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Tonight has been the worst night by far.I havent fed in several days and i feel like I am going insane I feel so very weak.I have barely come out of my room.My family hardly even says 2 words to me anymore.I lay here and look at the moon wondering when it will be my turn to be rescued

I have finally come to the conclusion that I dont care if people around me like me or think that I am different.I am happy with myself and if other people cant accepte it then they can move the hell on.I hve decided to try and find the answers out on my own as to why I am the way I am.

I have finally reached my breaking point here.Im tired of my family treating me different,Im tired of not being happy.I just dont know what to do anymore.My family has driven away all the friends I did have and now I am left completly aloneand it royally sucks.I just wish I had someone who was there for me.

I am feeling much more energetic now.I am starting my day head on.So there is no telling what today will bring.I am looking into going to college over seas in london or somewhere beautiful and peaceful.I have been doing alot of reading and meditating to try and somewhat control my urges if you will so they dont get out of hand.On the down side im still single and lonely.I dont have many friends on here but I am trying to change that.

today was not a good day at all.......I went out today to get away from the family but when i got around a large group of people i got really drained to the point it made me dizzy........I now have a huge migraine from the ordeal.I wish i had someone here with me

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TheVampyreNico
06:08 Jan 16 2010

I feel the same way as you do long for a companion to share with and be part in my eternal life so to speak.

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I am feeling good for once this morning.I did this guided meditation thing before I went to be and I woke up this morning feeling as if I can take on the world.As for certain aspects of my life I am still single and in some ways alone but things change in time.well I am going to watch interview with the vampire I think....

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TheVampyreNico
06:05 Jan 16 2010

That is bye far one of my most wayched favorite vampyre movies. I am happy for you that you felt better from your meditation.

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Am întâlnit un om care a spus că ar putea ajuta sa inteleg ce am trecut prin





As for today it has started to get better after what happened(listed above) I hope this is the turning point.

I am finding peace in the silence of my dark room.....everyone else here is sleeping finally.I just wish someone could helpp me fully awaken myself......I have tried yet again to control my urges and it is still getting stronger.I wish I knew what to do....I wish there were a safe haven i could be at right now amongst those like myself

I am at a loss now and I am alone.I fought with my family yet again today and my "mother"told me that I was a demon and that she is tired of me.I dont know what to do now I have been abandoned her in what i thought was my home

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ladySnowStrixx
23:45 Jan 12 2010

Sweetie, I,m so Sorry , I don't think she meant what she said , Besides she could go to jail for abandoning you if your underage. and you aren't a demon no matter what she said no child is , parents get mad and say things they don't mean but the thing is to say your sorry for if and not do it again , let me know if she does. Blessed Be Sweetie.

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I lay here trying to forsee what will happen today.but to no avail it isnt working.I am still so much alone and I know if I dont find a safe haven soon things are going to turn out very badly.My urges are getting stronger and I joined a mentorship searching for guidance in controling my urges but yet again i have found no help so it makes me wonder if there is any mentor that can help me at all.

where do i begin.I did chakra meditation for the first time at 6 am before I went to sleep and I slept harder than ever.I still feel o so alone.I searched all night to make sense of the abilities that I have and the urges tnat I have to be able to make sense of myself but to no avail nothing yet.

here it is 2 am yet again. I am still yerning for a sense of belonging. My family here is pushing me further and further away because I am different.I am trying so desperatly to find a new family but it has yet worked.I need someone to help me understand why my senses continue to intensify.

I have been asked to join my first mentorship and I have excitedly accepted it.





As for today my senses intenseified today when I went out to the local store.I was able to feed off the energy of a few of those around me.However it has been awhile since I have been able to feed and my hunger is growing

I am lying awake it is 6 am.I feel something stronger than my self trying to draw me in but i sense that it is far away. Oh how I yern to feel accepted and be amongst someone who can help me understand what is going on with me.

I dont knnow where to begin.I feel so empty and alone here.I know I am different from anyone here and they know that and are starting to treat me different.When I am alone I sense these things that i know nobody else here does.I took a picture with my family the other day and my eyes in all of them were pitch black.I fear that if I dont find a safe haven with somone that know what I am going through and can help me then I fear the worst

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ByTheGraceOfFate
11:52 Jan 10 2010

Don't despair. I'm sure plenty of US on HERE know what you're going through!

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JonGoddi
21:48 Jan 10 2010

Don't despair hun.. there are alot out there just like you and I.. Embrace that you are different and love that!!!

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