We are finally moved into our new home and I absolutely love it here. I feel more at home, happier and even safer here. We moved in yesterday and have managed to unpack the majority of all our stuff, only the small things need to be unpacked now.
Audrey is having fun playing in her new bedroom and because we have no stairs in our home, she can run around freely without worry of falling.
Tonight we are going to see the new Star Trek movie with my father. I am really looking forward to seeing the movie. I am a huge fan of the Star Trek movies, old and new.
Today has been a very successful one for moving! We have moved more than half of our boxes and such into our new house. I am so happy! We will be all moved in by Monday of next week. I can't wait to be out of this place and into our amazing new place!
Well we are signing the lease for our new place tonight. Hopefully we will get the keys to the house tonight so we can start moving in stuff tomorrow afternoon! I am quite excited to be finally moving into a new and better place. I've been wanting to get out of here for a while now because of how shitty our land lords have been toward us.
Audrey is laying down on the couch beside me, drinking her bottle and relaxing. My boyfriend is playing his video games and I am just posting on Vampire rave and watching netflix. Today has been a very productive day! Tomorrow is the start of my work week, hopefully all goes well.
Today we are celebrating Audrey's 1st birthday! I am so excited and slightly nervous. There are going to be quite a few people attending her birthday. I made some pretty cute decorations for her birthday. They are a collage of photos from over the year of Audrey's life. I am going to take tons of photos and some videos as well. I made a small cake for Audrey to destroy and eat all by herself. I hope she does destroy it, she tends to be a bit hesitant when she doesn't know what something is.
On another note, we are moving at the end of this month! I am so excited. Our new place is so much nicer and bigger. The kitchen and living room are nice and big and we will finally have a dishwasher! We have a week to pack everything up and move. It's going to be stressful, but worth it.
I can tell that my boyfriend is feeling very stressed and overwhelmed with work again. He says he is fine, but I can feel the stress radiating off of him and it is beginning to stress me out as well. I hate seeing him feel this way, I wish there were something I could do. He says he doesn't want to burden me with his issues with work or he says that I wont be understanding to his stresses. How can he know I wont be understanding and supportive if he doesn't give me the chance to be?! This is really frustrating and aggravating. He knows I am here for him no matter what, but he rarely confides in me with his stresses. I don't know how to help him.
I haven't been sleeping very well at all the past week because of this stress I feel from him. My body aches and I am grinding my teeth badly at night. I don't know what to do..
Yesterday I had a nice visit with a friend. We went on a walk and chatted a fair bit about life and what is new with us. She is going to be leaving the country for a year to teach English to foreigners. She is very excited about it, but I am going to miss her a lot. A year seems like such a long time, but I am sure it will go by very quickly.
Audrey's first birthday is in a week! I cannot believe that is has been a year since I gave birth to her. It feels like just yesterday that I was pregnant with her.
People truly confuse me. I have someone in my life who claims that no one cares about her and that no on reaches out to her, but I have reached out to her and have tried to have a conversation with her multiple times. She has not responded to my messages at all. She must not be that lonely if she isn't responding to me. She has recently found out that the growth in her brain has gotten significantly bigger and that her brain is shifting position within her skull which is causing her severe head aches.
I don't know what to do anymore. I guess just letting her dwell and make her self more depressed about her shitty situation and being there for her like I have been is my only option. She controls how she feels and reacts to her situation, no one else.
Audrey and I came back from camping today. I am so happy to finally be home. Camping was a lot of fun even though it was raining the entire time. We didn't get to go to the beach which was a tad disappointing, but we went to town and checked out all the cool shops and got some candy. We went swimming at the pool at the campsite which was nice, but Audrey didn't like it so much.
It was quite exhausting running after Audrey the entire time, but id do it all over again in a heart beat.
I haven't been active on Vampire Rave for a few days now. Work and my daughter have been my main focus lately. I have been way too tired to log in and post anything lately, but here I am. Tomorrow Audrey, my parents and I are going camping! I am super excited about it. I have been looking forward to this camping trip for months now. I managed to get today off work so I can pack and get ready for the trip. Audrey is currently sleeping so I decided to relax and watch Greys Anatomy.
Now I wait for my mother to come pick me up and take me to her place to help pack for the trip.
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