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06:09 Jul 31 2008
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Still trying to get over K but in time it will pass.
Usually when I get really depressed I drink either wine, gin or scotch. But due to my health I can't have anymore because it can kill me :(
We're going to try for the whole friends things and still wants to move in with me, which I do welcome. At least I can still smoke my lovely cigars :) *Actually I need about 10 people around me*
I cleaned my room a little and watched TV but mostly I've just slept since I was able to get all my meds today.
And now I'm waiting on someone or something to help me fill my life with a bit of joy...how emo is that lol
One last thing: Remember people! Leave comments please, I love 'em. Not sure why but I do :)
Ciao
--Xzavier
02:29 Jul 30 2008
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Well K and I broke up for the last time. Messes with my heart and messes a lot with my future but I've got to keep my eyes forward.
I'm sorry things couldn't work out but we were just too different.
At least I've still got one person in my life who can help me, even though she's a girl.
I've written similar entries like this far to many times dealing with him, I'd say proof what I did was right.
I'm rather sure he'll make it alright, trust me K I am forgettable.
I'm not gonna say "lets be friends," everyone knows that doesn't really work out. But we can always try as long as that lasts.
19:23 Jul 27 2008
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I'm watching 10,000BC and it's actually pretty interesting. Some of the effects are rather good and it's got 5567x the dialog as Apocalypto.
It's interesting to see how our concepts of the Ancients has changed, usually for the better. I'm still waiting on the time when my secret film is able to be made without everyone thinking the world is ended.
On a personal note, I was able to get around 8-9 hours of sleep. However, for most of that time I was dreaming about my friends being killed and all that jazz, so as usual not a lot of rest.
It's still early in the morning for me (1:20pm) I wonder what is in store for me today.
03:18 Jul 27 2008
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Sorry I haven't been on much today I've been sick this week and today has been a bit worse.
I've been uber nauseous and because of that eaten only around 500cal. Eh, at least I can keep my figure haha.
I've been sleeping all day, having strange dreams and thats about it.
19:03 Jul 26 2008
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Damn my body! I need a new one for this one hates me :( Again no sleep of worth.
Oh well, off to watching "Silent Hill"...was that any good?
02:57 Jul 26 2008
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Now for my nightly journal entry about my day.
I woke up around 8am or so and got to watch my shows - 2 eps. of The Golden Girls, 2 eps. of Frasier and bit of news.
I really didn't have to do anything today, like most days. Since I feel my computer fan my be going out I downloaded the temp. programme Irony told me about (thank you Irony!) it's actually pretty cool.
I've been taking naps and watching random shows all day, since I still don't feel all that well. The pain level isn't so bad but my stomach hurts and my head still feels a bit rough.
I haven't eaten anything but some snacks and ice cream because of my tummy. Usually when it acts up if I try to eat real food it'll make me very nauseas.
My mom made some sweet tea for the first time in a year which makes me very happy. I've got a bottle of it next to me :)
Rather sorry I haven't written anything good on philosophy or science recently but between health and lack of inspiration there isn't not much floating around in there on that front.
Due to stupid people I am going to close out my bank account (all $4.46) and use other means of money storage.
We are now 2 weeks in to waiting for a gold bar which should have arrived well over a week ago. If I don't get it Monday I'm reporting the seller. It's only a gram bar but damn it it's my money!
Kevin is back from his trip to Australia which is nice. I was really drugged up last night and we had a nice heart to heart...yes I remember everything.
I know at times it seems I may take my medication a bit more than directed but I've been taking them for a year and surrounded by people (rather at home or who see/talk to me everyday) and they'd notice if I was actually doing something wrong.
It's a little hard to explain so let me say this: I'm a very sick man and I know I will always be in some sort of pain or other symptom and that my meds can only help to a degree but I will not go through more than I can handle at the time. If I've taken my daily med amount and still feel like crap I'm going to take more until I feel better. Every waking and sleeping moment 24/7 I'm in agony many times I can't even get out of bed. So honestly, to hell with directions. I know enough about medicine and illness to know where the line is. --
I'm thinking about taking another nap and I'm bored out of my mind.
Oh there are a few people in the Forum who are really starting to piss me off and theres a new poster who needs to get shot, details to be forthcoming :)
18:55 Jul 25 2008
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*cries* I think I ate to much ice cream lol Had a bowl full of those little chocolate Dibs.
22:55 Jul 24 2008
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I keep hearing this sound coming from the back of my computer. I think the processor fan is about to go out. I have no idea how to fix that lol
19:06 Jul 24 2008
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Gah, maybe I should set up a fund to help pay for my medical expenses lol.
Theres only 1 medicine that I can't afford and it happens to be my migraine meds. Imitrex, it's $250 for 9 pills. I went to a place that offers free meds but they stopped carrying Imitrex because of the cost.
Oh well I guess I'll just keep letting blood leak into my brain.
04:11 Jul 24 2008
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You know your depression is really bad when....
You just bought $12,000 worth of gourmet chocolate and other uber nice things and yet you don't want to eat a single bite.
*Not really 12k but close lol*
Ugh I'm waiting for the official title of "Emo"
22:34 Jul 23 2008
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Yay time for venting :)
So apparently as my neuropthy gets worse I will start to experience whole-body pain. Guess what...it's here!
The muscles around my joints, down both arms and my entire back feels raw and bruised. Frick it hurts not good!
I've taken some Neurontin to try and help bit to little avail. The pain meds aren't doing all that much either.
And I'm still at 115lbs.
This stuff is really starting to annoy me.
03:32 Jul 23 2008
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WOOT!!!!!!!! I did it :)
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A collection of Comments23:04 Jul 22 2008
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These are some comments and rates I have gotten over the years. Most are positive others not so much but all are interesting (at least to me). I didn't include the names just because I'm a big privacy buff and I may add a comment to the comment :) My commentary is *inside*
kool site...how did u get ur pics 2b that kolor? *Can we say spellcheck?*
7 *grr I hate when they don't say why*
Comment: loved your pro...feel free to wright
I love your profile, and I am definitely intrigued by you!
You seem one of the more competent and intelligent members of VampireRave!
Wayne:4
Comment: *VR's resident anti-homo*
your profile was amazingly open and interesting. You sound almost like someone I knew growing up. and thanks for the rate
just thought Id stop by and return the fav.
your gay thats cool I have alot of gay friends some are looking for somone if you lived around here Id help ya out lol.. drop a line any time bro.
*If you only knew how many times I've heard that*
Complex indeed, I have enjoyed my stay with you; you were truly thoughtful and wise when creating this profile.
Why look and not rate????~ *I did you moron, y'all probably could figure out who this is*
Great to meet someone of such high intellegence. We need more people in this world like that. :)
You are so hot & sexy!
ur like super fat *I know right!*
Fantastic profile, the layout is great.
I think what you have to say is very interesting, it made me see things differently so thank you for that.
gay *How dare you say such lies!*
love the profile. A ten to you. You should meet my brother, -----. --- is bi.
me loves you kisses
Rating: 10
Comment: 1 *um ok*
Indead, long time no see. But now I'm back baby!!!!! ;-)
beautiful page and the music is lovely so wonderful!
Fantastic Profile and Pictures.... Giving You a 10 and definitely will be sending You a message. Yours, in submission
I will only vote for you and your site. Never anyone in a suit
JEDI'S FOR PAUL '08!
thx for rating my profile ...it is refreshing to view profiles with things other than bloating graphics... love the quote of the day...
*Thank ya*
one of my favourite songs, fellow of erudition, the Lady before me was helpful in saying what she had: I turned my speakers on, when I was about to rate.
This was a damn interesting read.. and it occurs to me, that your journal will make good reading..
.. respects to you.
ummm wow your very good looking... :) 10 *Am not*
its just not fair. *Sorry I guess*
i love your page first of all.. second i just adore how you are brutally honest, that is very refreshing... and wins merrit with me. i leave you a 10. thank you for allowing me a taste of your mind.
Loved Your Wicked Pro..he he love that you accept who you are and not many people have guts to do that ..well bye love
Hugs and kisses from Kev's fairy-godmother!
awesome profile love. It's awesome that you're so open about your sexuality! You're the man! or... well vamp or whatever ^_^ haha have a 10!
Cute 10
awesome profile and i love ur openess and outspoken attitude so heres a 10 for being who u r and speaking it loudly and proudly
hey fucken awesome page
Beautiful My Lord!
7
Comment: ummm how cum u rated me? *How cum ur so dum?*
21:39 Jul 22 2008
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I'm watching Dr. Phil (hush!) and I must say straight guys make me wanna vomit.
It's about the male ego to the extreme. The guests are men who think themselves to be Casanovas and the "hottest" thing on earth.
One main difference between the guests and Casanova is, Casanova had actual charm. I don't care if your ego is larger than the globe or you think your sexy but at least TRY and have a bit of charm and real personality.
Is it really all about sex? Geez guys like these make us all look bad. Most of you are just small cocked versions of a horny chihuahua.
21:57 Jul 21 2008
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Part of why I'm taking a bit of a break from the "all out" VR life is due to health. The past several days I've had really bad headaches and last night (noon-3am) I had a very bad migraine.
So bad in fact it's possible some blood may have leaked out of my cranial veins. My head still hurts a bit, I am very dazed, kinda out of it and my vision is all nice and blurry.
It's migraines like these that caused the lesions on my brain.
I'm going to my doctor Thursday.
19:31 Jul 20 2008
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Humans are VIRUSES!....
If you think the human race is a virus, cancer or some other disease then do us all a favor and chemo yourself :)
17:24 Jul 19 2008
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I'm not going to be all that active on here for a while. To much going on in my "real" life and the issue on here which seems to be ignored by some.
I'll still log in everyday but unless you've got an emergency I won't really be talking.
21:14 Jul 18 2008
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Funny but true story:
I was at a café with a friends of sorts (more like a leech) who's waaayyyy gay 5'3, white and ghetto as hell.
This large black guy (6'5) comes up, drunk and says something rather benign and all in good fun.
Well my "friend" stands up to him,with a butter knife and says, seriously, "I'll cut the black off you bitch!"
I about died laughing.
18:36 Jul 18 2008
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I'm eating ice cream, watching a bio on Heath Ledger, working on the VR "issue" and honestly I couldn't be more happy.
Thats sad as hell isn't it? haha
On the Ledger note, I actually do miss him, he was such a great talent. Reminds me of my acting days.
16:17 Jul 17 2008
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"It may be that the gulfs will wash us down;
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And though we are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are.
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will;
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield."
The meaning of life, of my life :)
Thanks to Alfred Lord Tennyson.
18:23 Jul 16 2008
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Yesterday I was able to have a short but nice conversation with an old friend, MrD. It reminded me how few real conversations I have nowadays.
I have a tendency to bring a general "chat" into something more and not the best at idle "chit chat" but I really miss having long conversations with several people a day.
I love knowing about a persons life, past, future, wishes and dreams, hurts and everything else. And I don't mind letting people in on the "deeper" side of me.
It brings me so much joy to be able to help a person out, let 'em vent etc.
To those of you who engage me each day...yes you, thank you :) BUT for those who are on here everyday come back to me my bitches! haha
16:55 Jul 16 2008
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I'm back from my appointment and needless to say it was interesting. It was rather short, only an hour, but the Dr. did have some disparaging words.
After I told her about some of my symptoms she said "Well thats rather concerning for anyone with back pain." It also seems as though my vision is um not good lol. I could only read half the chart, I used to be able to easily read the micro printing on money from a fair distance.
So now I wait....and wait....oh yeah and wait....
I go to my reg. doctor tomorrow.
22:08 Jul 15 2008
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Something tells me the next leg of this journey may take some time.
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18:36 Jul 15 2008
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OUCH! I just shot honey in my right eye :(
00:45 Jul 15 2008
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It's official, I'm old. Just counted 15 grey hairs, I don't really mind but ....
07:02 Jul 14 2008
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Well I'm done with my profile changes for now. I dunno, it's still missing something...hmmm
04:45 Jul 13 2008
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An addiction I will tell you about is... comments! Comments damn it, comments! I really enjoy your words of encouragement, praise/hate, humor and whatever else you can throw at me.
03:52 Jul 13 2008
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Earlier today I went for a walk in the park with a friend of mine, ended in disaster. I'm farther along than I thought.
After taking a few hours to rest I was able to go to a local cigar lounge with said friend. She bought me a very nice 17 year old cigar and a few drinks. We talked about economic policies and I showed her some currency from about 8 nations, and how they were made.
After we finished our cigars we stayed and moved our conversation to politics. It was a lively convo, as always, and I shared my ethical dilemma.
I have worked half my life to bring about some sort of positive change in this country with only marginal success. I feel betrayed by my own Americans for letting things get so bad, after all every problem the US has is well, your fault :) ...in a manor of speaking of course.
So my only other option is (since I can't give up, that would be immoral) I may try my hand at political satire and comedy recordings. (The moment I wrote that a HUGE bolt of lightning hit the ground and shook my apt. still not gonna give up god!!)
Anywho that's whats been going on with me today.
09:43 Jul 12 2008
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Screw you ya friggin idiot! Jesus Mother*F*n Christ and all the Saints, G*d SOB you piece of shi*t, sweet Marry and Joseph, Peter, Paul and that other guy!
Did that get your attention?? Now....
I can come off being a bit of a jerk at times and I know this but I also mention it and apologize for it every few journal entries :) But, if theres one thing I truly cannot stand nor tolerate, it's rudeness.
Earlier today I was at a gas station and as I was walking to go inside when this huge truck flew by me, didn't even attempt to slow down.
I get to the door and see an elderly guy walking up so I stop and hold the door open for him, well as "Mr. 1857" was about to step in the idiot from the truck walks right in-front of the guy and me without even saying "excuse me."
He had some military tats on his arm which brings me to 2 points:
1) Just because you've done service alone, doesn't qualify you for crap. Yes I support the troops and yadda yadda but come on people, not all of em are saints *coughs McCain*
2) I wish I would have said something to him and touched me...tis illegal you know :)
19:19 Jul 11 2008
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Well I just made my 203rd friend on here. And dealing with an issue here at home, well personal haha.
Oh I shaved after a month. I actually REALLY hate facial and body hair but I've been busy and a bit lazy so I just let it go. Took a pic of it before I shaved bc it'll be a long time before I have hair on me face again. Now I'm back to being pretty haha.
14:41 Jul 11 2008
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I seem to have an addiction. It's not drugs or sex and for 4000 years it was perfectly fine to do. Of course now times have changed but it seems I'm stuck with the mind set of the ancients.
It's rather difficult to do something you love and that actually helps people and makes them happy when you can end up going to jail for it.
Ho hum on my bum :(
03:58 Jul 11 2008
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I take a drug called Neurontin during especially hard times. I take up to a gram at a time but because I don't use it everyday I never get used to it's effects.
This drug was originally designed for seizures and it is very similar to the neurotransmitter GABA which releases dopamine.
It's a strange feeling to be sitting down and feeling a certain way then all of a sudden your whole body changes. Your mind separates itself from your body, your body tingles and you feel a sense of anxious peace. Such a strange thing is this.
With any med. I take I often experience these things, even if I take them on a daily basis.
I of course must beg forgiveness if I forget something about you or repeat myself as it has a way with memory...mines bad enough without drugs haha.
02:31 Jul 11 2008
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Day turns to night and the usual symptoms begin. For what ever reason I am curious to know how old people actually take me for? (those who don't know mind you)
Note: Music truly is the only thing that makes me remotely content, hmm *smiles*, I could use a Brandy about now.
04:24 Jul 10 2008
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The whole "Area 51" thread has me thinking. When I was a younger man I belong to a "think tank" which specialized in US/International military intel and every once in a while a file would cross my desk dealing with "A51Z" as we called it. It wasn't code just an easier way of saying it.
Anyway I am still involved with similar groups but I've never really written about it. Of course there are things I can't say nor do I have any desire to do so but the conversations I've had dealing with intel are always fun.
I keep thinking of the growing situation with Russia and Iran then I hear about people getting worried we can't defend ourselves, it makes me laugh. If we were forced into another world war and had to use things not yet published we could take on the world.
I do not agree with war nor do I like Bush but I fully endorse what he said several years ago, I paraphrase "We could engage in several arenas and wage successful war from the Pacific to the Middle East and even here."
Anyway it all just brings back memories, rather nice actually. So don't worry people we really are safe :)
This brings me to UFO crashes. It may well be possible that aliens have crashed on Earth and the government may be hiding something but if theres one thing we're good at it's reverse engineering.
If we had an alien craft in any sort of decent condition we could take the thing apart and almost immediately incorporate it into our own technology, no matter how advanced.
I'll give you guys a hint, take the best stuff you know we have then project 20 years onto that....thats it, nothing more.
It amazes me how quick people are to claim cover-ups without the full facts.
I should be getting some updated images of a few areas, once they are processed I may post them :)
06:47 Jul 09 2008
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Wow this is like my 4th entry for the day. For some reason my Comcast has been cutting in and out all day and it's pissing me off..I need my magic boxes! (TV/Computer, duh)
I've got 6 things selling on eBay and it's slow going, guess people aren't interested in shiny objects haha
I just took my last pain pill, gonna be out for 8 days, still not my fault. Since they've got me taking so much in about 12hrs for 30 hrs I'll have some withdrawal symptoms, mostly a bit of agitation. Then it'll go away. But in the mean time I'm going to get me a bottle of vodka, really helps.
When I see my Dr. next week I'm going to tell him to put me back on the lower dose and just take 8 a day. These bigger ones are like 3x as expensive and make me really tired for limited benefit.
I got a letter in the mail today saying I didn't qualify for State insurance, didn't give me a reason. I'm going to talk to my "case worker" tomorrow. After all it could be up to 2 years before I get disability so I need a lil somethin somethin while I wait.
One of my fav. shows is Deadliest Catch on the Discovery Channel. My bro-in-law did that for a year, now he's a gourmet chef lol.
On a selfish homo note I'm getting angry at hot straight guys. I don't mind if I see 1 or 2 but if I see a whole bunch of cute breeders it upsets me. Pretty guys are NOT allowed to be straight, didn't you get the memo!?
And I think this is it for now.
Ciao,
--X
10:28 Jul 08 2008
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HELP! If you are or know someone who owns a business please read! I'm putting this in here until I figure out a better way of asking the question.
I have several ideas that I really like and think would make a great addition to someones business. All I want to do is sell the ideas for a couple hundred bucks, clean and simple.
From my research these things aren't being sold/marketed.
If you have one of these businesses or know some people in these fields please let me know:
Wedding Planning
Food/Cooking/Restaurant
Search engine/programming
Funeral home/Cemeteries
23:49 Jul 06 2008
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So I took part of the profit I made from selling my last batch of silver and bought me a special gift.....65kt worth of Black Pearls *blushes* (translates into a 15" strand of 8mm's). I have a weakness for gems in general but I really love Black Pearls...and emeralds, tanzinite, diamonds and opals :)
Anyway because I have good sources and God loves me it only cost $18 hehe, makes me so happy.
The rest of the money goes to bills but since I've been really down I thought I'd treat myself a little. Should be getting it within 5 days.
00:53 Jul 06 2008
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My 4th was interesting...in a way :) Usually I go to my "people" get a grand worth of fireworks for a couple bucks and go to my brothers to wage war with the university firework show.
This year, being ill and broke, I wanted to just stay home and relax. Around 5pm my brother called me and begged me to come with him to his wifes family's home. Her and my families have a somewhat "colourful" history and don't always see eye to eye but I went with him anyway.
The time was spent making small talk and playing with my niece and nephew (8 and 11). I had a few shots of JC ( yes I know I'm not supposed to drink but lord knows I needed it).
We shot off some small kid stuff and played around with the 20 gross (2,880) of "bottle rockets" I had left from last year. By 8:30 my back was starting to hurt so I took the last pill I had brought with me. At 9pm the university show started and lasted 20min or so, it was very nice as always.
I went into the house to lie down on the couch. Finally around 12:30 my brother, now a little drunk, took my home. On the way he started going on about how much he loved me and thanked me for coming. Of course he was serious but the small slur in his speech made it hard to get all "family love fest 2008." Or perhaps I just have issues with emotional displays. At any rate over all I had a good time just wish I cold have gotten home a bit sooner.
On to another topic. I was able to get the secondary support I needed for my current condition and get to wait 6 months before having to prove (medically) my state. As for disability I go Monday for their medical exam.
Because I am a very independent person and don't want to need such assistance I am going to try my hand at managing a friend of mines stock options and try to make them some money, thus making me money and independence.
Ron Paul's former campaign manager died the other day at a very young age from complications relating to pneumonia. He amassed 400K in medical debts, I sent a few dollars to help. I never met him but from what everyone has said he was a very great guy http://www.campaignforliberty.com
11:55 Jul 01 2008
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I seem to have fallen into a sleeping rut. The past few weeks I end up going to sleep at around midnight, wake up 3 times and then wake up for the morning at 5am. It's rather annoying :)
Thankfully I'm over my extremely bad depression episode which about killed me. I am now my usual melancholy self *yay*
I have a meeting the 3rd to determine if I get some extra help with my condition, hopefully I will. Lord knows I need it.
The other day Gen. Wesley Clark made some statements about John McCain which were in bad taste to say the least. However, I must agree with him on one point, just because McCain was a POW doesn't make him qualified to be president.
I'm not comparing McCain to these guys but if military service was all that was required then we have to remember that Hitler, Stalin, Saddam, Osama and Mao were all veterans.
Although I support Obama I do admit that McCain has far more experience in government and under normal circumstances would be the better candidate. But I must call McCain's judgment into question and his motives, far more than Obamas.
For some reason I have taken a break from my normal hardcore pace of research. On one hand it's a nice break but on the other I feel like I'm falling behind the vanguard.
I'm going to try and get a bit more active on here and at least make it to Sire as far as the ratings go, who knows if that'll work :P
I've always loved honey and have taken to having a tablespoon's worth a day. So now my "health" regiment includes honey, dark chocolate, peanuts and either a cup of coffee or glass of wine each day. All of these foods are loaded in important nutrients and over a life time can really help you out.
About a week ago I was reading about a new building to built in Dubai over the next several years. The special thing about it is each of the floors can rotate giving the structure an ever changing appearance. I actually had a concept for a building like that some years ago but I thought I was nuts so never designed it fully, guess I was wrong.
Something I rarely talk about is the fact that I am an Architectural Drafter and have several buildings in the works. The first is a multipurpose building which includes a gay club, it would be the first in my city. The building was commissioned by an individual and would cost around $6 million. But due to some "issues" the whole thing is still on the drawing table. I have also designed a specialty coffee shop/lounge, mall, several houses, 25 story office building and a number of government structures. Perhaps I try and do too much.
Well this would be my personal update thingy for now.
--X
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COMMENTS
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Nista
06:42 Jul 31 2008
Take up something healthy. A hobby!
Don't go emo. It usually just promotes even more heartache.
DuCroix
06:46 Jul 31 2008
Come on man, you're too smart to go emo. :D
Sinora
09:37 Jul 31 2008
Just as I read the words ' I'm waiting on someone or something to help me fill my life with a bit of joy'......a patient walked past my desk and farted.
So, screw you and your wish for joy...I need some fresh air.....x
Irony
15:59 Jul 31 2008
Nothing like a nice cigar to lift the spirits:) I firmly believe that you are way too awesome for emo, and honestly, waiting on that special someone to bring joy into your life isn't emo at all, it is wonderful. Now I know you like comments, I am going to have to comment spam the shit out of you:D Be careful what you wish for:P
Joli
22:04 Jul 31 2008
Aww...baby. Come on over here. I can change you. ;P (Still loving those comments?)
Joli
22:44 Jul 31 2008
Yeah, just think of me as a man with boobs...and some parts sold separately. We'll pretend that you'll upgrade next pay period. How we shall laugh.
Ours will be the love that shocks. We will stroll through the gay bars hand in hand...how DARE they oppress our love? We will not stay in the closet just because our love intimidates them. And I want to march on Washington to be recognized as your heterosexual female gay male partner. Oh, the barriers we shall tear down...all for our unsilenced love for one another!
fuckxthisxshit
01:26 Aug 01 2008
aww wouldnt it be ironic if i was able to help fill your life with joy? :) i realize that wont happen just yet but ya never know with you haha glad your getting sleep now though
Bl00dPrincess
17:33 May 17 2009
All I can say is I love you and I WILL be there as soon as I can be love IF you still want me to be of course.