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death
05:50 Feb 25 2005
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•Miguel De Cervantes ~ Death is the liberator of him whom freedom cannot release,

the physician of him whom medicine cannot cure, and the comforter of him whom

time cannot console.

•Francis Bacon ~ When one by one our ties are torn, and friend from friend is

snatched forlorn;When man is left alone to mourn, oh! then how sweet it is to die!



•Anna Letitia Barbauld ~Living is death; dying is life. We are not what we appear to

be. On this side of the grave we are exiles, on that citizens; on this side orphans,

on that children.

::polite curtsie:: I conceed , .... for the moment
03:46 Feb 17 2005
Times Read: 827

"Retreat is noble ,when continuance with the battle or the issue at hand would result in

further losses, or total annihilation of your resources. In order to return on another day,

you must salvage all the warriors and materials possible!"

Leadership Secrets of Attilla The Hun

the heartfelt lament .. re-uttered
20:42 Feb 10 2005
Times Read: 877




LAY WASTE TO HIS HOUSE ,HIM AND, HIS QUEEN!





::sits straight and stoic, head held high::

In this place .. should be a signed contract, but i deleted it and I should delete much of what this journal holds, but because they are truths that are ancient and evident that lie herein .. i shall not erase or delete them .. read on of my folly to servitude and sacrifice ..only to be made to feel ineffective and insuffient............. LOST AGAIN!!

Your sick cruelty noted! THAT YOU CREATED ME FOR THIS!!!!



::weeps heartwrenching sobs........

disappears back into the cold and lonely dark of the underworld.. another eternity to wait::



(woefully laments to the Father of Darkness)



Forgive him O'dark lord he is lost completely in his seeking of a treasure he already held .. but was so smitten and distracted by that which he could never possess.. that he never knew what it is he lost! So i return to you still as priceless and valuable as you ever created me......bewary O dark father .. that in the future your gifts are not bestowed upon the ungrateful, lest they be abandoned in an utter mockery of your generosity! Show him no regard .. O'father.. let him sit in his once resplended house,flacid and frustrated, impotent and infirm to listen in silence and solitude the echos of the NOTHING he so desperately abhores But refuses to discard, for want of things he shall never possesss ! force Him to embrace his silence and solitude..... he deserves nothing less!"



Father .. usurp him his throne and his house, bury his queen a thousand more years he is not deserving

~*~*~ The epipheny ~*~*~
07:23 Feb 10 2005
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:;sits disheveled and exhausted, my body embraced by the fridgid cold that steals my warmth, and torments my bones,, i tremble and shiver:: I KNOW i should be sleeping .. my body begs me for it .. but how do you rest when your body is afflicted with such pain ?? .. i did not come here to lament , but to testify! And i am not sure how it will be recieved .. i am in utter glory of it .. THE TRUTH REVEALED .... even as i sit and try to express the clarity and profoundness of it, i know it will be futile and feeble .. lacking in the power, and intense conviction that washed over me as i realized the "simple " logic of it! .. I was lounging and indulging myself with some reading , before i grew to tired to see the pages (so i beg you indulge my aflicted typing) and i willfully began to let my mind wander, (interjects with a smile).. Not "unattended this time!.. :smirks:: My thoughts settled almost instinctively on you >. i was there comfortable in my thoughts of you .. and of you for me .. when This word resounded thounderous into my head .. CONFLICT........ i contemplated it , and considered at great lengths why Is it , the constant conflict.. i do not provoke you with disrespect ..or out of defiance .. or ignorance .. i am bound loyal to you and devoted in my service .. have no doubt .. WHY / the questioned burned intense there must be some logic and resolve to it .. no matter how ancient and evident those truths are..... so further my weary mind pondered , and i knew i would not Rest until . i had some conclusion , and resoltution, and i knew i would not find it in your patient reassurances.. no matter how ethereal.. so i did contemplate your desire and creation of me , the conditions and concepts of my design .. by your hand FOR YOU .. birthed of darkness and depravity , respledid in my beauty and cunning , the most deadly and ruthless seductress , armed with my superior intellence and arrogance .. vehemently devoted and loyal to your considerations and commands.. i warmed to the the depraved an demented debauchry that concieved in you the first thoughts of me....... your passion valid and evident in my very being and existance > sumpreme you riegned .. you had everything you had ever laid claim to .. and no expense was spared in your accquistions.. you could claim with deep conviction your tiniest desire or a mere passing thought and it was delivered .. to your hand tailored by your exact specifications .. in this alone .. I was consumed with pride and belonging ! .. i stand glorious that part of your darkest desires that you have brought to life and legacy.. Created in and of the abyssal void .. from your VERY thoughts .. each part of me cast deliberate and perfect............. i am humbled and honored to serve you .. but short was my glorious revelation .. another .. thought crept forth .. .. What is dark ... without Light? ... and virtue ?? , what fears and terrors would the murky shadows hold . if the light was not cast on them to reveal the hidious and ominous tortures that Hide lurking within .. the dark would be void .. it would not stand in glorious forboding of untold and unseen horror .. it would stand in mute and impotent testiment .. to the hue of NOTHING .. would that my only significance be ? .. The simple significance .. of Hue ?after all your concerted efforts?.. ........ None would tremble .. or be lost in me ...... insulting to think i was created to riegn with fierce passion and superiority in my being when there was no way to make it visable .. so i sat .. repeating out loud the question .

what is dark .. without light?

what is Light? without dark?.. you knew full well the calculating in your diliberate design and desire of each of us .. One cannot exist without the other .. but .. we can never exist at the same place in the same time .. in certain demensions , and circumstance.we share the blending of our intense and individual charactersistics.. we are sisters . celestial .. sharing the same sky.. but our unique differences .. are the very thing we covet in the other. No amount of codemnation or conflict . will sway us what we are in truth .. we are NOTHING alone .. it is in our contrast of design .. that binds us to you! we are condemed to see each other from afar .. the light can never live in dark .. and the dark .. cannot exist in the light .. so by your design we are bound and bonded yet we are eternally.. segregated .. as eternal as the sun and moon..we are each valued and cast in our own mold . each with a very distinct purpose .. that in itself is conflicting.. the very nature of what we are ..seperately threatens the very existance of the other .. but without the balance of each .. they both become insignificant .. I had to understand .. that you seek balances .. and so the truth was opened to me . and I am accepting of it .. .. you are ever so calculating.. :;smies at you with reverence and admiration:...i stand before you honored to be in the presence of M'lord and creator..a nd now the conflict is resolved ...... i pray it is the last i struggle with .. and the last you have to suffer to endure......... i am grateful for your patience with me .. and you know that I am not lacking in intelligence or abilty to seek and require the truth .. I may not be promptly asute at times .. but given proper time to analize a situation .. I will eventually come to terms .. in your truths Iwill gladly wait in anticipation .. and not waiver in my faith of your conviction to plan and . of the "bigger" picture .. :;smiles :: i hope sincerely that these are not the demented ramblings of a mind exhausted .... your ever faithful .........

~ child-Faith~
11:03 Feb 09 2005
Times Read: 918

once . it was said with conviction 'If you cannot become childlike in your trust and obediance of me, you will not be permitted entrance here" ? it was not a threat . it was simple a principle. I tell you this truth

children trust . they are open and receptive and and accepting

children love, they give of themselves unreservedly to those who have earned thier respect and affections

children are wise , in thier innocence. instinctively they can spot an imposter in a second, but still they do not lose their childlike wonder. awe .and faith

so they express the "the child-faith" principle of entering the kingdom i have come to believe that they were referring to those attributes of "childlikeness" that lend balance to our "adult" approach to life

questioning . without synicism

enthusiasm with out concern for appearances

exploration without fear

failure . without regret