secrets for wings.
I'm not pregnant... I peed on the stick, it didn't give me a plus-sign.
I am weird, but Heidi, I have faught against my weight my whole life so I've done without a lot of little treats.
I don't think I've ever lost touch with the kid inside of me. In fact, I would think some people might tell me I need to cut the cord from my inner child... but I have a lot of separation anxiety...
Victorius. Got all my grocery shopping done AND managed to get to the mall and get one thing for Morri that I had been waiting on.
I refuse to go to the mall before Christmas. Absolutely refuse. Been there, done that, have the attempted murder charge ( I was acquited) on my record.
But tonight, the mall was empty. I got what I needed, saved a whole lot of green on it since it's after the holiday now, and got out in record time.
I believe she will like this. Useful, practical and I know it is something she has expressed an interest in. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that her drive tomorrow goes smoothly and uneventful.
Oh, and it has nothing to do with technology so I couldn't buy it from myself! :p
...I look back on my life and sometimes I think I missed out on something by not moving away from my family when I was younger. I was very close to joining the Navy in my first year of college. I was struggling with so many things, I didn't want "escaping" to be the reason I made such a committment.
That and I realized I had a real problem with taking orders...
...but as life spun around me at that age I just never managed to get away from family.
Weekends like this make it vividly clear to me why I did want to get away, and still need to. I mean, my parents are great and I love them, but right now I want to lock myself in my house and not see them for at least a month...
Last night I made a stir-fry on webcam. Thanks to Robin and Dave for participating - hopefully my "thrown together meal" gives you some ideas of your own.
My next show might be Sunday night. Not sure what I'll make. Maybe salmon and spinach... I'll have to see what I have for food supplies.
But right now, I'm going to enjoy some left-over stir-fry. It is delicious.
Damn, salmon is my favorite. Pinja made we blackened salmon on a bed of fettuccine Alfredo when he was here, yummy.
Hrmmm...
23:14 Dec 23 2010 Times Read: 1,285
....I had to make a notch in my belt further back from the last notch a while ago.
My belt is now suddenly too loose on that notch even.
It's a good feeling.. unfortunately I really haven't been trying to lose weight. I eat less these days and healthier... but, I don't think a significant enough change to drop significant weight.
I'm starting to worry that there might actually be something wrong...
If you think there is something wrong, you need to get it looked at. You've been eating less and healthier plus lately you have been running around to various jobs throughout the day.
I hope not. Don't end up like me with some wierd stomach ailment that the doctors can't quite figure out.
Gastritis is such a generic term.
Simple human...
16:58 Dec 23 2010 Times Read: 1,306
...there is a basic frustration with being a simple human... that being, everyone around us is one as well.
Imperfect, flawed, quirky... and we have to do our best to not only deal with our own imperfections, but all of the imperfections of those around us.
I do my best - I really do. But sometimes my imperfections get the better of me.
One of those major flaws is the uncertainty of not knowing. The gnawing curiosity of wanting to know but simply not knowing. We will never be omniscient as a species or even on an individual basis and our lives are too short and our skills too limited to ever come close...
...even in the most simple matters of the heart and home, not knowing can be the most disconcerting limitation there is.
I always do my best to placate my own fears. It's just so damn hard at times.
Oddly enough these same thoughts were and are running in my head. We can only do what is before us to do in that moment to do. We can't control either the past nor the future. Plan for it, yes. Learn from its passing, yes. But change it, no.
Can I do it?
23:17 Dec 22 2010 Times Read: 1,323
..it's like being behind in a race... you have to pass the car ahead of you to win, but the fnish line ends it.
It's not just about getting to the finish line fast - it's about getting there before the competition.
Can I do it? I ask myself that... virtually every minute of every day.
I'm going to make more of a habit of cooking on webcam - last night was fun. Looks like the late night shows will be more popular since Deity was the only participant, really, on the Sunday afternoon version.
I won't, however, make a habit out of accidentally leaving my webcam on all night... heh.
With a change in perspective comes so many other changes. What we will dedicate our time to, the things we want, the things we enjoy... goals, appreciations... even who we relate to and how.
Like the wind from a butterfly's wings and all that other string theory crap.
Sometimes I just have to sit back in amazement just to observe... then move on with life and wonder if that orbit was, indeed, broken... or if it will simply come back full circle again.
I mentioned it before; there are these ebbs and flows to life. An elliptical orbit around a center point of consistency.
If not consistency, at least a normal, unshakable, virtually unchangeable… something.
Sometimes the orbit takes you further from that center, but eventually, and sometimes too quickly, the ellipse is complete and you’re right back to where you started. Almost like a gravitational sling-shot – the harder you pull to escape that tug, the faster it snaps you right back into the orbit of patterns. Patterns of similar troubles, similar situations, similar feelings – and all too often, we try and solve them, to break the orbit, using the same solutions that never worked to begin with.
The problem becomes, as simple animals, we forget. Time erases or at least blurs the memory of the emotional scars. Or, we do a great job in getting past them and move on from those scars only to find we’re opening them back up without even knowing it.
Self-reflection is a good thing but it can only take you so far.
We attempt to make changes; to grab a new path, to find a new center… yet somehow we come right back to where we once were. Sometimes we try new solutions only to discover they were really the same old solutions, we just didn’t realize it.
How do we escape it?
What is the solution?
How do we grow as people, change for the better, become who we want and find happiness?
One drink at a time...lol. Kidding. This is something that I can really sink my teeth into as I've made some growth, not much mind you, but some over the last couple of years. It takes a massive effort with actionable steps that you do not deviate from one iota. Kind of like brainwashing yourself with new paradigms. It CAN happen, it just takes a massive effort and willingness to cut loose the old reality no matter its emotional cost.
Just a thought...if we end up back where we started, then is that not where we are meant to be? Do we really need to escape or is it a matter of accepting where we are at?
point taken LOL but I meant that if we do this cycle time and again and still find ourselves on 'the loop', then maybe we are destined to go no further? Thats not to say of course that we shouldnt strive to progress, to make changes or gain understanding.
Planning on a midnight reconnoiter to the lakes for a shoot of the rare New York nocturnal polka-dotted panda? :)
Good friends...
03:31 Dec 17 2010 Times Read: 1,442
...I enjoy the surprise of seeing my good friend BB rumaging through my old journal entries and leaving the random, but heartfelt comment here, there and anywhere she pleases.
It's almost like an Easter Egg hunt in my journal to find them sometimes. Those darn links only give you a page... sometimes, there are a lot of entries on a page...
...non stop days this week. Tomorrow I will probably have to do deliveries to three customer before putting in a solid hour or two at the plant - then back to the office for paperwork and child rearing.
We just put in an order for a customer to WiFi his house - complete with a video extender to wirelessly connect his new laptop to his TV. We'll get the PS3 on the wireless so he can NetFlix from it... get the printer on the wireless... etc... etc...
...and it has to be in and power-button functional before Christmas because it is all a gift for his wife.
I need a fun install just before Christmas - I'm looking forward to it.
Good GAWD. THAT sounds like alot of work. Should make for a very satisfactory day for you.
Can't say I would be so enthusiastic about all that, but to each his own- I doubt you would enjoy slinging beer and making martinis as much as I do for 200 people for 12 hours...lol
Discoveries...
18:55 Dec 14 2010 Times Read: 1,475
...finding out if Roger is afraid of heights.
It would be strange to be a bird and be afraid of heights...
...I never believed our dreams ever really meant anything except our mind working out the matters of the day... no metaphoric symbolism, no deep inner meaning....
...for a brief second I just considered, what many might think of as a relatively insignificant event in my past.
A moment in time; an afternoon spent in leisure. A chance encounter with someone whose presence in my life would be all too fleeting... someone who took a much different path than expected by either of us. Someone who could have changed my path entirely.
But here I am... and there you are. And the lives we're living are what they are.
But for a second... just a second... the idea of a, "what if?" crossed my mind. Where would we be? Maybe you have thought the same...
I have no idea, but I have a lot to appreciate in my life right now. I know you do too. I'm not sure why my mind went there this morning.
I know the feeling, sugar. I have covered for just about everybody at work, but the one time in three years I ask someone to cover for me so I can go to my husband's Christmas party, suddenly I get every excuse in the world why they can't.
Made me feel a bit like chopped liver meself...
Time?
17:38 Dec 08 2010 Times Read: 1,590
Never enough.
I would gladly take 36 hour days, except I know somehow I would just get 8 more hours of work piled on...
No, it's a little electronic unit that sends electrical impulses through two contacts that you stick to your skin. It's designed to be used for muscle therapy. Morri's mom sent it to her to do therapy on her arm and wrist, but there is only so much therapy you can do at once.
We decided it shouldn't have so much time off from work...
Heh K, we're pretty well aware of its various uses. Hence why we specified that it was being used on his arm.
Interesting...
09:57 Dec 02 2010 Times Read: 1,717
...it was an interesting storm last night. A lot of lightning for a snow storm.
And the snow always makes the lightening seem brighter and more blue... as Morri noted last night. And there is no hum of the rain falling... it's silent. The lightning is almost unexpected. Then suddenly the silence is broken by a bright light - and an almost immediate roar of thunder.
And Morri was just commenting a bit ago that she had never seen lightning during a snow storm before... and our first two snows this year both gave us a light show as well.
Welcome to the climate anomaly that is Western New York...
Huh, I never knew it did that eother. I bet it was pretty cool to see though. Should have got some video man, I bet a bunch of people would have been wowed, myself included.
Dude, it was close. You know how they say count the seconds between the lightning and the thunder and for every five seconds it's a mile away... yadda, yadda...
...you couldn't even count to one. I wasn't about to stand out in that.
Lightning during a snowstorm? That's something I've yet to see.
That's what we've got...
02:35 Dec 02 2010 Times Read: 1,730
...leave it to people in Buffalo to ignore a cancellation due to the weather, insist we keep our meeting a go and drive through horrible weather just to sit around and talk a little shop while drinking, eating and watching Airplane!
We need to get these people to a hospital.
A hospital? What is it?
It's a big building with patients, but that's not important right now.
COMMENTS
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DarknessBound
03:05 Dec 31 2010
awww i was doing laundry and missed it =(
Deity
17:08 Dec 31 2010
Recipe or it didn't happen :p
birra
17:55 Dec 31 2010
Oh, it happened. I have eye witnesses!
Annonymous-672, please step forward!