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Tell me friends... have you ever truely wondered why you exist?... ~smiles slightly~ if your answer is yes.... then we have something in common. I have gone through my life always doing my damndest to protect and care for those close to me... yet despite my best intentions, it seems that i always get them into a worse positon than either of us can imagine... no matter how much pain it causes me i always keep my mouth shut if i know the truth will in the least hurt someone i care for... even if it kills me to do so.... ~sighs and shakes my head~ its never enough though...... I can never quite figgure out how to make everything get better.... Its the most frusterating thing in my life to know how much i want to help others and constantly fail at it.... and then on the occasions in which i need help i feel as though i am standing in the middle of a crowded room covered in my own blood screaming for help and not a soul cares to notice.... ~laughs hollowly~ what an interesting existence i have..... Life is nothing but a slow march towards death.... one i wish would just hurry up and end....