My heart is hurting.
With recent events in the real world I am going to send the biggest part of my heart away until everything is sorted out.
I would have never imagined things being as dire as they are but they are.At this moment I need good vibes and positivity and a very large drink.
Personal growth is very gratifying to me.
And I am openly admitting I have a boatload of things I need to fix and acknowledge.To be a better me and to be a better parent.
I guess you can say this is my escape.This journal.This site.
I think I've gotten a bit better with putting out my thoughts.Yes I'm still holding back,and I don't think that will ever change...
This would be an awesome time for my optimism to kick in.
A deep breath,drink and maybe a stifled scream will bring me back.
I may be away from this journal for an extended time.
Just due to having to get back to working and get everything settled in my new house.I also have to take Little A to the Hospital again on the 15th of this month. It seems like everything is trying to stack everything against me all at once.
I just need to get over this panicky moment and buck up.
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