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Through The Mirror: Rose part 3
14:57 Apr 20 2009
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Use the candy mixed with pills

knock her out,make her still

To the church upon the door

The same place at least, door unlocked

Wake the child,let her play

ignore her questions,its a fine day

For me at least,for her its bad

too young to know that she's been had.

Steel chains and leather straps

kept her in the game;a trap

Broke her jaw to procede with ease

using her "resources" as I please.

When she screamed,bitch got hit

its been so long,floor coverd in shit.

The dirty whore begged and pleaded

In her mind she thinks shes needed--

In our ugly world,its a lie

few would care if she were to die.

Take her life with a rusty blade

then into blackness we'll both fade...

S.T.A.T.I.C. : Rose part 2
14:56 Apr 20 2009
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..Reality.............

...........distorted..

..body................

..........contorted..

..hope................

............aborted..

Save her from the candy man

The sick and twisted shadow man

Monochrome: Rose part 1
14:56 Apr 20 2009
Times Read: 557




The little girl with hair of gold is tricked into the van.

"Some candy for the pretty girl?" anticed the candy man.



To the church of oak and leather.

The cheeful school girl wondered whether

this is where the angels play,

will the niceman let her stay?



Bound to the walls and floor, the pleasure is

not hers, but his.

The fun-long gone, now thats she's enlightened,

fighting,screaming;cold and frightened.



The vulgar man penetrates her pretty smile

shes gagging and bleeding all the while.

This is where the angels fear,

will thet shadowman keep her here?

Pagan Pride
14:55 Apr 20 2009
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In darkness you paint us, but we will not hide.

We're the light of the country in which you abide,

we're fearless and strong, the protectors of life

hidden in shadows, we conquer all stife.



We come from the Old Ones, our lineage secure.

We rise from the ashes, we always endure.

It's time you remembered that we were here frist.

We healed your sick, yet suffered your worst.



From time immemorial we've woven our lore

cunning folk,healers,benandanti--there's more.

We're black and we're white,we're brown and we're yellow.

We're women and children,and mighty fine fellows.



We're Her hidden children,the angels of light,

our task is to teach and to help set things right.

We conjure and cast, and whisper and pray

so you can enjoy your freedom each day.



We've long been your army,protecting your back

when you are in trouble,in secret we act.

The Mother is watching--She hasn't missed much.

She's gathered Her magick and given the touch

to Witches and Pagans and Druids and such!



The times are a'changing and on this is clear

the Lord and the Lady have now reappeared.

Two pillars,thress points,four quarters extend

five is the number of magickal blend.

By moon and by sun,by earth and by stars

realize this day that the power is ours!



Pagan pride---

Live it,breathe it, be it

Your My World
14:55 Apr 20 2009
Times Read: 559

A beautiful smile

Cute baby face

Soft and delicate

A warm embrace



A haunting past

Turns your heart

I've come to beg

To let me take part



To be the one

You think about

The one you love

and the only one

To turn me out



To change me

For the better

My appreciation

Is in this love letter



To show you

I love you

And I'm with you

cause youre you



Lips of crimson

Teeth of pearrl

Skin like slik

Eyes like a sea

After a storm...



She's my world...



Youre my world...

Both Ways
14:54 Apr 20 2009
Times Read: 560

I go both ways

I like both boys and girls

Yes its true

Why people hate

I have no clue

We are all people

No matter what you like

Love is before sex

You can't choose it

It chooses you

Man to man

Woman to woman

Man to woman

Its a great thing

Just because you like the same sex

Doesn't mean you should get

Treated differently and made fun of

If its not racism

Its gay bashes

These things are taken over our worls

More and more kids

Afraid ti be open

Are made fun of and for what?

Likeing the same sex

This needs to stop

We are all people

No matter what

We are the same

On the inside

More people care what is said

On how they live

Nobody deserves to be hates

Just for being gay,lesbian, or bi

Its not right

Lets stop the discremgration

Suicide Thoughts
14:53 Apr 20 2009
Times Read: 561

Thoughts of suicide go though my head

Not much to do for soon I'll be dead

For thoughts turn to actions

Soon actions happen

And you'll be no more.

Why should I stay?

I might as well die.

Not much to live for

Why don't I plan these thoughts in my head?

I have planned them once before

But my actions have not worked

For I am still here

To many people to tell its not because of them

Its because of one person, and I wish he were dead

He's ruined my life

Yet his is still grand.

He's made it a living hell for me

And yet I'm still here.

Why for althow be here still?

I don't know

I have tried many times before

But it seems I can't die.

The blade would be sharp, to cut though bone.

But yet it didn't break the skin

My suicide solution MIGHT help me now.

Once i make a solution to this suffering I indoored

Then I realize life MIGHT be worth while.

Thinking about loved ones

I think of my suicide solution

Suddenly they stop

Stopped at one name that should no be there

I ask myself "why is it here"

The on name that did this to me

Is the name it stops at on my list of loved ones

Why must this happen?

I hate this person, yet why on this list?

I move on past the name

Forget all about it

No on and another name pops at me

My boyfriend,why must it stop here?

I know I love him but, no the list must go on.

I do not wish to think of hurting him.

Nor anyone else but these thoughts have not gone away

Don't wish to love or hate.

Just want to be me, but its been taken.

My soul is not bright anymore but now

Is dark. Like I have no soul nor never did

Like I'm dead and never lived before.

Now yet my life has been a lie or joke.

Like no one noticed me or ever wanted me.

No one loved me nor never will

I know that

My life is coming to a end

I must say good bye to this cruel, suicidal, world and life

Poem from a friend.
14:40 Apr 20 2009
Times Read: 562

Friends. Like it or love it they are there for you.

Friends. They always know how to care for you.



They stick with you when things are bad.

They cover for you when getting bitched at by dads.



Living is so simple with friends in your life.

They will always be there, right by your side.



Gaurding your feelings twenty-four seven.

I am just that lucky that you fell from heaven.



And landed so gently right here in my life.

God damnit i wish i could make you my wife.



But because i cant, i will just have to deal.

Thats no problem, because my love for you is real.



I think about you every night.

for the rest of my life, ill have to treat you right.



In order to pay you back for everything you've done.

Ill be there whenever i can to help with your son.



He is going to be the luckiest little shit.

He will have you and me to teach him a bit.



About all the things he needs to know.

We can teach him how to love, live, and grow.



We can be with him every step of the way.

Running him to the park so he can run and play.



We can guide him and love him, thats all that we can.

I will be with you to make sure, he becomes a good man.



And when he does, we can look back and we will know.

Even though neither of us will want to let him go.



It will be okay then, because he will find someone like you are to me.

A best friend, that will do anything to make him happy.

Forget Him
21:25 Apr 14 2009
Times Read: 564

Forget his name, forget his face

Forget his kiss

His warm embrace

Forget the love you once knew

Remember he's with someone new

Forget him when they played your song

Remember when you cried all night long

Forget how close you two were

Remember he has chosen her

Forget you memorized his walk

Forget the way he used to talk

Forget the things he used to say

Remember he has gone away

Forget his laugh,forget his grin

Forget the dimples in his cheeks

Forget the way he held you tight

Remember he's with her tonight

Forget the time that went so fast

Forget the love that moved its past

Forget he said he'd never leave you never

Remember that he's gone forever

Have You Ever?
21:21 Apr 14 2009
Times Read: 565

Have you ever lived my life?

Spent one minute in my shoes?

If you haven't, then tell me why

you judge me as you do.

Have you ever woken up in the morning

wondering if this was your last day on Earth?

Have you ever left your house unsure if you'll return?

Have you ever seen your friend get shot outside his favorite store?

Have you see a friend die from drugs he never used before?

Have you ever seen your mom get beat up by your stepdad messed on liquor?

Have you ever had an unwanted pregnancy forcing you to choose?

Have you ever seen a friend drive away after way to many beers?

Have you ever had a friend experiment with weed?

Have you ever covered your guilt by doing a good deed?

Have you ever considered suicide as the only way?

Have you ever tried to hide yourself behind the things you say?

Have you ever wanted to protect your friends and everyone in site?

Have you ever felt such pain that you cry yourself to sleep at night?

Have you ever lived my life?

Spent one minute in my shoes?

If you haven't then tell me why you judge me as you do.

I Am
21:14 Apr 14 2009
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I am a poet writing of my pain

I am a person living a life of shame

I am a daughter hiding my depression

I am your sister making a good impression

I am your friend acting like I'm fine

I am Ashley, wishing this life weren't mine

I am a girl who thinks of suicide

I am a teenager pushing her tears aside

I am a student who doesn't have a clue

I am a girl sitting next to you

I am the one asking you to care

I am your bestfriend hoping you'll be there.

For You.
19:20 Apr 08 2009
Times Read: 569

A little time ago, we said goodbye but my tears still aren’t dry. Every hour, every minute your on my mind. Weather I’m at school or lying in my bed. I didn’t treat you well I admit. But there are still things I can’t forget, and a lot of things that I regret. So much things that I could have done. I wish I still was the one. You love another girl now and I know its really over, but somehow I still have a little faith in us. My head doesn’t but my heart does I never loved somebody so much in my entire life. I even dreamt about being your wife. If you’ll give me the chance, I really will make it up to you. It took time but now I’ve realized how much I’m missing you.

Sleep Tight
19:19 Apr 08 2009
Times Read: 570

Lonely is the only way to describe



How I feel when you are not near me



Desperately I call your name, but you do not hear me



Maybe you do, just don’t reply



Possibly I haven’t said it loud enough, for I am quite shy



These questions I ask myself all of the day



I want to tell you my feelings in the worst possible way



I just can’t, for fear overwhelms me



So I admire from afar, enjoying what I see



And in my dreams you become so real



In these dreams we share this love I feel



You are in my mind you are in my soul



If you shared my feelings it would make me whole



Maybe you would, if you knew how I felt



With every subtle glance you make my heart melt



When I close my eyes I dream of you



So now I drift to sleep and sweetly dream the whole night through

The End?
04:41 Apr 07 2009
Times Read: 574

Darkness

To be cast from the

light with such haste?

No. Haste means intention.



Or does it?

Am I wrong in saying

there's no intending

to be hurtful?



Or is it a misunderstanding,

leading me to believe that

her heart remains as pure as

I've always thought to be?



For the darkness I currently

reside in is the sorrow

I feel and the light I was

So suddenly cast from was



the blindly seen purity

of her heart.

But our eyes do play tricks on us.

Could her heart only have



that "pure" light because

she's putting the light there?

Some muchanically projected

form of luminescence?



My eyes are too clouded with

love and lust to see and

realize whether or not

the light is fabricated...



Or possibly...

All it would take is a

small mirror for her heart

to project such bright



light into my world.

Maybe it's just that way.

That she makes you feel happy

and joyice just by imitating



what you feel.

Maybe thats why i am

still blinded.

The bright light, brighter than



the starbursting fires and flames

of a thousand suns isn't her purity.

It's my undying love...

Shining at me through a mirror...



Such deceit...

And yet I still lust for it...

How blind am I? Enough....

I'm in darkness because I'm



no longer basking in the light

of her fabricated glow,

misunderstood as her purity...

But it's small piercing shine



hits the center of my eye...

Isn't that enough to blind me?

Apparently...

Though she says no...



Though she denies me her heart...

Come hell or high water,

All the forces of the earth,

Not every force is the universe...



Could ever break or belittle my love

Which is why that light is so very peircing...

That, or she is pure....

And I misunderstand.



Regardless my love is infinite,

And will never be on par

With any other love.

What I feel couldn't be love..



Love was so long ago. It is true

Love gives one purpose.

But the feeling I have no only

Gives me purpose, it's what keeps



Me striving FOR that purpose...

It's stronger than anything,

And everything this world

And the next, and beyond can



Dish out. I'm in love with a Goddess

Who holds my heart in hand

Whether or not she makes a fist

She still holds it... endlessly..



So is this the end of light?

No... I still see it.

I will forever fight to

Once again bask in her purity



In her love...

If such a day never comes well

I'll like the darkness eventually

Because if I'm not in her light



I'd rather be in darkness, than

Someone elses much dimmer glow