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I HAVE BEEN INTERESTED WIT VAMPIRES, WEREWOLVES,GHOSTS,WITCHES,ECT.. ANYTHING SUPERNATURAL SINCE I WAS 14 YEARS OF AGE..I GREW UP IN A STRICT CATHOLIC HOME SO IT WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO LET MY INTERESTS SURFACE ...I STARTED READING TAROT WHEN I WAS 16 YEARS OF AGE ,, NO TUTORING OR CLASSES IT JUST CAME TO ME INSTANTLY...THEN MY MOTHER TELLS ME ABOUT HOW MY GRANDMOTHER WAS PART OF THIS COVEN AND SHE COULD DO ALL THIS STUFF WITH CANDLES AND HERBS AND CRYSTALS..MY MOTHER WAS NEVER ALLOWED TO TALK ABOUT IT BECAUSE BACK THEN SHE LIVED WITH HER MOM AND DAD ON A RESERVATION,,AND IN SOME TRIBES WITCHCRAFT WAS STRICTLY FORBIDDEN,,ONLY A SHAMAN WAS ALLOWED TO DO THINGS BACK THEN...WELL ANYWAYS THAT JUST MADE MY INTEREST INTENSIFY 10X MORE...I WAS 26 YEARS OLD WHEN I HAD A SEVERE HEAD INJURY CAUSING A SUB-ARACHNID HEMMORAGE IN MY SKULL..WHILE IN THE INTESIVE CARE UNIT RECORVERING FROM SURGERY I SAW SOMETHING THAT NO ONE ELSE COULD SEE A LITTLE OLD LADY SMILING AT ME, SHE WAS SO PEACEFUL AND SHE WAS STANDING NEXT TO THIS OLD MAN WITH HER HAND ON HIS SHOULDER...I DON'T KNOW WHAT POSSESSED ME TO OPEN MY MOUTH , BUT BEFORE I COULD STOP MY SELF I SAID EXCUSE ME AND WHEN HE TURNED AROUND ,HIS EYES WERE FULL OF TEARS ..I OPENED MY MOUTH AGAIN AND THESE WORDS CAME OUT..SHE SAYS "ITS OK ,YOU CAN LET HER GO,SHE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU." WHAT I DIDN'T KNOW WAS AT THAT PRECISE MOMENT HE WAS TRYING TO MAKE THE DECISION WHETHER OR NOT TO TURN THE MACHINES OFF THAT WERE KEEPING HIS WIFE ALIVE...HE CRIED SOME MORE ,,SIGNED SOME PAPERS AND WHEN ALL WAS DONE, HE WALKED OVER TO MY BED KISSED ME ON THE FOREHEAD AND SAID THANK YOU...AND THEY BOTH WALKED AWAY.. I HAVE HAD SEVERAL OTHER EXPERIENCES JUST LIKE THAT ONE...AND FOR SOME REASON WHEN I TOUCH A PERSONS HAND I SEE LIKE A MOVIE REEL OF PAST -PRESENT- AND FUTURE EVENTS IN THERE LIVES..IT FREAKED ME OUT FOR A WHILE, THEN RIGHT BEFORE MY GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY.. SHE TOLD ME THAT WHEN I HAD THE HEAD INJURY IT NEARLY TOOK MY LIFE..BUT THE OUT COME OF SOMETHING SO HORRIFIC WAS A GOOD ONE; SHE SAID THE HEAD INJURY OPENED MY EYES TO A NEW LIFE TO HELP PEOPLE WITH THEIR LOSES OR ANY OTHER PROBLEMS THAT COME UP..SHE SAID THAT HER LIFE WAS ENDING BUT MY LIFE WAS JUST BEGINNING I THAT I SHOULD EMBRASE IT.. THEN SHE HANDED ME THIS AMETHYST NECKLACE THAT HAD WRITING ALL OVER IT...I'M STILL SCARED OF THE THINGS I SEE,,I TRY NOT TO GET CLOSE ENOUGH TO PEOPLE AT FUNERALS OR ANY OTHER DEPRESSIVE SITUATION...I STILL DO THE TAROT CARDS BUT NAINLY FOR FAMILY AND FRIENDS...THE UP SIDE IS THAT I KNOW ITS THERE IF I EVER NEED IT THE DARK SIDE IS THE FEAR OF LETTING SOMETHING EVIL IN WHILE DOING IT...ID LIKE SOME OUTSIDE OPINIONS..EMBRASE IT OR LEAVE IT ALONE...

I LIVE IN A HOME FULL OF FAMILY...

YET I STAND ALONE....

I HAVE A MAN WHO TRULY LOVES ME....

YET I STAND ALONE...

IN A CROWDED ROOM...

I STAND ALONE..

THEY MAY BE THERE .....

NOBODY EVER SEES...

THE DARKNESS AND SADNESS

THAT TORMENTS ME.....

I CRY OUT.. FOR ITS DARK IN HERE...

I DON'T LIKE BEING ALONE..

IT'S GETTING CLOSER AND CLOSER..

I TRY TO RUN, BUT I'M FROZEN IN FEAR...

WILL SOMEONE PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE..

I KNOW YOUR THERE, PLEASE SET ME FREE...

BEFORE THE DARKNESS OF SOLITUDE CONSUMES ME.....





MMB...(AKASHA)