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15:32 Mar 25 2015
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In kinda a funk after reading a journal. idk why but it hurts when someone who has never once turned their back on me gets attacked for doing the same and helping another person. Granted I don't know specs but what I do see hurts bad. Respect honour trust are all things to be earned if you have not earned it then look at why how what and when and then maybe you'll see where the true lack of trust lays. True love doesn't give ultimatums especially about family and who you consider part of your personal family even if they aren't by "blood" they are family thats all thats important. why can't they put aside their aversion for the betterment of all involved rather then this bloody he said she said crap that is only stunting EVERYONES growth rather then creating it. Why can't one have family that isn't "blood" or "real" and what exactly is a "real" family? I have no clue as I have none according to this person and since my "blood" gave me up I am truly screwed for life then.


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16:25 Mar 17 2015
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You were on your way home when you died.



It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal

nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless

death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body

was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.



And that’s when you met me.



“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”



“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.



“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”



“Yup,” I said.



“I… I died?”



“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.



You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is

this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”



“More or less,” I said.



“Are you god?” You asked.



“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”



“My kids… my wife,” you said.



“What about them?”



“Will they be all right?”



“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your

main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”



You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I

just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority

figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.



“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will

remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow

contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be

secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If

it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling

relieved.”



“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or

something?”



“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”



“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”



“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with

me.”



You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we

going?”



“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while

we talk.”



“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn,

I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and

everything I did in this life won’t matter.”



“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and

experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right

now.”



I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more

magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A

human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like

sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold.

You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it

back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.



“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t

stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we

hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But

there’s no point to doing that between each life.”



“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”



“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said.

“This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”



“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”



“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your

universe. Things are different where I come from.”



“Where you come from?” You said.



“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And

there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like

there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”



“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get

reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with

myself at some point.”



“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their

own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”



“So what’s the point of it all?”



“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the

meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”



“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.



I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this

whole universe, is for you to mature.”



“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”



“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life

you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”



“Just me? What about everyone else?”



“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just

you and me.”



You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”



“All you. Different incarnations of you.”



“Wait. I’m everyone!?”



“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the

back.



“I’m every human being who ever lived?”



“Or who will ever live, yes.”



“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”



“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.



“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.



“And you’re the millions he killed.”



“I’m Jesus?”



“And you’re everyone who followed him.”



You fell silent.



“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing

yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to

yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was,

or will be, experienced by you.”



You thought for a long time.



“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”



“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you

are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”



“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”



“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve

lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough

to be born.”



“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”



“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your

next life.”



And I sent you on your way.


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01:34 Mar 16 2015
Times Read: 309


Wow so it's my 4th day of intense tooth infection all the tips I have gotten have helped but so far other then going to a dentist (didn't get on medical :( ) nothing has actually gotten out the infection just made it bearable since the garlic literally burned my gums to blistering. I wanted to get some antibiotics at the feed and tack store (it's way cheaper then going to the dr and all you have to do is modify from horse to human size dose) but damnit if fate didn't throw in a curve ball making our finances EVEN tighter and we had to cut back on even more food staples and can't afford to get me the meds. What am I not seeing that would make my life so much more idk, not easy, per say, but not seem like I took a vow of poverty. I don't want to ask for much (like winning the megamillions lol) that I'm Not unwilling to work for but I'm not willing to kill myself anymore for anothers profit while I make pittance and still not "afford" to even get necessities much less be able to live if heaven forbid there is an extra expense or emergency health issue.


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Pain

14:14 Mar 12 2015
Times Read: 325


Last night I underwent the single most painful thing I have EVER done to my self willingly. I have been beaten kicked pushed fallen down stairs child birth and stuffing my own abdomen with gauze cut stabbed and it never even came close to the pain I went through for this abscessed tooth. As we know garlic is a wonderful herb for infections even tooth ones the problem though is suffering through it till it quits hurting. You see it burns and I don't mean oh I accidentally got a lil burn NO this is red hot poker pain seriously I actually almost lost it and screamed I have never wanted to scream from physical pain. Not even sciatica and it can make me yelp no this was on a whole new level. and guess what I have to do it again in a few hours! isa vewy bad tooth infection.


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Voice
Voice
17:27 Mar 12 2015

That sounds awful!!!!!!! Abscess tooth can be a dangerous thing if left untreated... have you been to a doctor?





 

16:32 Mar 09 2015
Times Read: 340


How can one go about identifying themselves? No clue all I know about me is that I am an empathic(I do feel the emotions of others) intuitive (lots of deja vu dreams and a sense of just knowing something though can't explain how) energy worker ( I don't know what else it is I am feeling like I am moving around that is seen by some but not others) that has been taught by spirits and "angels" Hindu chanting Not all only that which was pertinent at the time, herbs both their physically healing and spiritually healing aspects, candle magic, stone and crystal grids, drumming, vibrational frequencies that promote healing and clearing of energy fields through my voice or intuitively guided to use the MANY videos and frequencies on youtube if I can not sing that high or low a pitch, awareness of the 5 elements and how to properly channel their energies, as well as a plethora of grounding technique's defence mechanisms ceremony and vision of energy that is not of the 3rd dimension. what does that make me again no clue give me the label You see fit then let me know.


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Oceanne
Oceanne
16:43 Mar 09 2015

Normal





 

15:09 Mar 09 2015
Times Read: 342


what the heart wants is what it wants be it familial ties bonds of love or that of a lover, either way if one is seeking family no matter what happens they will follow family as they feel they need that communal support and nurturance, as much as men hate to admit it they can no more be your family then a rooster trying to lay eggs successfully. They just can not be your father mother brother sister cousins and so on as they are but ONE MAN and why (not all but it is a statistic ) those who try to alienate from family beat or abuse their partner in some way. because even for a person who is family oriented to remove them would be torture. It is not about ego and who can protect who the best, it is about having commonality with ties that can NEVER be lost No matter what happens and for some (me included) that is more precious then a "man" "making" me feel safe because if someone feels they need to make me do something I feel I need to do the opposite as well as run as far and hard as I fucking can. Never fuck with family it is the fundamental principle that keeps many of us going


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16:04 Mar 08 2015
Times Read: 346


Had a very unique non alcohol party last night for my fiance turning 32. I gotta say take alcohol outta the mix and clean up is a breeze there were no spills making nasty stink this morning and we didn't have to worry about anyone that drove being to fuckered up to make it. oh we were lit and I still stand firm on dabs being like crack but reversed if that makes sense but a kick ass time was had by my handsome our haven is in one piece and non funky smelling and we have a fridge full of leftover fruit salad honey bbq wings quieche? and veggie's with ranch. YUM!


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17:02 Mar 04 2015
Times Read: 354


What set the pace for my life. I watch alot of these ghost and physic shows for comparative purposes and what is different between my life and theirs I would have to say is how we saw things in life. I don't remember feeling love or beings of love or light like many of them. My first memorable experience was at 5 or so under my grandmas porch, I used to love playing under there when I was VERY little until one day I saw felt and was touched by something from my nightmares Literally it attacked me during the day that day and changed how I saw light and dark. You see up till then "lenny" only came out at night and was only in my room and the basement of our 1910 farm house after that day he never left my side even during the day. I had dead relatives that tried to help keep me normal and functioning but after that it all went down hill.


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18:22 Mar 03 2015
Times Read: 358


Why do I starve myself when there is food- to ration what I have for times of famine and since I do not have an income the ones that do eat first and get their plenty so they can continue bringing food for them selves whilst yes I starve and go without weakening. When I get food I am very sharing when it comes to some stuff but other stuff I hoard and can get aggressive about it being "mine" if I view it as something for my health that I can not gain more of in any way either buying it myself someone getting it for me so on and so forth. this has created problems in the past with relationships as many can not understand why even when explained


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