whats new in my life...09:56 Dec 16 2007
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hmm where to begin this one... Right now my life is slightly complicated so I suppose this entry shall have to be a long one. If only in order to accommodate the aforementioned state of being.
I recently moved to San Diego California, in late September... This, I thought was going to bring about a much needed respite from my parents threatening to strangle me with their idiotic rules and assholic tendencies. However, I was sadly mistaken. During the first week I was here, I got extremely sick and was unable to even speak at all. As I recovered from that, I got my new cell phone. The next day I called home, talked to my mom for a good three hours. My parents knew where I was going before I left, though they had barely any warning, only about four hours at the most. Moving at all was a split second decision, made due to necessity only. She was still upset by my decision and seemed to believe I had left because of the fact that I hated her... On the contrary... despite everything I love my mother, I love her more than anything in the world... Yes we have had our struggles and both made more mistakes than either of us care to count, I hope that I could be half the mother she was to me... When we hung up that day I promised to call again later that day. However, when I tried no one answered even though I tried off and on for three hours. This pattern proceeded for three weeks and by this time I was worried. I couldn't understand why no one was there to answer the phone... Finally, one day, my father answered the phone. I barely got out "Hi dad" when he hung up on me... I was shocked, at first I thought i had had a bad connection. Unfortunately the pattern persisted, mostly with them not answering my phone calls at all...After a couple months of this I gave up calling every day and instead call once or twice a week. Then a couple of weeks ago, my friend Casper received a phone call on Flo's phone from a sheriff in Shasta County stating that my father wished to make a missing persons report and kidnapping charges regarding my whereabouts. WTF!!! I am 18 years old, I moved of my own free will to a place that I now adore, with the people I care about and love more than life itself. My friends down here are more family than my blood back home. When I called the sheriff back, he stated that he knew that since I am an adult that there was probably no big deal behind the report but also that he couldn't drop it since my father was throwing a fit and would not let him. Thus I once again swallow my anger and try harder to call home, and once again I get hung up on. Meanwhile my parents are telling my friends that call for me back home that I haven't contacted them once since I "mysteriously disappeared" Bullshit. That is all I have to say on that one. I did NOT disappear, and it frankly makes me wonder why I even tried at all to let them know where I was going. Ignorance born of love despite all I suppose.
All that I know is that I want to scream to the entire world. I am alive, safer than I have been in a long time, happy, safe, NOT missing or kidnapped, in a place I freely chose to go and now love being here, with people that I can't imagine my life without now. They are my family now in the truest sense of the word, and anyone who doesn't understand how friends can become that close needs to find better friends...
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Ancientbabygirl
22:17 Jan 13 2008
He..He......want me to relay a message back to your parents? Id do that you know....:D