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Life is a journey. To others it's torment. For me it was a journey now it's all about pain and hatred. My days never seem to end. They are like a cold blistering night with nowhere to go. I seem to be running in circles like a dog chasing it's tail. All this because I lost the only thing that made me whole. As my two entries before I feel worse now. I can not sleep for visions of what I lost haunt me in my dreams. I am tired. It seems that I can not make it in this thing called life. I need to sleep for I heard that sleep brings release. I need release of this pain and hatred. I feel like I'm going to lose mind, but it seems I can't let go. The pain and hatred I feel inside seems to want to break free, but I can not let go. I can't let go for the love I had, it's the only thing that keeps my humanity !!