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Arrrrrrrrrrrgh!
04:29 Oct 31 2007
Times Read: 550

I hate living in this ass backwards, fake faced, turd polished, snot nosed city. Westchester county can kiss my ass & go to hell! Arrrgh! There are next to no one here that I can relate to & the people that I have to deal with most of the time are just a bunch of empty headed sheep.

-sigh-

Breathe in. Breathe out. I'm good.

Sucks that the one person that I want more than anything to be with lives a hundred miles north. Finally go to meet her in person last week & got acquainted with her family but I wish that I could have had more time alone with her. To top it off I don't know when I'll be able to see her again. Just want to take her, hold her close to me & feel her heart beat next to mine.

Cest la vie. I will see her again.


Violaquin

This one hit the nail on the head
07:38 Oct 22 2007
Times Read: 559

What's your inner power? (Girls only sorry. Beautiful anime pictures, lengthy results)

Uniqueness: Your inner power is Uniqueness! You are very different from everyone around you, and you like it that way. In fact, you'd be furious if you were anything else. To the world outside you are a buoyant, fun loving person, and are probably pretty popular. Yet deep down you feel the urge to be accepted as who you are, and desperately want someone who is truly there for you. You are very indecisive and change your mind regularly over just about anything. You're very opinionated, and bulldoze over anyone who doesn't share your views. At times you can be very depressed, though few people realize it with your animated personality. You are great fun to be around, and enjoy shocking people with your out there views and beliefs. At times however, your urge to be different can work against you, as people don't often enjoy their ideas of right and wrong having any shades of grey. But don't let them get to you; you're an awesome person who many love. You have no doubt heaps of friends, but don't always have that close friend/s that you want and need. You strive to be accepted for who you are, and are protective and loyal to those who earn your trust. Although at times you think there may be no one there, look around. There is someone in the shadows who desperately wants to be your friend, who maybe you just haven't noticed. Don't let anyone get you down, you're the one who gives this boring world excitement and culture. Keep it up! Partner who will sweep you off your feet: Someone different and independent. Someone who isn't your typical male/female, who can accept that not everything has to be black and white, and yes, there are many, many shades of grey. Your stone/jewel: Amethyst Your power: Difference/Change. This is the ability to make a difference in the world, to create new ideas and opinions, and to open up the minds of others to show that there is more than one shade of grey. Your element: Electricity/Lightening A quote that applies to you: "Id much rather to be hated for who I am than loved for who Im not." Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Bad experience at work
23:11 Oct 21 2007
Times Read: 562

Yesterday was another busy Saturday at the shop & everybody was running around trying to get things done. While a co-worker of mine was getting a sold bike ready to go, the customer (who I spoke to a week prior) mentioned he was interested in putting a rack on his bike. Rather than having him wait for the other guy to get back to have him get the damn thing, I went to get it. When I returned the guy was talking to the co-worker about the bike, which was ready to go. I waited until he was done speaking handed the customer the rack & was preparing to leave when the co-worker brought up something I had said to him weeks ago which had nothing to do with the customer, said that I was wrong about it & he did it with a nasty tone in his voice & right in front of the customer.

Making a scene is not something I was prepared to do, so I did respond & walked away. Later, when the co-worker was in back, I confronted him about it privately asking him to save anything personal that he has to say to me for later when there are no customers around. He exploded & dragged the argument out to the front in plain view & ear, of what few customers there were, cursing & yelling. But he wasn't done there. I walked away from him again because I realized he was looking for a fight & a few minutes later he got in my face hollering like a fucking maniac!

When he left I found the most obscure corner in the place & broke down crying. This was someone I called a friend & here he is taring me down like an old useless house. I feel so betrayed.

Not to mention he said some terrible things to me which I can't forgive him for. I just hope that he doesn't do anything like this again because I don't want to get involved with getting someone fired.


Later,

Religious rant
05:35 Oct 19 2007
Times Read: 564

"Though the path is different the destination is the same."

This is something that I say to a lot of my friends & to every bible thumper that crosses my path. It always starts the same way. The thumper gets on the train, waits until there will be a long gap between stops & then the preaching begins. Most of the time I am too tired to feel like getting up to knock the wind out of their ego but when I'm just in a bad mood & then I hear them starting I have to make them pay.

It doesn't matter to me what your spiritual beliefs are but don't try to press them on me. We each choose the path we feel best describes us as individuals, rather than abiding a set of lofty rules & grudgingly attending ceremonies just because that was how you were raised. Think for yourself! Make your own fate. Find your path & don't take a crap on someone elses.

I'm a Modern Primitive & am proud of it. Pushing my body to it's limits, finding they are not what society at large is lead to believe they are, brings me closer to spiritual perfection. When I hear people speaking ill of those not of their religion, going as far as saying that such people are "sinners" & will go to hell or something similar, I feel ashamed for the people that do share their religion. I know a retired piercer named Bear who has his lobes gauged out to five & a half inches, piercings along his eyebrows & his arms are tattooed black which has an awesome tribal look. The man is a devout Born Again Christian & I respect him as a true representative of his religion because he is turly open minded.

Perhaps a day will come when no one cares what your creed is & everyone is excepted based on the value of their personality. I pray that this day comes with in my life time.


Later,
Violaquin

GLBT in the media
01:48 Oct 19 2007
Times Read: 566

Recently I've been noticing more & more scenarios involving GLBT issues are being played out in popular television. Last night I watched an episode of Private Practice which had a little boy (about twelve years old) got punched by his best friend because he told him he was in love with him. Also, on Ugly Betty one of the main characters is a male to female transexual, who is faced with daily reminders of what she used to look like. I think this is an important part in the GLBT community gaining exceptance from the mass populus. People need to see us for more that just a stereotype & these monumental characters will help in demolishing them.

Later,
Violaquin

Another one
06:40 Oct 18 2007
Times Read: 568


-gasp-

Then there were two! I am being watched by two people now. How delicious that these two people are taking such an interest in my lurking habits.

Are ya having fun, huh?

-giggle-

I think I know who the two of you are, but if I ask then it ruins the excitement of knowing that anonymous people are watching my every move.

Followed
16:45 Oct 15 2007
Times Read: 576

I just noticed now that I have a stalker!

-giggle-

I wonder, who could it be? Are they watching me now? What is that person thinking about when they are watching me?

Well whoever you are I'm flattered but don't think for a second that I'm a push over, I can be very domineering when the need arises. Otherwise, carry on & watch me to your heart's content.


Later,
Violaquin

Mother deatest
06:24 Oct 11 2007
Times Read: 580

The topic of my mother is a sensitive one which is a constant bother to me. She is diabetic, pushing sixty & has many other health problems besides. She never listens to me when I give her advice or when I say it's time to go to the hospital, where she always ends up.

About two weeks ago she called me at work to say that her leg started bleeding & wouldn't stop. My first response was to tell her to call an ambulance but she disagreed. She wanted me to go to her, help her get dressed & then call the ambulance. After screaming at her for a few minutes she agreed to call so long as I would come to help her. Once I arrived on the scene I found out she did not call as I had asked her to. Needless to say I called & she was on her way as she has been so many times before.

Now she is wondering why I am angry with her. After ten years of the same crap I don't care anymore. She does not take a proactive approach to improving her condition, eats things she shouldn't & expects others to make it all better. GRRRRRRRRRR!!!

-sigh-

I feel better know that I've gotten that out of my system.


Later,
Violaquin

I have leveled!
02:51 Oct 10 2007
Times Read: 585

Finally! I'm no longer limited to ten stinking messages a day & I can post in the forum. The restrictions are a bit frustrating but being a part of this community far out weighs the benign inconveniences currently imposed upon me.

Violaquin

The Haunted House
06:00 Oct 05 2007
Times Read: 591

Ah, the time has arrived! Tomorrow the Haunted House has opens & we begin to scare all of the little townsfolk.

Muwah! Ha! Ha!

How I wait for this all year, every year & when it comes it's like I come alive. For one month I get to play the evil, angry, intolerant, hate fillled character that people assume I am. I get to terrify & petrify the truly narrow mined people that I have designed my costume to reflect.

I'm also looking forward to Samhain, as I always do. Usually I go to see a certain band that holds Samhain (they refer to it as Hollowmas) very sacred. This year they have not announced the Samhain show & I don't intend on leaving my plans up in the air on such an important day, so I will have to make other plans.

A new home
18:55 Oct 03 2007
Times Read: 601

I am very happy to have been shown this site by my new found partner (& probable host). For two years now I have had to push aside parts of my life in order to focus on what I needed to do to survive. Now that I have a job where I am accepted for the person that I am & have my own apartment, free of all intrusions, I can finally reconnect to myself. After I awakened as a pagan & otherkin during this life, late, at the age of eighteen I sought & fought to know all I could about my inner workings.

I look forward to many happy encounters with the other members of the vampire community.

Later,
Violaquin